#brug

He's playing Happy Home Designer

i like drawing these idiots as kids :) mostly cus its easy lmao but also cute tee hee. This is an old drawing but i had touched it up a few months ago.

2016/2017 were the peak years of Sans fangirls, and there were far more people pretending to be Sans fangirls than there were people who actually cared about Sans as a character. I know this because several of my longtime friends/mutuals I met through the Sans fangirls amino that I made have admitted they just did it because they felt like it/had no real feelings towards Sans or didn't even actually know much about undertale to begin with. I think this phenomenon can be attributed to the success of Birdie, Sashley, Scootaloo loves Sans, Casual Susan, Fano Fixedsys, etc. and people wanting that same level of attention. A lot of people would do it because they wanted to be seen as "one of the good ones" during a time where there was a lot of hostility, harassment and ridicule amongst other Sans fangirls, so being a "good" one would get you popular.

I'm starting to see a similar phenomenon happen again, but now its people trying to find really niche characters, trying to be the FIRST and BEST selfshipper of that character, etc etc and their passion only comes from wanting popularity or to be KNOWN as something, rather than an actual love for the character. I think a lot of people forget why some selfshippers get "popular" in the first place, and its because we're just doing what we love. We aren't trying overly hard, we arent doing it for the appraise of others. It makes me sad seeing newer selfshippers so confused and have so many insecurities that the community perpetuates. You don't NEED to be a good artist, you dont need EVERY merch of a character or a shrine, you dont NEED to be the #1 fan, you don't need to force yourself to pump out "content" of your ship, selfshipping should never be content. Its a very personal and intimate expression of yourself and a character you love, for whatever reason that may be.

To the public I've only been selfshipping with Bugs Bunny for maybe 2-ish years, but I've been selfshipping with him since I was a kid. Before there was any term to describe it. I didnt have lots of toys or merch of him, in fact I had literally nothing. All I had was a space jam dvd and I would watch Looney tunes on CN, sometimes Boomerang. I would daydream about him on and off for years, in 2019 I tried to draw him, but I wasn't very satisfied with it. I tried again, then I started regularly attempting to draw him in 2021. By 2023, I could draw him more confidently and thats when I started developing my self-insert. It was pretty much how I always imagined myself when I was a kid, which was some kind of assistant or working with him in some way. The point of all this is, I didn't start drawing Bugs and myself until much later, or collecting stuff of Bugs, or even interacting with other people in the looney tunes community until very recently, but from the little I had and could do when I was a kid, it didn't make me any less of a selfshipper or mean I didn't like Bugs enough. Its something I wish people who are newer to selfshipping would understand. Its meant to be for you and only for you, showing affection for a character you are TRULY passionate about. Not to have the best ship or biggest shrine or the greatest art or whatever else.

This weirdness around selfshipping has made me step back from being online for a while. I dont like being viewed as a content creator or a popluar artist. I'm just a person that likes cartoon characters. I dont like knowing other people feel like they have to compete with me. Thats not what I wanted. I dont really know where I was going with this, I guess I'm just fustrated that something so important to me is being misconstrued and people are handling things in such unhealthy ways.

De brug bij Zeeburg over het Amsterdam-Rijnkanaal - Bert Osinga , 2004.

Dutch , b. 1953 -