if youâre still taking requests for CRK, could you write something about the ancients with a minion of their respective beasts? If not all of them maybe hollyberry and Pure Vanilla
maybe the reader followed the beasts before they corrupted and just donât know how to let go, still clinging to the hope that the virtue they followed is still down there.
But they donât hate the ancients, they donât hate anyone.
(Sorry if this sent twice, tumblrs being weird)
Grief Is the Price of Belief
Tags: Pure Vanilla Cookie x Reader, Hollyberry Cookie x Reader, Post-War Reflection, Found Family, Bittersweet Hope, Broken Ideals, Quiet Redemption, Soft Angst, Comfort Without Fixing, Supportive, Disillusionment.
Warnings: Emotional Distress, Grief and Loss, Past Manipulation.
A/N: Might be ooc in Hollyberry Cookie's part because I haven't reached chapter 10 yet... đśââď¸
The Spire of Deceit has long since fallen silent. The wind howls through broken marble and whispers through the cracks like forgotten prayers.
You sit on the edge of a shattered balcony, legs dangling, the stars above unbothered by Cookie-kindâs suffering. Below, the remnants of what once wasâyour loyalty, your devotionâlie buried under moonlight and ruins. You once followed Shadow Milk Cookie, not out of malice, but because he spoke of truth twisted by perception. Of freedom from dogma. Of eyes opened.
Pure Vanilla Cookie stands quietly behind you. He doesn't speak at first, doesnât offer pity, only presence.
âI used to think,â you say, âthat he only wanted to free us from illusion.â
You donât mention Shadow Milkâs name. Neither does he.
âI know,â Pure Vanilla says softly, his staff glowing faintly beside him. âSo did I.â
You turn to look at him. He doesnât meet your eyesâhis remain closed, as alwaysâbut you sense that he sees you more than anyone else ever has.
âI didnât hate you when the war started,â you whisper. âI didnât understand. I still donât. But I never⌠hated you.â
âI wouldnât ask you to,â he replies, his voice nearly lost in the breeze. âI failed him. Failed you. Truth is not a weapon. I tried to wield it like one⌠and forgot that it can break like glass.â
You inhale shakily. âHeâs still in there. Somewhere. Isnât he?â
Pure Vanilla Cookie sits beside you slowly, the vanilla orchid eye in his staff blinking once, as if contemplating. âTruth doesnât disappear,â he murmurs. âIt gets buried. Shrouded. Sometimes corrupted. But I believe⌠no truth is ever truly lost. Only misremembered.â
You look away, tears pricking at your eyes. âThen why does it hurt so much to believe in it?â
He smiles faintly. âBecause belief is an act of courage.â
Thereâs a silence. The kind you share with someone who knows grief as well as you do.
He doesnât tell you to let go. He doesnât ask you to forget. He just remains there, a steady warmth at your side.
âYou once followed a shadow,â he says gently. âNow⌠maybe you can walk beside the light. Not to erase the past, but to honor what was once true within it.â
The scent of battle always clung to herâberries, dust, and ironâbut it was her laughter that rang first.
And for the first time in ages, you wonder if you can.
âOi! Thought I might find you brooding again.â
You didnât lift your head. The fields outside the Gardenâs border were blooming again, but you couldnât bring yourself to look at them.
Eternal Sugar Cookie had made them bloom once. Not like this, but better. Sweeter. You had believed in herâbefore.
Before the Garden became a cage.
Before joy turned into compulsion.
Before comfort became control.
âShe only wanted everyone to be happy,â you said aloud, your voice cracked.
You heard a grunt, then the sound of heavy armor as Hollyberry Cookie dropped beside you, resting her arm over her bent knee.
âShe forgot the cost of real happiness,â Hollyberry muttered. âThe kind you fight for. Cry for. Bleed for.â
You looked at her. She was fire, alwaysâloud and alive and real. And you had feared her once. Not because she was cruel, but because she reminded you of everything youâd run from.
âShe wanted to protect us from pain,â you murmured.
âShe protected us from feeling anything at all,â Hollyberry said. âThatâs not kindness. Thatâs fear with a ribbon on top.â
You winced. âDonât speak about her likeââ
âLike sheâs gone?â Hollyberry looked at you then, eyes sharp. âShe is. That Sugar you followed, the one who just wanted to help? Sheâs buried under layers of illusion. Candy-coated chains.â
Your heart cracked. You hated how right it sounded.
âI still see her,â you whispered. âSometimes. In her voice. In the way she smiles.â
Hollyberryâs expression softened. She sighed, brushing a hand over your shoulderânot gentle, but steady.
âYeah,â she said. âI see her too.â
You blinked, startled.
âYou do?â
âI fought her, didnât I?â Hollyberry shrugged. âFace to face. I saw the hurt behind the honeyed words. The desperation in that perfect paradise. I saw her soul crying outâand I still said no.â
You swallowed.
âWas that⌠easy?â
âNot in the slightest,â Hollyberry said. âShe meant a lot to me. Still does. But if I let her keep me there, Iâd be betraying her worst.â
Your hands trembled in your lap.
âI donât hate her,â you confessed. âBut I canât live in her dream anymore.â
Hollyberry stood. âThen donât.â
You looked up at her.
âCome with me,â she said. âWeâll grieve her together. Weâll remember her right. And when the day comes that she wakes upâif it ever doesâweâll be ready.â
You didnât know if that day would come.
But you took her hand anyway.
Because Hollyberry didnât promise false comfort. She offered a path forward. One you could walk, even with grief stitched into every step.
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