#breakdown time

Breakdown no. 20484 about SIX Australia closing on Sunday 😭✌️

wooo

the one friend i cried for days no weeks no months no actually years. the friend for whom i gaslit myself into loving her then not loving her then forgetting about her existence and then to believing she cared about me. i was so young to understand what a friendship truly meant. what being best friends actually was. we just hung out every day with each other. we just had a dozen inside jokes. we just knew each other’s family. we just went to each other’s home every other day. we just talked every day. but after 3 years i realised. i never really opened up to you. i have lied about my feelings so many times to you. and you never caught up. you never really knew me. and i have grown so much. i have grown so much, i have become much cooler person than i was before. you kept me restrained. you know, i lied to you about the marks i obtained in class because i thought i wasn’t living up to your standards? but friendships don’t have any standards. it’s not like i can forget you or forgive you for what you did to me. i still miss you every day. i still wish i could hold you like i used to three years ago. i wish i could see your laugh once again from a first person pov and not from far away. but i don’t miss you. i don’t want to miss you. i don’t care about you. and i don’t want to care about you. it took you a year to forget about my existence but i’m still on after three years haha. even though knowing we were never truly best friends.