#bpd paranoia

All I want is you

something bad is going to happen something bad is going to happen I feel it I feel it somebody’s coming after me someone’s going to hurt me it could be anyone what is happening please someone help me for some reason I can’t see who is in co con or talk to any of the other alters I can’t Im scared I’m so scared please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please

Questioning if I'm actually loved or if im that good at manipulating people and they just think they love me but in reality im a monster and they hate me

Do you think she will hurt me?

I feel like I'm stuck halfway in my own world of paranoia, surrounded by a bubble with things and people on the other side.

they are doing this to me deliberately, to taunt me or to watch me suffer and squirm over them to fuel their ego, i know it, i cant prove it but i know it.

i dont think people understand how scared and paranoid i am about being roped into people fetishes, even my own family members could do things and at a bad time I’ll panic because i worry im being sexualised and i just dont realise it and i know its not true but i tell people not to do certain things around me or to go into a different room and do it and they don’t listen im so scared its all in my head but im so scared