#borderpolar

sighhhh

This is not the first time I’m realizing this. It’s just making me really upset now

all of my exes were the same

we’re all lovey-dovey for a few weeks .. everything is going well. And eventually they become my FP (favorite person)

they start using me for smth (it’s almost always sexual and since I’m hypersexual I always provide it, almost desperately because I think it’ll make them like me more) so , I become obsessed

and that means they either get disgusted or they start distancing themselves from me and then I get suicidal

and then they get a new partner because their poly and starts ignoring me

and then they break up with me.

and.. I usually attempt when they break up with me

it’s all the same I swear to god

sigh

I don’t know why I’m splitting now out of all times

I don’t even know why I’m complaining rn..

I might be having a episode

I HATE BEING LIKE THIS!! I NEVER ASKED TO HAVE THESE STUPID ASS DISORDERS

FUCK BPD AND BIPOLAR

FUUUUUCKK

I HATE MYSELFFJEJEJDJEN

( don’t worry I’ll be fine soon enough. im just being dramatic rn)