#borderline tag

you dont need to forgive people who've hurt you/people you've hurt but at some point the damage you put yourself through on purpose - IF YOU'RE DOING THAT - by reading old messages, seeing art, listening to their music, etc, is detrimental. you godda let that shit go. associate new memories with these things. delete them. its okay.

I am waiting for the day when I am happy that I did not die when I wanted to. I wait for the moment when all the pain makes sense and all the scars have been worth it

okay im tired of it i dont wanna have borderline anymore this shit fucking sucks. im tired of people taking advantage of my love and running for the hills when it gets to be too much, or claiming im an abuser, or whatever the fuck. im tired of not being able to handle rejection. im tired of the abandonment issues, perceived or not. i dont deserve this. nobody does.

just started re-writing My Novel that i haven't touched in almost 5 years and which i first started almost 10 years ago. i've drastically changed several things about the story, but i've written a couple of lines that are so these characters that my chest physically hurt. i've missed them like friends.

our father, who art in heaven, baja be thy blast