Long time no see!
I've returned to this blog once again to vent about my mental health downward spiral and ny attempts at getting it back on track.
I've nearly got 2 years clean from heroin and other hard substances :)
My abusive ex is finally out of my life :)
Im moving to a new state next year :)
Im training to be a dog groomer and I'm happy at my job :)
I got diagnosed with ASD :) (relived to finally figure my brain out a little bit more)
Unfortunately, my anxiety is atrocious, I've had the same nightmare every night for years, my GERDS is really acting up, I think I've relapsed back into bulimia, (I'm nearly at my heaviest weight again from all of the meds I'm on and my thyroid issues) I have zero desire to work out when im not feeling well and exhausted from work, my OCD is the worst it's ever been and I can't fight my compulsions, my very first love is back in my life except with a wife and baby, and I finished a 3rd round of accutane and once again it didn't work.
I've been feeling heavily agitated. I'm always angry. I want to be mean and nasty to everyone, but that's not cool. I do my best to redirect my anger bc im not really angry at them.
I hope I can find a solution soon. Recovery isn't linear, but I don't plan on letting go.
