#boosari

You look up at the clock hanging on the kitchen wall. 6:45 am. You woke up early this morning and made breakfast for you and your husband Seungcheol.

After being done with preparing breakfast, you walk to your shared bedroom. as promised, to wake seungcheol up since he asked, no begged you last night to wake him up early for work.

Opening the door, you look over your bed and there is a Cheol, sleeping peacefully while his chest rises up and down as he softly snores.

You smile, feeling a bit guilty for waking him up from his beautiful moment. But a promise is a promise. So you walk up to him and sit on the bed. You admire his face features for a while, asking yourself how did you get so lucky to have someone like him.

You place your hand gently on his shoulder and shake him lightly. "Cheol, honey wake up" you mutter softly, as his brows furrow.

"Hmm..." he frowns, making you smile wider at his cuteness. but he doesn't show any sign of wanting to get out of bed.

"Cheool come on it's time to wake up, you'll be late to work" you shake his shoulder a bit more. "Hmm!" he whines, moving a bit, his brows still furrowed.

"Come on! you slept so much already" you whine out, hoping that he would at least open his eyes.

"No i didn't sleep much" he mumbles, with his deep and raspy morning voice.

"Yes you did. come on, you were the one who begged me last night to wake you up early" you shake him again. "What time is it?" he asks, eyes still closed. "It's almost 7am" you reply hoping that this would make him get up.

"Hmm..." he hums again, shifting in his place to find a more comfortable position. You roll your eyes.

You know seungcheol is a light sleeper, he would instantly get up after waking up. He's faking right now just because he doesn't want to get up.

"Come on, i made us breakfast" you smile a bit. "Hmhm" nothing to do. The idea of getting up doesn't even cross his mind.

Just then, an idea pops in your head as you smile mischievously. "Then...i'll kiss you until you wake up!" you state, getting closer to his face and start to pepper all over it. "Hmm! stop! stop the kissing!" he whines out, trying to stop you.

"Then get up"

"No"

"Seungcheol. You begged me last night to wake you up!"

"No i didn't"

"Yes you did!"

"Whatever, i don't remember"

Now, you don't know if he's acting like he doesn't remember or he just doesn't. But anyhow, he needs to get up.

"Get up~ i made us breakfast" you repeat, excited. "Hmm stop annoying me" you roll your eyes, again. "You really aren't going to get up?" "Hmm"

"Fine then! I'll go eat breakfast alone, don't mind me, just enjoy your sleep" you reply sarcastically as you get up to make your way out.

Just when you were about to get out, you hear your husband. "I'm awake now" he giggles. "Whatever" you reply, annoyed.

He gets up and wraps his arms around your waist from behind, hugging you. "I'm still mad at you" you mumble. He just smiles, "You can't be mad at me, now let's go eat breakfast. Thank you for waking me up" he says, giving a peck on your cheek, making you smile again.

a/n: hi everyone! this is my very first fic. i know it lacks in different ways, probably did some grammar errors as well (english is not my first language), but still i hope you enjoy!

seungkwan didn't know why you had chosen to go on a walk at this ungodly hour in the middle of the afternoon with the heat of the sun hitting his face and making him feel like he's melting into a puddle (even with the mass amounts of sunscreen he had put on). he has been enjoying it nonetheless since he gets to spend time with you and admire nature's beauty, but he's had his arm wrapped around yours for the past fifteen minutes because he swears he's been hearing something buzz in his damn ear.

but now the two of you were entering into a more remote location in the park after being on the same trail for the past many minutes. the sun's rays were being blocked by the tall, hovering trees and seungkwan swears he can finally breathe without the sun incinerating him--not entirely though. as the rustling of leaves and the distant calls of birds fills the air, he always finds himself flinching out of caution.

and he hears that buzz again.

"eugh!" he screeches, yanking on your arm which causes you to stumble in surprise.

his eyes widen as he points to his ear. "it's that buzzing again! there's something in my ear, i know it!"

you suppress a chuckle and pat his arm reassuringly. "calm down, baby. it's probably just a fly or a mosquito. let me check."

he reluctantly allows you to guide him to sit down on a nearby fallen log. you inspect his ear while he shoots anxious glances around.

"see there's nothing in your ear--"

"AHHH!" he stands up from the log and runs back to the trail, shaking his head violently and waving his hands in the air as if he was trying to karate chop something, like he's in an epic battle with an invisible insect army.

"kwannie, what are you doing?" you call out, trying to hold back laughter.

"it's in my hair! it's in my hair!" he shrieks, voice reaching a pitch that could probably shatter glass. "oh my god, i think i touched it! it's huge!"

"baby, it's just a small fly! it won't kill you!" that's enough to send him barreling back in your direction, his hands on your shoulders as he hides behind you, as if your body became a shield for his defenses against a literal fly.

"seungkwan, are you serious?" you say between giggles, looking over your shoulder at him. rolling your eyes, you spin around and wrap your arms around him, pulling him into a warm embrace. "i promise you, the fly isn't going to harm you. it's probably more scared of you than you are of it."

seungkwan lets out a nervous laugh as you hold him close, arms hesitantly wrapping around you as if he's still half-expecting an attack from the invisible fly. his heart is racing, and you can feel the rapid rhythm against your own chest.

"well, i hope that fly knows better than to mess with me," seungkwan mumbles against your shoulder, which causes more laughter to bubble out of you.

buzz.

You've experienced love. Since young age, you have loved. Since you were a high school student, where people would judge you, regardless of how you looked, how you behaved, what particularities you had, your flaws, even your qualities.

You were judged. You were belittled, insulted and made fun of. Like you were some kind of joke to people. You didn't expect so much cruelty when you started high school.

It made you suffer, indeed. It made you feel oppressed, like you weren't enough, like something was wrong with you. You always tried to stay strong, tried to ignore, the ignorance of the people. Because you knew that you were better. You knew you were not like them.

And there he comes. He, who helped you when you were crushed by the words of those unfeeling people. He who smiled at you, who always stood by your side, who always stood up for you.

That's when you understood what love was like. What love felt like.

'Is this love?' Was what you thought.

An emotion, so deep, so tight, so sharp and unavoidable towards someone. So this is what it feels like.

It made you warm, beat your heart faster. It made you feel heat in your cheeks, sometimes all of your face. He would just look at you while smiling. His sweet, sooth voice ringing in your ears made you love him more each day. His soft features, full brows, sharp, yet elegant eyes, small polished nose, and prominent lips. Made you fall in real love.

Joshua was always kind with you. He was the sweetest person you've ever met since you started school. He would always greet you, smiling, making his eyes almost, almost disappear.

After he defended you, no one bothered you anymore. And you were grateful. You wanted to return the favour. And you were doing it by loving him. That's what you thought.

That feeling has never changed, except for the fact that it increased even more. You're now a senior, near graduating. You still love Joshua, more than ever.

And you were planning on finally confessing your love to him. It's been four long years. He always made you feel comfortable, safe and loved. He always treated you right, always been sweet, with his words and actions. You often hanged out, and had good times together. You always smiled when you were with him.

"What if I mess up?" The nervousness in your voice couldn't get passed unnoticed by your friend Vernon.

Vernon is another amazing friend of yours. You became friends in 10th grade. He is a common friend of you and Joshua. He also is the only one who knows about your big crush on his friend.

Vernon sighs, rolling his eyes for the nth time today.

"You're overthinking Y/n".

He's right. You are. But you have good reasons for it.

"You can't blame me Nonie. You know how I am" You reply bothered, banging your head against the kitchen table.

"It's simple, Y/n. You have liked him for years now, you have to tell how you feel. If he feels the same, boom, you date". He gestures with his hands.

"And what if he doesn't?" You raise your head, a small pout on your lips.

"Well, then you will stay friends? I guess?" He tilts his head, making a weird face.

You giggle at him. "I honestly wouldn't mind that. I would feel sad, yes, but he is a good friend. He makes me feel safe, that's everything i need from him. Just being a good friend". You stare at blankly at the table.

It's true. Joshua is a good friend of yours, aside from being the boy you love. Staying friends with him didn't bother you, if you got rejected, you just hoped to stay the same. For him to stay the same. To be the same Joshua who would always smile, who would always listen to you and give you advices.

Just a good friend.

"But what if the confession will ruin everything? I mean, if I get rejected, will he change? What if I ruin our friendship? What if he gets distant? What if he-"

Your rambling is interrupted by your friend's voice.

"Y/n. Knowing Joshua, I think he would probably reject you politely. Nothing between you two would change if you ask me". You watch your friend getting up and opening your fridge.

"Wow, you really need to do some grocery shopping" He mumbles, staring at your almost empty fridge.

You let out a small laugh. "Yea, I really should".

Vernon grabs a bottle of wine, probably one of the last things left in your fridge, closes it and proceeds to take two glasses from the cabinet on top of the sink. He makes his way back to the table.

"This is what you need right now" He smiles, showing you the wine bottle. You keep watching your friend pouring the liquor in the glasses.

"Okay, let's have this drink, a cheers to you and Joshua? Hmm? How about this, you'll call him, later, or maybe tomorrow, whenever you're ready. No need to rush. You will ask him to hang out, like you mostly do, and will confess. Okay?" Your friend calmly states, pushing one of the glasses towards you as he picks the other.

You smile warmly at him and nod, picking up your glass as well. You both raise it and chin, before drinking.

Your phone suddenly feels heavier in your hands which are shaking lightly as you breathe heavily.

What if I ruin everything?

You close your eyes and sigh.

"You can do this. Just like every other time, it's not the first time you hang out Y/n" You mumble to yourself, before taking a deep breath and scrolling through the contacts.

You bite your lip nervously before clicking on Joshua's number, putting the phone on your ear.

After two rings, he picks up.

"Hello?" his sweet voice echos through the line, you squint your eyes.

"Hi Joshua" you reply, trying to hide the nervousness in your trembling voice.

"Hi Y/n, everything okay?" You could feel his smile through the phone.

"I'm good, thank you. I uhm, wanted to ask you if you wanted to hang out one of these days.." You were now walking back and forth in your room.

"Sure, why not? When would you like to?"

"How about...tomorrow? By the park near your house at 6?" You bite your nails.

"Okay then, it's settled. See you tomorrow Y/n" Through the line, you hear some wind and a car pass by. He probably wasn't at home, you thought.

"See you" You mumble before hanging up.

As soon as you hang up, you let out a long breath, putting a hand on your chest.

You regain yourself and walk to the kitchen, feeling a bit hungry. It was late, but a night snack won't hurt right?

Opening your fridge, you see nothing except some eggs, few apples and a bottle of water. You groan, remembering Vernon's statement of few days ago.

You close the fridge, making up your mind. You walk to your room and put on a light jacket. You grab your wallet, keys and walk to the door. Time for some late night grocery shopping.

As you walk out, you get on the elevator and pull out your phone. You send a quick massage to Vernon.

y/nssi

Hey, I called Joshua, we're meeting tomorrow.

Vernon almost immediately replies.

chew

You go girl 🫵

You smile and shake your head. The elevator door opens and you exit, making your way to the nearest grocery store.

Thankfully, there was one 5 minutes away. You get in and look around, walking through the isles. You get some veggies, some fruits, other ingredients, some instant ramen, and some sweets, such as chocolate, cookies, and strawberry milk.

You make your way to the counter and pay. Putting everything in the plastic bag, you smile and great the cashier before getting out.

You sigh and start walking home. While walking, you raise your head and notice two figures standing at the side of the road. You squint your eyes, one of them was a bit too familiar. His silhouette, his outfit, the way he was standing, the outlines of his hair. Everything was too familiar.

"Is that Joshua..?" you mutter to yourself.

A small laugh suddenly rings in your ears and your eyes widen.

It was him.

He wasn't alone tho. Tangled with his laugh was another, of a female. You look at her, you don't recall anything. You probably didn't know her. She was beautiful tho, even in the dark, you could see her pale, cotton coloured skin, her smooth hair, her double eyelids, small nose and full lips.

You kept looking at them, they looked very close.

She looks up at him, still smiling, before getting on her tiptoes, her lips touch his.

She kissed him.

Joshua pulls her close, wrapping an arm around her waist.

Captured by the moment, you didn't notice that the plastic bag you were holding dropped.

You freeze, not being able to move. Your eyes are wide. You feel the cold breeze hit your face. Your heart aches, breaks into pieces. It was painful, it was ripping your chest.

You suddenly feel a salty taste in your mouth, and only then you realise that tears were streaming down your face.

You get back to reality, crouch down and pick up the bag before running away.

You didn't care if he noticed, you didn't care if he saw you. You just kept running, the tears weren't stopping, the ache wasn't either.

It was hurting. Your heart was hurting.

You were sad, miserable, you felt pathetic.

But most of all, you felt disappointed. You were disappointed in him.

You knew each other for years, and never even once he dared to mention about her. Why would he do that? Why?

Maybe it was your fault? Maybe you should've asked? Maybe he didn't want to tell you..? Maybe they just met each other..?

No, you knew Joshua. He wouldn't kiss a girl he just met. They probably knew each other.

Shame on him.

He always acted nice and sweet, always cared for you, always made you happy. He always gave you hints, gave you hope.

Everything was fake. Everything was an illusion. And now you're here, a crying mess. Your legs moving on its own, hoping to reach home fast. Your head hurts from all the thinking.

You worried, you were concerned, you always though about him, about your relationship, your friendship. You were worried about confessing, being rejected, about ruining everything. About loosing him.

You didn't want to blame him, but there was no one else to blame.

Your thoughts, assumptions, your biggest worries weren't even a problem...

The real problem was totally another.

Love is beautiful, indeed.

But it's cruel as fuck.

a/n: gosh i love angst. i love making myself (and you🫵) suffer heheh...by the way, i honestly don't even know how i came up with this, just thought for a moment and as we know joshua is our gentleman, sweet soul. but i wanted to make it a little sad so here it is. i hope you guys enjoy :)

When Soonyoung’s eyes open, he’s met with a very bright light, making him squint his eyes back shut. Slowly he would get used to it and finally lift his half stiff body. He feels something soft yet biting on his skin and when he looks around, he realizes that he was laying on fresh green grass.

The place looks surreal: along with the grass are some colorful flowers, all of them are bloomy and smell fruity. The sky is clear, in a soft baby blue color.

“Soonyoung! Here you are”. The voice makes him snap his head, looking towards the sound.

His eyes widened at the sight - it was you. Standing there and looking down at him, with a tilted head, the sides of your lips curved upwards, forming that beautiful smile of yours. He smiles as well and gets up, his body towering you.

You look around, your eyes are dreamy, sparkling. “Isn’t it beautiful? This place?” You mutter and bring your gaze up to his face again.

Soonyoung takes a look at the place once again before giving a short, obvious reply: “Yes, it really is''. He turns his head back to you, a puzzled expression setting up on his face. “But…Where are we?”, his hand - which was resting on his side -, lifts slightly to take yours into his.

Your smile fades a little and that makes Soonyoung’s confusion grow even more. You’re blank for a few minutes, before you smile again. “It’s our favorite place, Soonyoung. Come here, let me show you!”

The hold on his hand tightens and you start walking, guiding him through the unknown place. He’s confused, but he quickly shrugs it off, looking at the locks of your hair that are swaying each step.

It seemed like you knew this place as you walked confidently in the grass. It felt like a dream, both of you walking freely, totally in love. Soonyoung always dreamt of living with you, scattered somewhere, where no one could find you. And a house, big enough for you two and maybe even a family over time.

His thoughts are cut short when you stop your tracks and turn to him. “Soonyoung, look”, your hand raises, your finger pointing forward.

His gaze lifts looking at where your finger is pointing, and his eyes widen once again. A beautiful tree, hovering the both of you: a cherry blossom with its pinky flowers. Soonyoung feels a light breeze on his skin, making him get goosebumps.

The gentle wind waves the petals of those pink cherry blossoms. He smiles and looks down at you. “This sight is so pretty…” he slowly brings his hand on your cheek, caressing it softly, “Just like you”. His words make your cheeks heat up as you smile. 

It felt like a dream, like you both were floating, surrounded by love and the smell of flowers. Everything was perfect - too perfect. His eyes gazed at yours and the only thing you could see in them was adoration. Soonyoung adored you, in a way no one has before.

When Soonyoung breaks eye contact and glances behind you, he lets out a small gasp. “A waterfall”, he mutters, making you turn as well. “Oh!” you smile. “Let’s go?” you look at him, waiting for his reply.  Soonyoung simply nods, excitement filling his body.

You both ran towards the waterfall and when you reached there, the both of you were both speechless. If the cherry blossom looked pretty, this was indeed delightful.

Green surrounded the water as it quickly fell in the small forming lake, the water looked clean, like pristine.

You walk besides Soonyoung, going forward. He looks at you, both in admiration and panic. “Y/n?” He calls out, but you keep walking, allured by nature's beauty. “You’re not going to jump in the water, are you? It’s dangerous” He warns you, but you were hypnotized, as if all of the sounds were muffled. The only thing that would ring in your ears was the sound of the water.

You stop in front of the small lake and finally turn to look at your lover, who’s looking at you, panic visible on his face. “How about we take a bath? The water looks so nice…” You smile at him and he looks down.

“But, we will get wet. And we have no spare clothes”. You just keep smiling: “It’s okay, we will deal with it later. Now come here, let’s jump in together” You wave your hand, signaling him to come over. He lets out a little sigh and slowly walks towards you.

One of the particularities of you to which Soonyoung has fallen for is your braveness. You never had fear of trying new things, of discovering the world, of being curious. He loved how you would always suggest things to do, and he would always give in because of his extremely unavoidable love for you.

After taking your shoes off, you intertwine your fingers with his and look up at him. “Are you ready? I’m going to countdown from three” He turns his head and looks at you for a few seconds before nodding. You smile and take a deep breath in: “One, two…Three!”.

Soonyoung jumps, squinting his eyes. But he panics when he feels you releasing the hold on his hand while jumping.

Eventually, he lands in the water, floating in it. What makes him panic more, is the anxious feeling scattering through his chest. He feels empty, as if something is missing.

When his body is pushed upward by the water, he takes a deep breath and wipes his face quickly. Opening his eyes, he looks forward, expecting you, laughing at him for falling into your trap. Meanwhile, he’s met with the sight of no one.

You weren’t there. It was you who was missing. Soonyoung breathes slowly, thinking that it’s one of your torturing pranks again. “Y/N, enough joking! The water’s cold. It’s not fair, you should jump in too!” His tone is whiny. But when he hears no reply, the panic starts to rise again. “Y/n?” He’s now looking around, his brows arching. No reply.

That’s when he decides to get out of the water, his feet touching the ground once again. Too busy trying to find you, he doesn’t mind being barefoot. Soonyoung starts to walk around, calling out your name while checking all of the angles of the dreamy place he’s in.

You were nowhere to be found. He feels a sting on his heart, his breath getting heavier. Your prank was getting too much. “Y/n, please it’s not funny anymore. Just come out!” He yells, hoping desperately for a reply from you. Still nothing.

After what seemed like hours of walking around that seemingly endless grass, searching for you, Soonyoung stops his tracks. He’s still looking around, oblivious and afraid.

Where could you be? How could you disappear in such a short time? His mind is filled with thoughts and questions. The place was virtually infinite, it would be impossible to find you.

Soonyoung is filled with anxiety, his desperate voice is not calling you out anymore as he just keeps looking around miserably. Then, what comes to his mind is: going to the cherry blossom tree. “What a fool. How come I didn't think of it earlier?”. He makes up his mind and starts walking again.

Countless were the steps he took on that green grass, trying to find that tree. Finally, reaching a particularly fragrant, bright area, he looks up. There it is, the cherry blossom tree. Still with its beautiful pinky color. Some of the flowers were falling on the high grass, slowly, floating in the air.

But still, there was no sight of you.

Soonyoung starts to call out your name again, circling around the trunk of the tree. After a while, he loses hope. He feels himself consumed, his throat tightens and the tears he has held until now start to flaw down his round cheeks. His back is on the trunk, as he slides down, sitting on the soft yet biting grass.

That’s when he realizes that he’s trapped there alone, forever.

a/n: I know, I know. I've been missing for a whole month...that's not great is it? School really consumed me we could say. I am so busy, that I don't even have the time to complete my regular routine and do regular things. I'm always on my books T^T. I apologise for my absence. My birthday was few days ago, so here's a gift to you from me. Stay safe!

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