July 10th, 2025
My favourite quote by Oscar Wilde is "All art is quite reckless." And I miss the recklessness, dearly, desperately. In the midst of trying to build a career in stem, because I love it to, I have lost touch with art.
I honestly feel like quitting Physics, maybe I will, because its not working for me at all, it makes me sick and its extremely draining for me to go forward with it because I am constantly in a state of absolute burnout.
I want to go back to studying the subjects I love, I liked Biology, but yeah well, okay maybe its time I give it a shot as a career option. I'm scared, terrified out of my soul honestly that what if it doesn't work out but what if it does, because then I can do writing alongside it too, which I keep disconnecting from now and then.
I'm not sure if this is going to work, but I cannot help but feel a sense of relief despite the aftertaste of guilt that follows. I want to be happy with what I do and what I wake up to at the end of the day.
