Alone.. That’s how I feel. I can sit in a room full of people and I still feel alone. I can laugh and keep conversation as  if nothing is wrong, but inside I am dying. I just want to be loved. Like truly loved. I want the kind of relationship that only happens in movies. Where’s my Danny Zuko? To be honest, he’s probably lost somewhere. Maybe he’s closer than I think. Who knows. 

Unmotivated.. I do not want to do anything. If I could lay in my bed and not move all day. That would be ideal.. Kids, my job, and my puppy don’t really let that happen. So I go to work reluctantly and do my role in society. 

Hello guys! Welcome back to my “blog time” section.

Today I’ll tell you how I balanced music practice and high school. In fact, conservatories in Italy are divided into preacademic classes (courses for young people who want to prepare themselves for the academic music courses) and academic classes. So, I started with preacademic courses when I was 16, while I attented high school, where I studied languages. In the morning I followed the classes at the high school of my town, then in the afternoon (3 times per week) I used to go at the conservatory by train (which is about 1h journey). As I already explained, italian high schools are really tough, and students are overburdened by homework, so it wasn’t easy to attend both school and conservatory.

In addition, in Italy you can also follow the academic courses part-time and study at another university at the same time. I personally don’t do that, because I don’t want to have a “double life” anymore, but there are a lot of people who choose this option.

So, here’s my advices for anyone who wants to balance music practice and high school/university:

1-stay organised: it’s important to have a diary in which you plan your daytime, so that you won’t forget to do anything that’s important;

2-do everything in advance! try to not procrastinate;

3-if your music school allows you to use their rooms go practice there before and after classes, every minute counts!

4-take advantage of every lesson: stay concentrated during classes, take a lot of notes (I also used to record my teacher). if you understand the lesson while you’re at school, you will need less time to study once at home;

5-don’t mix both things! if I had a really tough week I used to finish my music homework (like armony or composing) during my high school classes, result: I didnt’ follow the lesson and my music homework were messed up. never do that! everything has his own time and place;

6-use evenings for music: I used to study my high school subjects in the afternoon (if I was at home), while I studied voice/piano in the evenings, since I didn’t need the same level of concentration;

7-if you want to be a musician PUT MUSIC FIRST: sometimes I just wanted to be good at school, so I didn’t practice enough to get good notes in the traditional subjects, but it was a mistake. of course you have to study at high school/university, but if your aim in life is music, you should be focused on that, practice as much as you can, and literally put it first anything else;

Good luck! Let me know if you’re appreciating this kind of posts, xo

But you were tattooed on me first, then cocaine.

Hello world!

I just survived my music analysis exam, since I’m now free I’m going to use this chance to stay active on the blog. So, as people suggested in the last post, I’m going to speak about the experience of studying in Italy.

So, I was born and raised in Italy and, despite all the flaws you can find in the Italian Education System, I’m quite sure it is still one of the best in the world.

First thing you need to know, if you are planning to come to study in Italy, is that italian universities only offer courses in the italian language (except faculties like medicine in big cities like Milan), so yes, if you want to attend an italian school you’ll need a language certification. The best thing about Italian Education System is that is FREE, and by free I mean that, until university, you don’t have to pay anything to study (except the price of books). Universities are public too, but you have to pay some taxes which can go from 900 euros (that’s the case of most conservatories) to 2000 euros per year, but that’s nothing in front of the costs of english or american universities, for example.

Italian school is known for its high standards, history (as you know, Bologna university was the very first one in the world), and for its theorical approach to subjects. Since middle school, students start studying really hard. Italian kids are used to study approximately 5/7 hours per day (especially in high school), that’s also why most of italian students don’t work, not even part-time. This system provides students an high level of education, but it can be stressfull and it lacks of a pratical approach. Very often, when italian students go (for example for a master) studying abroad, they find out that yes, they have a larger knowledge than the others, but even if they KNOW things, they don’t always know HOW TO DO things.

At italian conservatories it’s exactly the same thing: we study a lot of theory, history etc, but we have few classes of improvisation and performance, which must be replaced by masterclass and other kinds of experiences.

In italian conservatories you can find 3 different courses: baroque music, classical music, and jazz music, for each instrument.

Studying music in Italy can be fascinating, because you find yourself surrounded by the same places, traditions and cities that inspired the greates masters. We def have amazing teachers, but since conservatories are public and statal (not all of them, but that’s a different and complex story) schools, the best teachers usually prefer to work at Accademie (which are post-graduated perfecting schools), since they are private schools that can pay better. 

If you’re interested in studying at an Italian Conservatory, I would suggest you not to look only for “conservatories”, since not all of the Institutes have been transformed into “conservatories” yet. The “”“real”“” conservatories nowadays are the oldest ones, like the ones of Milan, Naples, Florence.. but the whole country is FULL of Institutes which work the same way, and that are proper conservatories (which will give you the same degree), but I don’t know way (I suppose because Italian Politics are strange and slow) they are not called the same way. For example I study at Istituto Superiore di Studi Musicali P. Mascagni, located in Livorno, Tuscany. It is not called “conservatorio”, but it is one indeed. So my advice is to look for “Istituti Pareggiati” too, because some of them are really good, and can offer good teachers.

A brief list of the best conservatories in Italy (even if it depends on which department you’re interested in):

-Conservatorio Giuseppe Verdi, Milan

-Accademia Nazionale Santa Cecilia, Rome

-Conservatorio Di Musica E.F. Dall'Abaco, Verona

-Fondazione Scuola Di Musica Di Fiesole, Fiesole (Florence)

-Istituto Musicale Boccherini, Lucca

-Conservatorio Arrigo Boito, Parma

-Conservatorio di Musica Giuseppe Tartini, Trieste

Hope you liked the post,

If you have doubts or if you’re just curious don’t esistate to ask! Use the ask section, and I’ll be happy to answer to every question. 

I’m sorry for any english mistakes, but as you know it isn’t my first language

bye,

"Everyone's making a zine these days!" (As written on my 2026 prediction bingo.)

Everyone's making a zine, a blog (hi, everyone!), starting a new account, working on something, etc. And I think that's a good thing. It's important to not only keep ourselves productive (rest is productive, too!) but also to channel in something we have always had inside of us.

I have always been a person of many words. There is always something in my brain that I just need to put out there into the world!

For the longest time, I was in hiding. Mostly out of anxiety, but also from fear of what other people would think of me when they see what I post, or whatever I showcase in public. And I think for once, I want to let that fear go.

I've done it on numerous occasions before -- streaming, tweeting, even having a tumblr "blog" here (if you know, you know), but I think it's time I finally start fresh and have myself, once again, back in the public space.

With the resurgence of things going analog or at least back to 2016, and inspired by a video by @mothcub, I now present this blog. Ideally I would like to use it for thoughts I just have in my brain, as it can be quite random, but also use it as a media log to strengthen my skills in reviewing and forming opinions as a media enjoyer.

With that being said, thanks for reading this far and hope you enjoy the show!

Love,

I don't care about romance. I just don't. I set unreal expectations for my last gf because I did something I thought was fun in the beginning, but she thought I'd do it all the time, expecting the romance but never got it. Meanwhile, I had no idea this was such a big thing to her until a year or two later when I found the card I used that day on her shelf after she rearranged one day.

I've stopped asking women out. My taste and choices in women haven't really turned out well, so I've just been using my time to reflect and chill. I keep using the statement "I don't want to inflict myself on anyone" and its prolly not healthy exactly but it stops me from impulsively asking out women that I probably don't need to. There's a girl that really likes me and she's cool but she's just coming out of a toxic relationship and I don't wanna feel like a rebound. To be fair tho, she has liked me a lot for awhile and has had problems with her own choices in men. It feels less like a rebound but Im still cautious.