#blehhhhhhhhh

im not here to like invalidate how other poc/asians specifically feel about gemma/ms casey and her storyline thus far but like, idk i really dont have notes. i love her. i find her to be one of the most relatable characters in fiction to me. there are a lot of arguments that she falls into certain stereotypes/tropes but the way i see it is that real life pushes asian women/fems into these boxes. like i am a (w)asian nonbinary lesbian, i've been loud and annoying and opinionated my whole life, and then i hit a place a few years ago where i found myself shrinking, trying to be quiet and small in order to get by. like, i felt like i was turning into someone else. kinda like.... ms casey/gemma. anyway the miscarriage stuff, idk i definitely get how that could bother people but it is also just in line with the themes of the show. i don't relate to wanting to have a child or miscarriages specifically, but i've wanted something terribly, worked really hard for it, and had it taken from me in a painful way and had that need to restore it used against me. is this way too much? idk. i just love gemma/casey/all of her innies so much and it hurts to see her reduced by certain readings, but i also want to respect people who don't feel comfortable with her portrayal. but. i love her forever until i die.