#blacktashi

I know I’ve made some, but they’re closer to headcanon territory vs proper meta. Check my takashi shirogane, vld shiro, black paladin shiro/bp shiro, blacktashi, and black lion tags. (It’s been probably a few years since I posted or reposted them though.)

I also know @headspacedad has made and reblogged others proper meta, and I often see @mckinlily and @noisypaintersong with Black Paladin Shiro stuff on my dash as well.

They Match.

-mark over nose (as a certain V no less)

-side burns

That Black really did find Shiro (or, his body) and it’s running around with 40% of a soul and just feeling outright physically terrible and emotionally out of sorts and drained.

But Soul!Shiro doesn’t know that. Soul!Shiro feels lost and replaced and why can’t anyone hear him?

Body!Shiro senses Soul!Shiro’s animosity and backs off when BlackLion seemingly rejects him, and tries so hard to get Keith to stay because...BlackLion...just doesn’t want him. (The Lion actually does. But what a mess with a Split Shiro into what’s fast becoming two seperate entities that hate eachother. And it’s the Lion’s Fault. She tried to save her Paladin but lost that tuggawar and ultimately ripped him apart.)

(And Body!Shiro grows just as convinced that he’s Not Right, that he’s WRONG, maybe...even a clone. An imposter. Where is the Real Shiro? He’s so sorry. He never wanted any of this. He’d give it all back...but he doesn’t want to lose it, either.)

And Allura eventually does restore Shiro.

But Body!Shiro can’t accept that he is Shiro. Soul!Shiro now has “two men’s” memories and emotions. One body, two partial souls out of sync and repelling eachother.

It nearly kills him.

Shiro survives, but BlackLion’s grief is harrowing. Shiro wants to trust the Lion, but his body&soul(s) are still in flux, even if the trauma of it all wasn’t so raw.

Allura takes over flying with the BlackLion, and bears the brunt of the Lion’s grief and shame, while doing her best to reasure Shiro that the Lion will always be ready for him when he is. The Bond will never be forced. But if Shiro is willing to give it another go, so is the Lion.

Shiro doesn’t reclaim his seat with Black immediately. Instead he slowly falls back into the old rhythm of coordinating and planning the other Paladins’ movements. He feels like a coward. He wants to fly again. But he can’t bear of flying with anything other than Black, but his own fear and shame at his cowardice is so much rawer than he remembers it being when it was “only” flashes of repressed memories and feelings of torture, or two sets of memories overlapping as a labrat.

It’s easier to fall into “Jiro’s” Role and still do something to help. “Shiro” is just too difficult.

Shiro: [summons bayard] “Ono. BlackLion, play Despacito.”