#black queer

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Im lightly Dating a trans man. And im glitching and embarrassed.

Ive never dated a transman.

I consider my self a lesbian.

I like women.

i saw his body … saw his breasts .. chest… now,i didnt ask to see anything. we are casually chitchatting while he was working out and he took off his shirt. He was going to get naked. i asked him not to.

Because i saw a woman.. well i saw a body that looked like a “womans” body and i had the urge to admire as such. I got quiet. Fear of what I might say. I called him beautiful and I wasn’t sure if that was okay. before now I never seen him in this light. I saw him as a person that I truly enjoy platonically. I would never want to hurt him in anyway especially like this.

Now i feel horrible because and dont know how to handle it. In a sense i thought i had it down packed

we were friends for almost 4 years. When i finally got his pronouns correct i hardly misgendered.

He was in a relationship so we’ve always had a great rapport great conversations we got along great. . He took some time away from me. Handling the relationship.I haven’t spoken to him and that was fine but he now that he left that relationship and now he is seemingly working on dating me.

But seeing his body for the first time, I don’t know it made me shy. It undone all of the effort that I put into really getting to know him as a friend and making sure that I respect him, and how he wants to be addressed I don’t know what to do now because though I agree to date, I don’t wanna ruin my friendship just because he exposes his intimate part of himself and My mind chooses to misgender as auto pilot.