Insecure (NSFW, Suggestive)
Pairing: Mako x gn!reader
Warnings: feeling insecure, implied sex, barely proofread
Tags: Fluff, mild smut
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You were a little nervous as you and Mako made your way to your bedroom. Tonight would be your first time having sex, and as much as your body was fueled by lust, there were still those nagging thoughts in the back of your head.
Mako was always charming and cool and collected around you. When you two met—even though you were in your element at work as Zhu Liz’s assistant—you’d been a stuttering, blushing mess, the opposite of your witty self. But, you learned that your timidity had amused him: he adored how you stared at him with twinkling, wide eyes.
As the weeks passed, your true self shown through, matching Mako’s quips and flirting… but there was still the problem that it felt like Mako had settled for you, not that he actually wanted to be with you.
Come on, he’s dated the damn Avatar and Asami Sato, two badass and gorgeous women. What does he want with me?
Listen, you loved Korra and Asami; they’d quickly became your friends too as you all fought to make the world a better place. But your accomplishments seemed minuscule compared to theirs. And you knew there weren’t any feelings between Mako and his exes anymore.
Still, the thoughts of how you couldn’t measure up to them plagued your mind as you two crossed the threshold into Mako’s room. As much as you wanted to reciprocate his passion and intensity, it was clear you weren’t enthusiastically matching his actions.
You had to remind yourself that he never gave you any reason to doubt how he felt for you, but still the thoughts progressed as he laid you down on his bed. Even if the thought that he was dating beneath him was constantly on your mind, you had to trust that he wouldn’t be with you if he didn’t want to be.
Right?
“Y/n is everything alright?” he asked, his hand pausing in the middle of undressing you as you lay on the edge of his bed.
“Yeah, of course,” you panted, but you weren’t only breathless from kissing. It was clear to him that something else was going on. Your brow wasn’t creased in pleasure, but for some other reason.
He placed a hand on your cheek, “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do,”
You sighed, sitting up, “I know... I-I’m just nervous.”
Mako kneeled down on the floor, “I am too.”
Your jaw dropped, “You’re nervous? Why?”
He let out a small chuckle, looking down at the floor “I haven’t made the best decisions in my relationships.”
You knew exactly what he was talking about. The Krew had always joked about the disastrous love triangle. Plus, Mako had grown so much since then, and he was always a caring person anyway. You placed a finger under his chin so he would look at you, “Mako, we all make mistakes. You’re a good person. I’ve never met anyone who cares as much as you.”
He grabbed your hand with both of his, “And I care about you the most,” he brought your hand to his lips, placing a gentle kiss, his watery eyes tearing a hole in your heart, “I’m terrified of hurting you.”
You smirked, “Well, setting aside the fact that I might want it rough sometimes,” you cocked your head toward the bed behind you, and Mako smiled back at you, “I know you’d never hurt me on purpose, okay?”
He kissed your forehead, whispering “Thank you, Y/n. You always know what to say.”
Tilting your head up, you brought your lips to his, catching him in a sweet kiss. He rested his forehead against yours, thumb caressing your cheek and catching a rogue tear that had fallen from your eye.
“Tell me, why are you nervous? If it’s not because you think I’ll hurt you, what is it?”
“Oh, it’s n-nothing,” You struggled to meet his gaze, face flushing as your anxiety began to rear its ugly head.
Now it was his turn to place a hand under your chin, turning you to face him, “Y/n, you can tell me anything.”
You couldn’t resist those amber eyes that looked at you with such care. That filled up your heart and soul with such love that you needed to express it physically. You needed Mako, and you knew being open with him would only bring you two closer. And you knew this man would move mountains for you.
“I just… I feel like I’m not good enough for you. Like I pale in comparison to everything you and your friends have accomplished.”
He smirked, “Can I tell you something?”
“Well, we’re having a heart-to-heart, so now’s a good time as any,” you smiled.
“When I first saw you, I was really nervous to talk to you.”
Your eyes widened, “Really?”
“Well yeah, I’d never seen anyone as beautiful as you.”
“Me? But—”
Mako placed a finger to your lips, “No buts. You know I think you’re more gorgeous than anyone I’ve met. And when I saw how amazing you are at helping people, I knew I had to talk to you.”
He sat down next to you on the bed, putting his arm around you and pulling you into him, “And when I got to know you, I knew I had to be with you.”
A few tears slid down your face. He wiped them away and continued, “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to tonight. But I do want you to know that you’re the one for me.”
You pulled Mako in for a kiss that started off sweet. But it quickly turned into lustful as you pressed your body into his.
Mako pulled away, smirking, “Hey, what did I just say?”
“But what if I want to?”
He placed both his hands on each cheek, pulling you in for another deep kiss.
“I promise, I’ll take such good care of you.”
