#bipolar2

When times is hard (and you might just be autistic anyway, I'm on a diagnosis adventure). Resold this friend and I'm happy someone snapped him up so fast, I hope they get so many hugs. I put a little sparkly ribbon bow around his neck :')

But nobody would understand that if I told them. All they would hear is "bipolar" which equates to "crazy" which equates to "dangerous," and nobody wants that.

I broke down today. I guess my soul needed a good purging cry. I was doing so well. It had to come to an end. I hope this now weeks long down cycle soon goes away. I just want to wake up and not be sad for that day

(I came, I saw, I left. 💀)

She told me that these thoughts are just telling her how much pain I’m in. But we never talked about those thoughts again and I wonder if she forgot because she’s always so overly happy when I tell her I’m traveling and seeing different places, as if I don’t lay in bed at night with these thoughts plaguing my mind.