Anyone doesn't want to struggle inside silently. Don't aim to please others always. From that, you are losing your inner peace and happiness.
Why are you trying hard to act like a drama? This is your life. Laugh when you want. Sing a song, whatever you like. Thinking of what others think is the worst feeling because it will limit your freedom and spending life according to others' perspectives.
Stop caring about what others think. Then you start to live in peace and happiness. Be like a small child and become free. Enjoy every moment. Love yourself and follow your dream.
Do whatever you like and connect with your true nature. Inner strength comes from the inside and is more powerful. That indicates you are on the right path toward your goal.