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Alright bitch. How dare you come home a week early and surprise me at work and make me cry. I love you. It's been so hard without having you here. And I know I'm not super good with expressing myself and expressing how much you mean to me but like you just made my life when you did that. Oh my god, there is so much catching up to do. I get to hear about your adventures! And all your stuff~ Alright! So let's check in on my list of 5 things I wanted for you. Tbh I don't think you did well.... 1. That you saw everything you wanted to see! I think you did. I don't think you ever made it to Stonehenge, but you went a bunch of places! 2. That you made new friends for life! I think you might have done that. You'll be surprised to see who reaches out to you in the future :p 3A. Meet a cute boy! Well it sounded like the boys were assholes who drank a lot so maybe it's a good thing that you didn't meet a boy... 3B. No broken hearts! Well, that one came true :) 4. That you don't spend all your money! I think you did that, but hey, it's hard not to! 5. That you have fun and do well in your classes! To my knowledge, you did well academically :p and it sounded like despite all the bumps along the way, you had the time of your life. So I count this one as a success. Well babe, you're back on US soil. #Blessed I'm so excited that you'll be around all summer- I'm ready to make up for lost time. Signing out, Me. 5/23/16 NJ TIME: 11:03 PM LONDON TIME: WHO THE FUCK CARES- YOU'RE HOME!

YOU’RE HOME SO SOON. It seems almost real now that you’ll be back in my life. Oh my god I’m so excited. I have the cutest gift for you and I sooooo can’t wait to give it to you. And I can’t wait to hear all of your adventures and have cute lunch dates and live our livesssssss. Oh my god and we’ll be cute af this whole summer and we’ll have sleepovers and go on day trips- maybe we’ll go to the beach! Or Seaside! We’re 21 so we can go to bars and flirt with cute boys and live it uppppp. I’m so excited to be working on campus cuz you’ll be working on campus and we’ll be super cute and we can start our Jay-Mo and Bell-oncé stuff earlier than I thought! I learned yesterday that the fuck boy was an even bigger fuckboy than I thought. If I forget to tell you, Ask me about what Cami told me. So much is going on and I don’t want to stress you out with you in your final week. Can’t wait to see you! Always,
Me 5/17/16
NJ TIME: 7:40 PM
LONDON TIME: 12:40 AM

Hi sweetheart! So the semester is officially done. It was weird finishing this year without you. In September, I expected us to crack open a bottle of wine and toast off the year, but you aren't here. It's so weird- we haven't hugged since January! I'm dyinggggg. It's been hard. I'm trying to think of something to get you for when you come home. I'm gonna go shopping this weekend and find you something cute. I want to add to our friendship collection! We have necklaces, bracelets, mugs.... There has to be something else that is super cute! I'm having a tough time being home all the time. I don't wanna bother you with it cuz you're getting into your last few weeks. Senior Sunrise has come and passed- I have some passdowns for you from Laura. It was soooo much work. 22 hours awake!!!! And it was interesting enough haha. A lot of tears, a lot of booze-I didn't drink though. I don't like to drink a lot haha. Well, I like to drink a lot but not all the time... You know what I mean. I woke up today with a message from you, about how the post on my wall blew up- the post about how under-appreciated I am in this program. I was really surprised at the past few days just how many people have gone out of their way to tell me that. It's weird- it's like they know how badly I feel like I don't fit in. Cody Cooley invited me to a party at his WesVil apartment last night, and I went. A bunch of people came up to greet me, but no one really sat down or talked to me. I sat there for an hour before I gave up and left. I went to say goodbye to some key people- Mark, Cody, Brent (lol). Each of them took their time to say goodbye to me. It was weird. lol everything is weird to me today. It was probably because for two of them, it's probably the last time they'll see me. Cody is actually really nice- this probably would surprise you cuz he seems like such a dick. Lolol I got lunch yesterday with Dan- he asked me, actually- which was awesome. He told me about formal and I told him about mine. It was a really nice talk. And hey, guess what? I mean, I don't know if you still like him buuuuttttt he ended the semester single! Your promise is met! #IDidNothingButIDidIt Miriam Mills requested me on Facebook? I stared at it for at least seven seconds before it registered. Justin is very upset and very jealous. Well, I think that's everything I gotta say. You'll be home in two weeks, 4 days, and like 16 hours (I set my countdown clock to noon my time, cuz you leave noon your time, so theoretically, you'll be in the air when it goes off! :D) I can't wait to give you a huge hug! Love always, Me. 5/10/16 NJ TIME: 8:01 PM LONDON TIME: 1:01 AM

Dear Bella #10 I went to my last class of the year today. I have two finals left and then we’re in our final year. I have a mix of nervousness and pride in my chest- we’ve come so far from where we were and we’re so close to the rest of our lives. I know you have a few more weeks of classes and stuff so you haven’t really gotten to this point yet but when it hits you, I’ll probably hear about it haha. My countdown app says you’ll be home (or rather mid-air) in one month, one day and 21 or so hours. It’s getting so close! I feel like I’ve missed so much and I want you to tell me everything. I can’t wait to hear about Switzerland and Amsterdam and Italy and all the wonderful and magic places you saw! Nothing exciting really happens here. I’m struggling through my last two finals- shouldn’t be a horror fest but I’m so tired. It’s times like this that I wish you were here- we’d have a Crans study date, talk about stupid boys and their weirdness, eat food or chocolate and just bitch about all the work we have. Right now you’re on a plane to Switzerland so I can’t wait to hear from you when you land. I love you to the moon and back!
Jenna 4/29/16 NJ TIME: 2:52 PM
SWISS TIME: 8:52 PM

You need to come home. I miss you so much. I had a horrible day and the only thing I wanted in the whole world was a hug from you and a shoulder to cry on. And without you, I realize that I don't have that here. I don't like to show anyone else my weakness. I, instead, had Justin trying to console me while I hid my face in my hands, arms, and lap. When I wasn't hiding, I faced the wall. And I wanted to reach out and get a hug but it didn't feel right. It wasn't you. So I thought I already knew how much I missed you, but I realized today that I was wrong. 2 months and 4 days to go. -Jenna 3/24/16 NJ TIME: 6:58 PM VENICE TIME: 11:58 PM

Babe, I miss you. Today was kind of hard. And I'm so happy we got to talk today. You told me how hard it's been for you over there and all I want to do is hug you. I really want to Skype call you soon, now that my laptop is back from the dead, but I'm afraid I'm just gonna cry lol. So I started a countdown on an app until the day you get home. I don't know what time your flight is so I just did it for noon. It'll help me get through the next couple months. This is getting hard. I love you! -Jenna NJ TIME: 7:11 PM LONDON TIME: 11:11 PM

Hey babe! So I've been missing you a lot recently. As we're getting into March, it's difficult to think that I haven't seen you in person since January 17th. I've worn the necklace everyday, and the wear and tear is semi-obvious. I lost a stone and it makes me sad, but I won't get it fixed until you're back on US soil. Wearing the necklace is almost like having you here with me. And it's a nice feeling to have, ya know? You're going to Paris soon, which is super cool. And I'm happy that you're finally feeling better. And I'm finally not sick so #blessed. You said the boys are essentially the Dads- constantly drinking, stupid, Fuckboys. So that sucks a bit. But that's boys these days, isn't it? I picked classes today and you pick tomorrow. We'll have senior seminar together, which is super awesome. I can't wait to have Gutin with you. She's precious, I promise! Well, I'm gonna go now. I hope you're having the time of your life! Love always, Jenna 3/08/16 NJ TIME : 11:47 AM LONDON TIME: 4:47 PM