#beginner poler

3. what I created and last step 4 is refining for me ..

(my process)

although none of these are perfect .. there are details that I love in every single one as well as things I don’t like and need to work on. these perfect imperfections are tools to learning and strengthening my body, and also gets me closer to developing my personal freestyles and flows without having to think so much 🩵

had too much fun playing with different styles of filters. imma call this one "vintage hot box" 🙃🔥🧖‍♀️

either way...a meditation session 🖤

my aries sun does not enjoy being a beginner at anything so i’m impatient and hard on myself. but at the same time it's hard for me to back down from challenge. i somehow manage to find myself a paradox from time to time. filming my sessions helps me see where and what needs refinement. just need to remind myself that the road to refinement looks messy 🖤

the voice in my head telling me idk if i'll ever be good enough, strong enough, flexible enough, graceful enough, fluid enough. telling me i have to constantly do more… is a liar more often than not. where did that voice come from? who planted that idea? see how often this voice pops up and permeates everything i do and how i move through this journey...

^ then tell it to shut the fuck up & just have fun with the process 😉😁

to be fair to myself, this is pretty much the end of a two hour practice session so i didn’t have much strength, energy and grip left in my tank 🥴 so can’t beat myself up too much about it.

not as seamless as I’d like but improving 🖤