#becomingmama

I’m so behind on posting and keeping up with this, but for the best reason.

Our sweet girl made her arrival a month early and I have been enjoying her so much and have not kept up with this as I hoped.

I am currently working on a birth story entry as I have wanted to share (and remember) the best day of my life with you all.

Stay tuned!

Sometimes I feel like I focus so much on the pregnancy aspect of all of this and I’m reminded in the cutest way that we will have a tiny human to hold before this year is over.

I just love how everyone in our family has just been so supportive and loving on this baby from the moment we announced our news. It really is the sweetest thing. From asking how baby and I are doing, to when and how my appointments have gone, to the sweet gifts like the one we received today, we are so blessed.

This girl has no idea the love she is coming into and while I get stuck in taking it day by day to make sure I’m doing everything in my power to keep her safe and healthy, I love the reminders that with how quickly time passes, I’ll have my little life changer in my arms and my whole world will be changed on an entirely different level.

This little swimsuit is just the cutest and I can’t wait to see our girl in it. Once again, feeling very thankful for this journey and the amazing family we have. I mean, come on, how cute is this?! So much love to you all. 💕

xo

So, I swear I will get better with timely posts. However, on this Monday I bring to you some nice little memories from this amazing adventure.

Some days it feels like so long ago that we announced our news of you to the world. There was something sweet about keeping our little secret but also really difficult. Having the best news in the world kept to myself made me feel like an MVP secret keeper. Which also made it even sweeter when we were able to share with our families.

What a weekend it was, but memories I’m so thankful we will always have. Four or five different cities in one weekend at 12 weeks and hoping the weight I’d gained wouldn’t be an automatic giveaway. ha

My mom won for best reaction, hands down. We were in town for my cousins high school graduation and with his blessing we shared the news towards the end of his lunch. As a belated Mother’s Day “gift” I gave envelopes to my mom, two aunts and grandmother. I gave a little speech about life being a big adventure and how proud of this kiddo I am. And how no matter how near or far any of us are physically we are always right there rooting him on, just like these amazing ladies always have been for me.

And for being the ladies who have shown me great strength to move away from home and conquer all kinds of adventures that I have I wanted to give them a little thank you, even through I can’t begin to thank them enough. My little surprise and greatest adventure was in an envelope to surprise them with our news. They had no idea and their reactions are something I am going to keep with me for the rest of my life. My mom (mind you, we are in a crowded restaurant) screamed and hugged me tighter than anyone ever has in my life. She’s just a bit excited to be a grandma for the first time. And my grandmother, will become a great grandmother to my little girl and my eyes can’t seem to stay clear when I think of how excited I am to see my little one in her arms.

A little memory Monday update for you, hope you all enjoyed. I’m so excited to continue on with this adventure and to share more.

xo

Our 20 week scan has come and gone and we found out the gender of our sweet little one.

“All is well with this little cupcake and we found out we have a healthy, 12oz and growing baby GIRL in this bump. 💕👶💕

This has been the absolute craziest and most amazing journey I have ever been on - one that I am very thankful for each and every day. While I’ve lost sleep and felt uncomfortable at times - I’ve also felt flutters, cried when she had the hiccups and feel more movement and kicks each day. I’m excited, to say the least, to be halfway to holding her in my arms and seeing her sweet face. For now, I will continue to enjoy all the moments to come this second half before we meet our sweet girl. 🎀”

I found out about you today. In Emergency Room 6 of Seton Southwest Hospital. The complete and total shock of my life, in the absolute best way I could ever imagine. I don’t know how I expected that reveal to go but what I do know is that I’ve waited and wanted you for longer than I even know. For the past couple years I feel like I have struggled, like my life has been a roller coaster that I had no control over. In that time, I had fears that that complete and total shock of a moment would never happen. And then the news of you came along. I left that hospital with my life changed. There’s still time before we get to share this with everyone so I thought why not write this to you, my life changer. I hope we make this long haul together because I promise you I will do everything in my power from that exact moment on to care for and protect you in any way shape or form. This may be a rough go but I know we can do - I know I can do it. And I promise you nothing but amazing things in this life. You have no idea how loved you will be. This world can be scary and crazy at times but then you’ll find that something unexpected will come along and put everything in perspective. Right now, I’m holding the whole world in my tummy and that whole world isn’t even as big as a blueberry. I can’t wait to see your face and hold your tiny hands in mine and love you more than you can imagine possible. For now, I can’t wait to be able to share my joy and excitement of you, with those we know and love. So, stick with me little one. I promise you, it will be an amazing ride. And of course, you will have the most badass birthday cakes for life. Thank you for the best shock of my life. I know you are going to be worth every minute of this experience and then some.

7/7/16

I figured I couldn’t leave off the way I did with my last blog if things had changed during my pregnancy. And…they did change.

Being pregnant is by far the craziest, hardest and most emotional thing that has happened this far in my life. I’m sure it’s going to get crazier, harder and WAYYY more emotional once my babe finally decides to enter this world… so I’ve been told. So I’m definitely not naïve to the fact that my world is about to be turned upside down.

Although for some odd reason I feel a comfort in knowing that he will be here physically, where I can hold him and care for him the way I’ve always dreamed of.

I noticed a change in my emotional and physical state after about week 20 of pregnancy! I felt better, I was able to eat again which to me was HUGE. I actually started to look pregnant as opposed to just looking overweight. And, most importantly I was able to leave my bedroom and that silly robe that I wouldn't end up taking off for weeks!

My nerves are starting to kick in a bit these days. I am not sleeping as well; I’m mostly awake between 1am-5am everyday. So, if you are awake please feel free to message me, I’m most likely awake as well ha. I guess this is God’s way of preparing me for motherhood. I’m sure sleeping won’t be happening much at all in the days to come! These days, I find myself thinking a lot about where I will be when labor begins? Will I be driving? Will I be at the grocery store? This part seems like it's going to be exciting and scary all at the same time. I’m excited to call my hubs and say “It’s GO TIME” in case we aren’t at the same place when it starts. Although, I’m sure he might pass out once he hears that haha.

Here I am now, at 33 weeks pregnant, feeling tired but still so very happy. I guess because I know the end is near! I know I’ll be holding my prize here in the weeks to come and that makes me beyond excited! It is crazy to think how long women are actually pregnant; we literally are pregnant for almost a year of our lives. Although, it's such a blessing to know God chose us to be the carriers of such an amazing blessing we are about to receive. My husband and I have found ourselves sitting and talking in his nursery more and more every day now; it’s so cozy and peaceful. We really are beyond grateful and excited for what is to come. Thanks for listening! There might be a follow up to my follow up, once the babe arrives. Stay Tuned!