Holidays are kinda a part of this but more like, a day that's special to you or a select group of people such as your cat's birthday or May 4th. I feel like odd, happy days like these dotted throughout the year make you less prone to becoming submersed in a depressing fog that eats away at your life.

Like just knowing that I have a date coming up with some new friends keeps my head above the fog because I want to remember to prepare and to go and to have fun and to remember that it happened.

Just going day to day knowing there's nothing to be done but go to the next day is beyond depressing and can make years go by without you ever lifting up your head.

One of the many advantages of taking our inner journey and becoming aware of who we are is that we learn that whatever will happen, we will find a way out.

Do you? I am aware!

I am aware of my ego.

I know my ego.

I am not my ego.

I am not afraid of my ego.

I am well acquainted with my ego.

I know what my ego is doing.

I know why my ego does those things.

I know what triggers my ego.

I know why things trigger my ego

I know what my ego shouldn't do.

I recognize the pain through ego and know about it.

I recognize the cause of that ego pain.

I recognize the maintenance of my ego with that.

I know what through ego I am holding onto.

I know that fear grows through ego.

I know what survival is.

I know, I see, hear, feel, recognize, acknowledge, act, 100% what I am, who I am, and that is not my ego.

And you?

What should I be afraid of? What are you afraid of?

Or being scared of it ..?

Then it is ego.

Think about it.

Remembering awakening in my bed, the grownups talking in the living room outside my room. My blue-walled bed was open on one side so I could have tiptoed out to see who it was. Maybe my parents had guests, or they were just talking with each other, it could have been the TV. I do remember how the linoleum floor felt under my bare feet. I would have left my bed to seek solace, but this time I…

When are you guys going to have a baby?

DON’T ASK

Who knew that though it may be a well intended question is actually not?

I didn’t know , until the question was posed to me time and time again as when were newly married.

You may mean well, but the closed door behind that question can be filled with:

LOSS...

PAIN...

DISSAPOINTMENT...

SADNESS...

CONFUSION...

FRUSTRATION...

LONGING...

ANGER...

You don’t know what you don’t know.