#bday18

⚘ Birthday Special [4/7]

THANK YOU HOMIEEE 🥰💗💕

it’s only 9 pm but i feel like i’m gonna pass out real soon so i wanted to say this before i went.

thank you all so so much for making this day extra special! i normally become so anxiety ridden on my birthday because i feel like no one’s even gonna remmeber it, but this year, you al made me feel waaaay too special :’’) all i got was love from each and everyone of you and i couldn’t be more thankful. you reminded me why i decided to stay after all these years and i just love the community i surround myself with! i wish i could mention all of the people who made this day for me but !! it’ll take me forever to do so but you al know who you are !! thnk

kim heechul, who still inspires me more than anything -

you still light up my life. i am incredibly lucky that, for more than a third of the time i’ve been alive, i have been your fan, your petal -- looking up to you, growing with you. it’s kind of astounding to look back and realize what a formative role you played in my life, from the other side of the world. it’s just as astounding to think that you probably don’t know that you shaped a person’s life in such an amazing way. from you, i learned to be loyal, to live without fear, to exist on my own terms. any good in me i owe to you for being the best, most unique role model i could imagine. you made me smile when nothing else did. you are my idol. you are brave, brilliant, caring and compassionate, and you are yourself in a way that has always put me in awe. i want nothing more than for you to be happy, and when i see your success, your friendships, your adorable insta live today, i feel a little more at peace to know that you are happy. i love you forever, and i hope your birthday is as special to you as it is to me.