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The smell of books

A good nap

Friends who get me

Cheeseburgers

Evelyn Katherine

I’ve never done an update for Evelyn so I thought I’d do one.

Feeding

Evelyn started on solids a few weeks ago. She has been quite a fussy eater. She keeps pushing the food out of her mouth or refusing to open her mouth. She prefers finger foods and feeding herself. She has about four bottles of formula a day, usually on this schedule: 6:30am, 11:30am, 3pm and 7pm. She has water with her solid meals. She usually has two solid meals a day, sometimes it will be breakfast and lunch, sometimes breakfast and dinner or lunch and dinner.

Sleeping

Evelyn sleeps about 12 hours at night. She wakes up once for a feed and nappy change. She is a really sound sleeper and goes off without any problems. She sleeps in her own little room. Her bedtime is usually 8pm. She has two naps during the day; one in the morning about 9:30am/10am and one in the afternoon between 4 and 5pm. Occasionally she will have a third nap, depending of the day.

Growth and Development

Evelyn currently weighs 13lbs 12oz and is 23 inches in length. She is 3-6 month clothing.

Evelyn started crawling just after turning six months and now she’s always on the go. She is sitting up now and can sit up unsupported for about half a minute before she topples over. She can roll over from front to back and back to front too.

She is learning to reach and pick up small objects. I often find her in the parachute pose where she’s resting on her tummy with her arms and legs in the air. She is learning to hold a two handled bottle in her hands but she hasn’t quite mastered it yet.

She really likes toys that make noises. She loves taping the little piano in the playroom. She shrieks in delight every time it makes a noise. She also likes to imitate sounds.

She has started to teeth and is constantly drooling and sucking things or trying to bite things. I make sure she always has a teether and make sure I always keep a couple in my bag and her baby bag.

She’s a very cuddly baby. She loves being cuddled. She always snuggles into my chest and holds onto me. She never makes a fuss when anyone picks her arm. She just laps up the attention.

Evelyn can

.Crawl

.Roll front to back and back to front

.Reach for objects

.Feed herself soft finger foods

.Recognise her primary caregiver

Likes

.Crawling

.Sucking on her fingers

.Imitating sounds

.Playing with toys that make sounds

.Teething

.Feeding herself

Dislikes

.Pureed food

.Staying still

.Being put down

So that was Evelyn’s first update!

love,

                                    ADA MICHELS

Red - What makes you angry? 

“Not being able to spend as much time with my family as I used to. It’s put a strain on my relationship with my husband, me working all the time. It upsets me more than it angers me though..”

Dear Dad,

I hate you…and hate is an incredibly strong word, but when it’s used to describe someone like you I don’t believe a word could hold a better weight.You terrify me…you make me sick to my stomach and you’re the fuel that flames my nightmares, anxiety and paranoia.I hate you for making me grow up at five years old, for making me live in a world where I believed as a kid I was a mistake and nothing more. For pushing me around and throwing me at things no child or person should ever worry or fear about…especially at five years old.Five years old is is too young to be so grown up, isn’t it? It’s too young to be afraid to sleep…too young to regret doing things I never caused.I hate you more than any person that was ever able to walk upon this earth and I hate you for wearing people away into a pit of nothingness and sheer vulnerability and fear.But as odd as it sounds, I’m thankful for you…I’m thankful for how you taught me that even the most damaged do grow up, and they do succeed. I thank you for teaching me at a young age that there is such things as hell living on this earth, and I should be mindful of those things. I thank you for molding my being into the damaged, desperate person I am today…want to know why? Because it made me stronger. It made me see things from different perspectives. It helped me realize that although my childhood started off a bit too traumatic for my liking…I am worthy. I am worthy of being human, and I damn well know I am too worthy to regret my hate towards you.So, thank you.

Love, your son, Eoin.

Dear, best friend(s),

Yes, I know I’m cheating…I’m supposed to pick a single person as my best friend..but I can’t. Both of you boys are my best friends…my inspirations..my motivators…my brothers. If it weren’t for you, I’d be dead. Let’s be honest…you’ve both saved me countless times; from my own fate, my own self hate, even my own battles that you wouldn’t let me fight without backup. And I thank you for putting up with me, after all I’ve done…thank you. When we met, you were merely kids that helped spark my rebellious personality and taught me that it’s okay to go against the rules and do whatever the hell you want…although that comes with brutal consequences, the adventure during it all was hella fun, wasn’t it? Let’s start off with the younger of you two, you know who you are…You, my sunshine, my first love, my best friend, and my brother…I say you’re my first love because ever since I was nine I viewed you as my child; I took part in raising you after all of those years…and I’ll be honest, when you come over for sleepovers we both pile on my bed like we used to, cuddles and all…and I love it. You made sure I was never alone in any battle I faced, and I’m proud to say you were the one person that stuck through it with me when I needed you most.Now…My older brother. You..You are my best friend, my worst enemy and my greatest achiever, my stubborn conscious and that voice in the back of my head warning me when I’m about to do something self destructive or ignorant…Although you may think otherwise, you were a parent to me..You took care of me whenever I needed it, and even went against what I believed in and showed me the correct way when I was lost. You’ve surprised me in multiple occasions and EVEN showed up to my prom when my date dropped me…I bet those guards still think of how we broke their noses, huh? Anyway…We’ve been through literal hell and back..haven’t we, brother..? But..If I were given the opportunity to take all of my pain and past away with a snap of my fingers, I wouldn’t do it…why? Because I wouldn’t have met you two..and Hell, I’d rather go through all of the damn pain, torture and years full of mental, emotional and physical abuse than have to go through a perfect life without you boys…You both have taught me more things than I will ever be able to comprehend, and I will forever be thankful for the both of you…thank you for giving me the opportunity of loving you..and being apart of our small knitted family.

It will always be us against the world, won’t it? I won’t mind…as long as I have either of you beside of me, I think I’ll be alright.