9.       What’s a belief that you hold with which many people disagree? 

Forgiveness doesn’t exist because you’ll never be able to forget.

10.   What can you do today that you were not capable of a year ago? 

Feel more at home with myself.

11.   Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength? 

Weakness.

12.   What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? 

I would tell her why I’m like this.

13.   Do you celebrate the things you do have? 

Sometimes. No, actually, probably not.

14.   What is the difference between living and existing? 

Living is an active thing. Existing is just being there, not truly learning from the moment.

15.   If not now, then when? 

I don’t fucking know, okay?

16.   Have you done anything lately worth remembering? 

I think so.

17.   What does your joy look like today? 

Kieran looking happier than before. 

18.   Is it possible to lie without saying a word? 

Yep.

19.   If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow this person to be your friend? 

They wouldn’t have been my friend in the first place.

20.   Which activities make you lose track of time? 

Spending time with her.

21.   If you had to teach something, what would you teach? 

Josh (lol), he needs help in life.

22.   What would you regret not fully doing, being or having in your life? 

I would regret not getting over everything with him. I need it to happen.

23.   Are you holding onto something that you need to let go of? 

Yes.

24.   When you are 80-years-old, what will matter to you the most? 

I don’t know.

25.   When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards and just do what you know is right? 

When you know what is right will be of use.

26.   How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 

What sort of headfuck of a question is that?

27.   Would you break the law to save a loved one? 

Yes

28.   What makes you smile? 

She does.

29.   When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? 

No. I’d have done more.

30.   If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? 

You don’t have to be surrounded by loads of people to feel included. You don’t need to be popular to be happy. It doesn’t matter if you’re not doing everything at the rate that everyone else seems to be. Because you’ll find that group of individuals who are willing to wait for you and want you to do it at your own pace because they care about you. And don’t worry if you haven’t found them right now, even though you desperately need them, because they’ll come when you’re ready to let them in.

31.   If the average human lifespan was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? 

I’d push myself out of my comfort zone and just be more honest with Callie. 

32.   What do we all have in common besides our genes that makes us human? 

Hormones.

33.   If you could choose one book as a mandatory read for all high school students, which book would you choose?  

The Da Vinci Code

34.   Would you rather have less work or more work you actually enjoy doing? 

I don’t know.

35.   What is important enough to go to war over? 

This is too deep a question at this hour.

36.   Which is worse, failing or never trying?  

Failing, because you thought you were capable of something so made the leap to succeed but then you didn’t. Never trying to do something means you probably thought it through, and knew you wouldn’t do well.

37.   When was the last time you listened to the sound of your own breathing? 

Uhm I don’t know? Do people do that sort of thing? Actually, Kieran probably does.

38.   What’s something you know you do differently than most people? 

I’m extremely cautious and analyse things more intensely and in depth than others.

39.   What does ‘The American Dream’ mean to you? 

Being free to succeed.

40.   Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? 

Joyful simpleton. 

41.   If you could instill one piece of advice in a newborn baby’s mind, what advice would you give? 

Don’t trust too quickly. Appear as though you are. But don’t really. Use the time to evaluate what is in front of you from an objective perspective. Then determine whether they are worthy of your trust.

42.   What is the most desirable trait another person can possess? 

Confidence in themselves, confidence in their ability to admit things. 

43.   What are you most grateful for? 

Having the sense and strength to run away. I don’t think I would have survived if I’d stayed.

44.   Is stealing to feed a starving child wrong? 

Not at all.

45.   What do you want most? 

To be comfortable trusting people.

46.   Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? 

More worried about doing things right, I want things to go right whether they’re moral or not.

47.   What has life taught you recently? 

After everything with Kieran... that I care for them. Like I really care for them.

48.   What is the one thing you would most like to change about the world? 

That people weren’t quick to point a finger at the victim. 

49.   Where do you find inspiration? 

In people who seem happy.

50.   Can you describe your life in a six word sentence?