down the valley
↬ sebastian x gn afab!reader ↬ masterlist // ao3 version
cw: smut, piv sex, love confessions, first time together, vanilla, creampie, reader insert has vagina and breasts, they/them pronouns once in a dialogue summary: sebastian's yearning finds its outlet. word count: 3.6k a/n: for lovely @antique-remains ❤ thank you so much for your support! animated divider from @uzmacchiato
Sebastian doesn't believe in the act of God but now, sopping wet and just a moment earlier coated in mud up his thighs, he's ready to acknowledge its existence and exceptionally nasty sense of humor, channeled into turning his life miserable.
A few hours ago, he received a call that had his heart run in loops, equally excited and anxious. You needed help with a broken egg incubator and asked him, not Maru, which, obviously, had to mean something. He wasn't sure what exactly, but the hopeful seed fell on fertile ground, feeding the side of him that Sebastian desperately tried to ignore. Since you've arrived at Pelican Town and taken over your grandfather's farm a few months ago, you've sunk your roots deep in Sebastian's heart, much to his despair—and many other emotions he couldn't place in either positive or negative category.
He doesn't dislike you, of course, but trying to frame your relationship, and especially his own feelings, gives him a special, painful kind of panic. His crushes fade as fast as they appear, this one has, however, lasted way longer than Sebastian would ever give himself a capability to hold, and is speeding in direction that has his face turning red just at a thought.
And as if it wasn't developing fast enough on its own, Sebastian adds fuel to it with the fervor of a zealot.
He took an obscenely long shower, and spent hours in front of the mirror, grooming himself like a maiden before the first serious date. He even used the cologne Demetrius gave him last Christmas, which he theatrically refused to wear but he had to admit it smelled right on point between raw masculine and pleasant. After a short hesitation, he put on some make-up, too; just eyeliner and a smudge of eyeshadow, but it'd been years since he wore any, and he felt even weirder than usual when mom gave him a knowing look.
All of that came to waste a few steps into the forest, when the clouds Maru warned him about decided to burst and pour everything they got over his head. Tucking his toolbox under the jacket, Sebastian broke down the valley. Yoba didn't like him but apparently not enough to get rid of him—despite slipping a few times, he somehow didn't fall and break his neck.
Now, tucked in towels and hunching on your sofa, Sebastian comes to the conclusion that death would be merciful. His current situation is like a distorting mirror of his secret dreams; you're home alone and he's naked but his boxers and can stare at your enticing body all he wants—but he looks like a drowned raccoon with his wet hair and smudged eyeliner, and you're busy with adding wood to your old-fashioned fireplace.
Under other circumstances, if he was calm, dry, and less self-conscious, he would notice you're wearing an outfit way too sophisticated for late farm work, that you're bending and exposing your butt more than necessary, and that the egg incubator he supposedly was called for is nowhere to be found. A tiny voice at the back of his head begs him to pay attention; Sebastian shoves it into a comfortably wussy drawer and curls under the towels, hoping you don't notice the quick, skittish looks he gives to your curves.
"It'll be warmed in a moment," you smile over your shoulder, misreading his body language. Butterflies flutter in Sebastian's stomach; he buries himself deeper into the sofa, hiding eyes under the fringe, wet, flat and miserable.
Crouched by the fireplace, you're soaked in a warm, golden light. It's attractive and forbidden in an equal measure, intimate in a way Sebastian feels he doesn't deserve to witness. He can't bring himself to turn away, though, not with how it underlines your cheekbones and jawline, with how delicious your breasts look in this position. He stares for a little too long, letting himself be caught, and when you smile again, looking for eye contact, his cock pulses with interest.
He quickly looks away and crosses legs. Please, Yoba, have at least some mercy, and don't let them connect the dots.
"Would you like something to drink?" Even if you noticed something, you don't pry. "Or to eat, maybe? I don't think it will end anytime soon."
You nod towards the only window in the area serving as a kitchen, hallway and dining room. It's dark outside and rain furiously drums against the glass.
"I hope it doesn't flood…" Not waiting for his answer, you move to the kitchen corner and pour water into the kettle. You don't put it on yet, peeking outside instead and scrunching your nose. "It looks nasty."
Sebastian carefully shifts positions, leaning more forwards and gathering a bunch of towels in his lap. The old sofa betrays him and creaks with a refined and malicious timing.
"You can stay for the night." The sound snaps your attention back at him. Your expression is hard to read from a distance, golden glow replaced by cozy shadows, mysterious and blowing Sebastian's head with naughty thoughts. "Are you cold? Wait, I'll bring you a proper blanket—"
When you pass by him, he catches a whiff of your scent: fresh, floral and warm. Sebastian closes eyes, prepared for a surge of lust, but not for yearning that squeezes his insides and floods his head with images and sensations. You in his arms. You running fingers through his hair. You cutting an apple and sharing a piece with him. You fresh out of the shower, towel flirtatiously slipping down your shoulder. You drowning in pillows, turning his way with a dreamy smile, reaching to cup his cheek, your lips soft and sweet against his, and—
The missing puzzle falls into Sebastian's hands. He finally knows and understands, but instead of relief, there's only panic, and if not for the raging downpour outside, he would bolt out straight as he is, in boxers only, with a towel over his shoulders.
Oblivious, you return with blankets in your arms. With nowhere to run, Sebastian slumps forward and covers his head with a towel. Lost in thoughts and sensations, he hasn't dried his hair properly; droplets drip down his wet bangs and onto his lap. You're close, right in front of him, he can smell you again, and he almost stops breathing, anything to not be caught with thoughts written all over his face.
"Come here," you demand after an uncomfortable moment of silence, your voice soft but decisive.
Sebastian raises his head like an obedient dog, wet hair in his eyes. You gently cup his head between hands, then move his bangs away with thumbs. Your skin is warm and way softer than he imagined; he almost whines when the contact is broken and replaced by the towel.
You start vigorously, almost aggressively, shaking moisture out of Sebastian's hair. But soon, your moves slow down; you gather excess droplets from the nape of his neck, ears, jaw and temples. It's a comfortable, confident touch of someone who's learned hard work but hasn't forgotten how to be gentle—and Sebastian leans into it shamelessly, his eyes not closed only because you look for them and hold them with warmth in your own.
From so close, Sebastian can smell not only the floral note from earlier, but also your clothes, with wet fabric undertones to them, your hand cream, and the most delicate of them and most personal—the raw scent of your body. If he focused enough, he could grasp it better and imagine all the missing undercurrents, suppressed by all the scents you're wearing. But all his focus is gone, replaced by months of touch starvation finally finding their share of pleasure, the best kind, seeping straight from heart wide-open. When your hands move to the back of his head, cradling it like in a hug, his whole body arches and screams for more.
He feels like screaming, too. But only a whimper breaks through desperately sealed lips, having you jolt in surprise. You back half-step, the abandoned towel slips down his neck, and Sebastian trembles, now truly realizing how badly he needed it.
You've lost some confidence but not the attention, you still keep the eye contact—or at least try to, as Sebastian blinks like a sleepy cat, sipping on the remnants of your hands in his hair. You can't read him, he feels it under skin and hears it in your slightly trembling voice, "Sorry, have I—"
" Don't stop." He growls, unaware how low and deep his own voice has fallen. "Please."
He didn't mean to sound so demanding but your hands are back on him, so he welcomes the pan of initiative leaning to his side. His mind, so anxious just a moment ago, is full of bliss, mushy and gooey, blooming on his scarlet-red face. His skin is burning, from his nose to the tips of his ears, and tears come to the corners of his eyes, wide open and big now—and devouring the sights in front of him, low-key expecting to be pushed away and kicked out.
He's testing his luck. And if he's already pushed it that far—
"I love it." Sebastian follows the move of your hands and throws his head back, exposing his lips, neck, and soul. "I love you."
Hands stop.
There it goes, a push, a slap, maybe even a punch. He braces himself, he waits, he stops breathing under the weight of your gaze, shocked, warm, when you lean close, so close he can feel the warmth of your breath.
He could close the distance without standing up—and, with heart thrashing in his chest like a spooked bird, he does so.
Your lips have already been parted when Sebastian meets them. He wants to start gently, but he loses control as soon as he tastes you on his tongue. It's been seconds and he already can't imagine living without this flavor, softness, and the harsh pull on his hair when you lose it too and force him closer, until breathing and awkward position makes you both stop at the same moment.
"Should I take it as—" Sebastian throws the towel away and leans to the back.
"Yes. Hundred times yes." You straddle his lap and press your weight straight to the bulge growing in his boxers. He moans and grabs your hips. "Kiss me."
Wrapping both arms around you, Sebastian steadies you right where he needs you. You adjust to his frame, filling the crevices between your torsos and squeezing his hips between your knees. Sneaking one hand under your shirt and tracing the strap of your bra, Sebastian guides you closer—the last bold move he dares to take before he sacrifices all of himself to you.
You take the reins with grace and grind against his hard-on. Lust and bashfulness pulse in Sebastian's ears; he kisses like you demand and gropes like you ask for as his head spins far above the clouds. The old sofa groans under your red-hot bodies, your connected weight forcing the seat down and slumping in the gap between it and the back. Sebastian holds on to your waist to adjust and thrust up, earning your throaty moan pressed to his cheek.
His cock twitches, demanding direct attention.
"You're so beautiful—" He rasps and moans himself when your lips find his Adam's apple, nibble and suck. "So beautiful… F-fuck— "
You like how his voice breaks; he sees it in your smirk and feels it in a seductive sway of your hips. Sebastian must close his eyes; with how painfully hard he is, he fears he might cum right here and now. He's not able to care what you might think about it, but if he allows himself to reach the high before he can feel at least your hand or lips, he will never forgive himself nor dare to look at you again.
"Please—" Whether he's begging his body to calm down or for your mercy, he's doing it like a prayer.
You kiss him again, sealing his moans until he's out of breath. Sebastian feels dizzy; tension leaves his body, and he melts into the sofa. Anxiety finally catches on him and tries to settle, his face is burning, and he averts his eyes before hiding them in the crook of his elbow.
Luckily, you don't let him slump.
"Come." You slip off his lap and pull him with you. "I have a more comfortable spot."
Sebastian follows, too horny and shy to think twice. You make it to the bedroom; it's dark here and he must trust you more than his eyes, but the light from the fireplace seeping in is enough for him to see the outline of your body when you push him on the bed and strip.
His hands feel empty without your waist in between; he reaches for you as soon as you climb over his hips and pull you on top, with greed that surprises you both. You giggle, your breath hot and moist against his neck, and continue what the sofa didn't let you, from the sweet spot under his jaw to the crook of his neck, where you finally settle.
One of your hands trails down, nails scratching his ribs and waist, fingers toy with the elastic band of his boxers.
Sebastian takes a sharp breath; his own hold tightens. So far, his mind has been mostly foggy with lust, but anxiety is still there, scratching at the door of his consciousness and flexes to pounce as soon as it's given any space. He's going to be bare and vulnerable right in front of you, right after an unexpected turn of events, as ready as he can be—but doubting his perception with every ounce of, however tiny, sane part of his mind.
His boxers are meanwhile lowered to his thighs. You peel away from him to pull them all the way down, the lack of your weight and warmth has him squirming. When you playfully run fingers through his pubes and compliment how neatly trimmed they are, Sebastian gives up and groans, hoping the pillows will swallow him, his shame and his anxiety always getting in the way.
"What are you scared of?" You stop right before touching his cock. He can't see your face, but he can hear the concern in your voice and feel how you settle by his side and lean away from his hips. "I love you."
You pepper his chest and neck with soft kisses, slowly crushing the fragile wall between you two, until Sebastian is breathing heavily again and arching into your touch. Not until then you touch his cock; Sebastian's eyes roll back in his head when you gently stroke him and swipe thumb against the extra sensitive tip.
He tries to warn him that he's too close to feel safe under such a tender attack but all he can word is a long and needy moan.
"I love you," you reassure him again and lie by his side, leg thrown over his hips and encouraging.
Sebastian follows, one hand holding your thigh close, the other resting by your head when he finally rolls over and traps you underneath, for the first time on top. Oh, how he wishes one of you took time to turn the lights on; he can roughly see the outline of your face cradled by soft pillows but not your expression nor how your lips open with a soundless moan when he dares to press on you with the whole weight of his body.
There will be time for that, he decides in his mind, his attention swallowed by the warm and wet spot he feels with his fingers when he reaches between your thighs.
"Go on." You purr. Reaching behind to hold on the pillows, you give your breasts a shape that makes him hold his breath. "Don't be shy."
Sebastian is not shy anymore, but he still starts slow, teasing, testing and learning. He soaks his fingers with your arousal, slowly spreads your labia to feel you better. When he finally finds the spot he's been looking for, you moan and sink nails in his shoulders. A pang of pain has his cock twitching hard, control threatening to slip through his fingers; he hides face in the crook of your neck and ruts against your hip but doesn't stop rubbing your clit.
You melt, squirm and cry under him, leaving deep scratched marks on his arms and wordlessly begging, and his mind is foggy with pleasure. He craves your body with every ounce of his, your smell and the feel of your soft body pressed tight to his are overwhelming—but so is happiness filling his heart to the brim, left yearning and longing for so long he can't remember the last day he still knew peace. When he peels away to sit on his heels and take an aim, he's immediately crushed by the need of you, flesh- and mind-tearing, full of the sweet taste of your arousal he licks off his fingers before he guides his cock to your entrance.
He lasts a second or two before he slams himself all the way in and collapses on top of you. You swallow him so eagerly he almost finishes half-way; he stills and breathes heavy into your ear, waiting for his frantic nerves to calm down and to let him collect the loose reins.
You twitch around him, impatient with the break. Sebastian wants to kiss you, but he fears it might be the spilling drop, "I won't last if you— Fuck, don't do that."
"I don't mind." You laugh and squeeze his cheeks. You press lips to his, then rub your noses together; a sweet and simple gesture that has him almost melting on spot. "Let go, if you wanna."
"Not before you."
It's just putting on a brave face, but Sebastian is determined to at least try. Torn between bringing you pleasure and having you as close as possible, he somehow fits a hand between your squeezed bodies and rubs your clit while thrusting, slow and shallow, just enough for some friction.
You're perfect like this, open for him, sweet and sexy, moaning dirty praises directly into his ear and scratching his scalp. The more he wants to lose control, the more he focuses on you, on every little detail of your pleasure; he chases your lips and sips wet, desperate kisses straight from them. He moans whenever you squeeze him tighter, always on the edge of finishing—and holding back by sheer miracle.
"I love you," he repeats like a prayer, drooling all over your neck and lips, sucking on your tongue and bruising your body where he holds on to you so desperately. Your hips thrust upwards, your slick walls constricting around him as you finally cum. Sebastian has to stop and clings to you, swaying your bodies together when you ride your high. Your face must look heavenly now, but he doesn't dare to check if he can see anything; he's stuck in his place over your shoulder, eyes closed shut for a good measure, and praying he can last long enough to pull out.
Maybe he would be heard out if you hadn't thrown leg over his hips and nudged him closer—until he had no choice but to fill you up.
Rain and wind rampage outside. Sebastian sighs in relief when you wrap arms around him and start playing with his hair; he returns the gesture and nuzzles up to your neck, overwhelmed by your warmth and your smell he can finally witness in its raw glory. He's dizzy, spent, and so happy he feels like crying—and maybe he would indulge in a tear or two if not for curious fingers gliding up his sides until he's twitching and laughing instead.
"Oh, good, I thought you died on me." You lazily stretch vowels—and stretch your back as much as the coil of Sebastian's arms lets you. You throw both legs over his hips now and cross them: a squeeze that has his cock twitch with interest again. "Hm? Someone is eager here…"
He lifts his head enough to kiss your nose—and to hide in his favorite spot right after. He's started to regret the darkness but he's glad no one has turned the light on yet; his face, neck and ears are burning with blush, and he's not sure if he wants you to see, " You are doing this to me."
"And you are making me do this." You kiss the crown of his head before you ruffle his hair. Sebastian hums in pleasure—your nails against his scalp are to die for.
"I hope this is not a dream," he whispers, more to himself than to be heard.
He is heard, though. You squirm under him, as if suddenly uncomfortable, so Sebastian lifts head to check on you.
"You take so many words out of my mouth tonight." You say when he rests chin on your chest. "First 'I love you', now this." When he tilts head, nothing better coming to his mind to let you know of his confusion, you reluctantly continue. "When you're yearning for so long without any answer, it's hard to believe that 'yes' is not a wishful thought."
Sebastian ponders over the next words. He's never been good with them, and it's even worse with blissful sleepiness creeping on him after orgasm, so in the end he only rolls his hips, hoping to find a reaction—and soon you mewl and squeeze legs a little tighter.
"If we wake up next to each other after making love for the whole night—" he lifts himself on straight arms to reach deeper "—would it make for a perfect answer?"
True to his idea, you answer with your body—you let him pull you into his lap and press tight against him until you're swaying together again.












