#axios!!

I do understand the probable dangers and risks.  However, I see much more gains and benefits for me.  But, I can't shy away from something just because it looks dangerous.  I'm not a hero, but I will try to save someone if I can, even if it's dangerous.  I will sacrifice myself, not to be remembered.  But, because someone needed help.  If someone was in trouble, the last thing I'd think about is how much fame and recognition I'll get from the deed.  I've always wanted to avoid such celebrity status.  I'm a very private person.  I have an open door policy, but also a privacy room.

It's a sad existence, really.  If you're against the popular opinion/status quo/generally accepted view, you get the worst treatment.  They suffered through it all when they should have been celebrated.  We celebrate them now, but man, if only their lives could have been easier.  The sad thing is it can take decades, even centuries for progress to show real change and results.  How can we be satisfied with just planning for our lifetime?  How selfish can we be?  We should be planning for 50 years from now, 100 years from now.  We should be focusing on making our species much better than it is now.  Not for us, but for the grand scheme of things.  The bigger picture.  People are too busy looking at the mirror to look at what's around and beyond the mirror.  Great people don't look at how we are, but look at how we can be.

When can I attain such courage and commitment?  To swim against the current.  To not break down, give up, or let naysayers prevent me from what I believe needs to be done.  To face violence, hate, and close-mindedness with honor, respect, and classiness.  When they tell you that you can't, and you tell them "I can and I will."

I don't think I will ever reach that level or come close to it.  But I will reach for it, even if I never make it.  In the mob, you're safe but you are trapped and go wherever the mob goes.  You can't decide your own destiny.  You never go against the mob for fear of the mob.  I don't want to live in fear.  I want to live the way I want.  I want to exist beyond the crowd, where you can do anything.  Where everything is possible, if you're worthy.