i know that i am actually physically dead. i want my body to be eaten by mushrooms, to be buried in the ground, to not have makeup applied at my funeral, to have a granite plaque installed on my grave, to not have an autopsy, to have grass grow through my body, to have my shroud soft. it'll be the most beautiful day of my life, i'll leave everything behind and i'll be free. i can't wait to go home











