Its time to be myself 1,000%
this era of my life and career lowkey has me scared shitless. it forces me to put myself out there and truly shine as myself without hiding behind anyone, and that shits HARD. especially since I want the approval of those in my circle that I look up to. but i am also aware that, i cant stay stuck in their shadows. i fought too hard, for too long to have my legacy be in the name of others.
I am fearlessly selfless. I support my community and I give nothing but love to my people. We are all connected.
Goal: To be this way for not just my inner circle but for communities at large.
I am a lower-middle class queer black woman who has been with and without. I am an eldest daughter, a sexual assault survivor, and smart as hell. I am neurodivergent (ADHD) and have had to be my biggest advocate and supporter. if my music is successful I want to use it to give a platform to any one who connects with my story and more.
this upcoming semester i am going to prioritize using my voice more. I am going to be involved in more community service and activism. Collaborating with women, speaking up when i hear something unjust even if it makes others uncomfortable, embracing my sexuality, and taking the lead by finding likeminded individuals who also want to make a change. (should i become a delta yall....👀?)
I am smart as hell, passionate as hell, talented as hell.
Goal: To make more opportunities for myself to showcase my skills and talents.
A lot of times I OVER humble myself and my abilities. I forget that I am a hard worker, a fast learner, and MULTITALENTED. When it comes to my music and my creative work I really want my business smarts and creativity to shine through. Choreographing dances, singing more, really prioritizing my grades and GPA, making better financial decisions when it comes to savings and stuff.
I think especially if my music does well I want to buckle down of that more because education...being educated is INCREDIBLY important because it helps you make the best decisions you possibly can for you and future you.
Plus educating myself more on all the things I am passionate about, and improving on those skills are so important. Putting that work in a TRAINING is integral to not being mediocre.
I am all about my passion, music, money, fashion....AND God.
Goal: To prioritize my spirituality (and peace of mind), above everything and everyone else.
The peace of mind aspect has been something I have been doing for awhile now, but the prioritizing spirituality is something I have not. Regardless of what I want, and what I believe, the only person who can truly make shit shake is the God within me. So nutruring that, having a dedicated practice, remembering and honoring that with utter devotion and love...it wont matter if my music actually pops off or not, because I will always, and have always, ended up where I am supposed to be.
Ultimately I am treating this whole thing like an experiment. Even if I don't become the rising star of our new generation, I want to put it all out there for me. I want to be the star of my world, even if its just for a moment, for me. Because my teenage self put in the work, because the little girl in me had the dreams, and young adult self has yet to stop trying, wishing, hoping, praying, and believing that I am destined for something greater. So when I say God above everything, what I am really saying is that my success is not defined by how other people react to this era of my life. Its about whether or not I love the person I become.
Much love yall.
peace, love, HARMONY xx ❤️🔥
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