#audiojournal

From 2024... I was living in NYC, i miss it!!!!!!!!! But yes, growing pains. Time Fliesssssssss. Home-made video :) Aw that girl was so sweet and scared to get older...

i've come to terms with the fact that all of this shit is just part of my ongoing audio journal and i can't care if it sucks. 

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i make calls too late at night

as if you'll forget that i'm alive

and if i ever let up just a little bit

fuck this, forget it

i must love being pathetic

i must love being pathetic

i make u re-evaluate your already figured out life

in a mall parking lot all the time

i get myself livid over nothing

it stems from a belief that nobody understands me

greedy splintered spiny and mean

in ways i wasnt even sure a human could be

your face crumpled up right in front of me

fuck you, forget it

you must love being pathetic

you must love being pathetic

i did not know i wouldn’t be able to throw up

pushing off and sinking in is so fucking unsettling

theres a thing i love outside of art and ecstasy and bodies

rough demo of new fake blood stuff

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i hope you're happy for the rest of your existence

god i missed this

i hope your band ends up making you famous

and you see what i am faced with on a daily basis

hair as soft as you could want

the lines of your mouth whenever you talk 

the curve of your nose

the dots on your spine

the skin on your stomach