beach msby4 and beach femsby4 !! first (proper) colored hq art
found out recently that when u edit a post with a new version of your art it doesnât update previous reblogs, and now iâm forever haunted by the fact that there are like 10 variations of my drawings out there. how am i supposed to live laugh love under these conditions
so now iâm trying to be more careful before posting, tryna wait a day or two after finishing the art so i can spot mistakes đââïž
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miya atsumu didn't believe in love at first sight until it happened to him.
he and osamu made it to school by the skin of their teeth, just before the physical education teacher closed the gate. the twins shared a look of relief before both grabbed each other by the collar.
"ya almost made us late, 'tsumu," osamu snarled, shaking atsumu's collar.
atsuma sneered, "hah?! don't pin this on me, 'samu! yer the one who wouldn't stop hoggin' breakfast!"
"that's 'cuz ya keep eatin' my share, dumbass!"
"yer share?! ma said that plate was f'me!"
before their argument could escalate, a startled shout intervened. atsumu snapped his head towards the gate, seeing you run while fixing your blazer. you were loudly begging the teacher to open the gates for you, but he just shook his head and pointed at his watch, indicating that you were far too late and have to be noted as such.
"damn, sucks to be her," osamu muttered, pushing atsumu away from him. "if ya didn't take yer fat ass outta kitchen, we'd probably be with her by now."
atsumu felt his temple throb the more he listen to his twin. he was about to retort, maybe even call osamu the fat ass twin by how much he eats and demands another serving, but his voice died in his throat as he watched you effortlessly jump over the gates by scaling the walls and gaining momentum via a kick. his eyes never left your flying figure as you landed a few feet away from him.
you squatted when your feet touched the ground, an exhilarated smile spreading on your lips as you congratulated yourself for a job well done. the teacher's mouth hung open, looking back and forth from the gateâwhich was around six feet tall or more. he groaned, dragging both hands down his face as he instructed you towards the faculty room. the smile on your face immediately vanished, replaced by a cute pout.
"woah," atsumu managed to breath out, heart racing as the scene of you jumping replayed in his mind again and again. he'd never seen anyone jump that high before nor anyone who managed to jump over the school gate that gracefully. his heart thumped against his chest, faint red spreading on his neck, cheeks, and ears as he watched you get scolded by the teacher.
when you noticed a pair of twins watching your scolding, you whined in embarrassment. as the teacher guided you towards tne entrance, you sent a small wave them.
atsumu choked on his spit when you waved at him. he pointed at himself, blinking rapidly, then waved back excitedly. he was unaware of the shaky smile on his lips nor the prominent blush coating his face.
"yer red as a tomato, 'tsumu," osamu cackled, silently taking photos of his twin as backmail material. "don't tell me ya fell in love with that girl!"
atsumu immediately jumped on osamu, shaking his shoulders. "the hell're ya sayin', 'samu?! yer seein' things 'cuz ya ate too much octo sausages earlier!"
"hah?! don't drag ma's octo sausages into this, 'tsumu! just admit ya finally have a crush on a girl!"
"shut yer trap!"
"both of you, go to yer classes already!" a passing teacher snapped at them.
the twins paused and made themselves presentable, nodding. they sneered each other as they finally entered their school building, changing into their indoor shoes.
as atsumu walked towards his classroom, he couldn't help but wish that you were his classmate... not that he'd admit it out loud, though.
Looking for the perfect kissing gloss with your boyfriend is like . . .
Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!
Youâve been kissing him for an hour on his bed, but heâs still not yet satisfiedâat this point, you think, he never will be.
âAngel, try this one nextâŠâ he purrs, handing you the small sparkly tube of gloss.
The goal was to find the perfect kissing gloss, and you had a vast collection. Of course, sponsored by your disgustingly rich and hardworking boyfriend (maybe sugar daddy).
You wipe your lips with a new piece of wet wipe and apply the gloss he handed you. Plop! You puckered your lips, giggling as he looked up at you.
God, he looked so cute when you sat on top of him.
âI could die like thisâŠâ he says, awestruck.
You laugh, rolling your hips, knowing how to make it ache. âLike this?â
âYouâre so cruel, angel.â He pouts.
For the nth time, you lean down and grab his face. âThen maybe you should punish me.â You whispered before crashing your lips onto his.
Seems like your boyfriend was really getting his moneyâs worth with these glosses!
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Sakusa never spoke much about his private life while at work. The team knew he had a partner, only because he mentioned it once, and they assumed whoever it was must be similar to him.
So they were shocked when he arrived at the New Yearâs party holding hands with you. Your face was adorned with a bright smile and you waved eagerly the second you faced the rest of the attendees.
âIf anything happened to her, I would kill everyone in this room and then myself,â he added for no apparent reason other than seeing Atsumu, Bokuto and Hinataâs jaws drop at his unusual display of affection.
You chuckled as if this was completely normal. âItâs so nice to be here, Iâve heard a lot about you!â
âNow get back to the party, thank you.â After finishing his introduction, Sakusa swiped you away so you could both wash your hands in the bathroom.
The silence settled for only a minute, until-
âPay up, âTsumu. Told you he didnât make her up.â
AUTHORâS NOTE: read part one first please, this will absolutely not make any sense whatsoever if you do NOT read the first part. Itâs linked up top.
You stood in front of him, every word, every thought stripped down to nothing, dying on your tongue before they had a chance to form.
His lips were moving, but the ringing in your ears was deafening. You blinked once, shock overwhelming your senses. Time seemed to drag on, only to be disturbed by a velvet box being shoved in your face.
The ring glinted between you like a taunt, like it was meant to provoke you in some way. It should have felt like a turning point, a gesture of love so big it eclipsed every fight youâd ever had. But instead, all you felt was the years of begging, the years of waiting, fighting, and the realization that this was far from what you wanted.
You stared up at him, your throat constricting, eyes void of any tears. Youâd cried enough over thisâenough over his lack of initiative, his lack of understanding. Youâd had this conversation beforeâmany timesâand still, nothing had changed.
âTooruâŠâ Your voice was hoarse, flat. âNone of this⊠none of this changes. This doesnât fix anything thatâs happened.â
Oikawaâs face crumpled in confusion, panic flickering across his eyes. âWhat are you talking about? Of course it does. Iâm asking you to marry me, Y/n. Iâm telling you I want youâonly you.â
âYouâve been telling me that for years.â Your words cut through the room like glass, sharp but quiet. âAnd Iâve been telling you for years that I donât feel seen, that I donât feel like I matter next to everything else youâve chosen.â
He flinched, the words landing heavy. âYou matter more to me than anything,â he said quickly, almost desperately. âPleaseâyouâre the only one I want to come home to. Youâve always been the only person Iâve ever needed.â
You shook your head, cutting him off, the sound brittle. âYou donât come home to me. You arenât present with meâyou donât make an effort to spend time with me. You donât care enough to ask me about my day or find time to take me out on a date. Iâve been with you for so long, Tooru. And Iâve realized that you know nothing about me. You tell me that Iâm the only one, but you make me feel like Iâm not even worth your time.â
His breath hitched. His hands trembled where he held the ring box. âIâGod, I didnât know you felt like that. I thought⊠I thought this would show youâŠâ
âIt doesnât show me anything. If anything, itâs a reminder that all this time Iâve had to beg you to see me. Iâve had to beg you for the bare minimum. I think you stayed with me because I was comfortableâyou got complacent.â Your voice broke now, low and raw. âThisâall of thisâjust makes me sad. Because you think a ring can undo years of me feeling like this. Iâve felt like this for so long, and you canât say that Iâve never told youâbecause I have, many times. You just donât listen to me.â
The silence that followed was suffocating. He set the ring box down slowly on the coffee table, like it weighed a hundred pounds. âI do listen to youâI listen to everything you say to me. Everything you say matters more to me than anything,â he whispered, voice fraying at the edges. âI love youâcanât you see? Let me fix everything.â
âThatâs the problem. You donât listen to what Iâm saying to understand me, to see me, to make me feel heard and validated. You listen to respond.â Your eyes burned, but you refused to let the tears fall. âYou donât try to fix you. You try to fix me. You apologize to me, you fucking beg me to forgive you, promise me that youâll change, and then nothing. Your actions do not reflect what you say to me. Itâs a cycle. Itâs the same shitâthe same fightâwe make up, we have sex, and then nothing changes.â
He sank onto the couch, elbows on his knees, face buried in his hands. For once, he didnât have a comebackâno sarcasm, no charm. Just a man realizing his own failure too late.
âTell me what to do,â he murmured through his palms. âPlease. Tell me how to make you stay.â
You stared at him, heart splintering. âIâve been telling you for years,â you said softly. âAnd stillâyou just donât listen.â
He looked up at you then, and you saw the boy youâd met years agoâthe boy who burned so brightly he lit up every room, who thought he could outwork his flaws, who thought love could be proven like a score on a scoreboard.
You stepped back, your voice shaking. âI canât marry you, Tooru. I canât even keep doing this with you. Iâm tired. Iâm so tired.â
His face went pale, eyes wide and wet. âAre you leaving me?â
âI think a part of me already hasâI probably should have left a long time ago.â The words came out cracked, like theyâd been waiting inside you for a long time.
He didnât move. He didnât follow when you turned toward the door. You heard his breath hitchâa low, broken sound youâd never heard from him beforeâOikawa Tooru, the man who was always composed, always smiling, unraveling in the quiet of his own apartment.
The ring sat between you on the coffee table, gleaming under the lamp like a cruel joke.
You walked away, leaving the silence behind you as you slammed the door to the apartment.
And for the first time since youâd known him, Oikawa didnât chase after youâhe just stood there, hollow and unmoving, watching the only thing heâd ever truly wanted slip away, realizing too late that love alone had never been enough to make you stay.
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â BOKUTO KOUTARO i think this one is the sweetest one out of all of them
The air surrounding you was still tense with the echoes of your fight.
The ring box that Koutaro had thrown at you now sat abandoned on the coffee table, the air heavy and cold with the kind of silence that made your chest ache.
You sat curled up on the far end of the couch with your knees tucked close to your chest, staring at the floor, your breath uneven from all the crying. Every time you blinked, your eyes began to well with tears, throat burning every time you swallowed. You just wanted quietâfive minutes of peace.
But Bokuto wasnât going anywhereâcouldnât, not even when you begged him to stay with Atsumu for the night.
He stood a few feet away from you, his hair a mess, eyes rimming with irritation and hurt, and heâs still wearing the same t-shirt heâd stormed in with earlier. His chest rose and fell like heâd just come off the court, breath shaking with every inhale, hands balled into fists at his sides as if trying to find something to hold on to.
âBaby,â he said softly, voice frayed. âPleaseâŠI am begging you, just talk to me. I canâtâI canât just go to bed after all that and Iâm not fucking leaving until we fix this.â
You didnât look up, eyes flicking towards the window. âThereâs nothing that I havenât already said. I donât have anything else to say to you, Koutarou.â
âYes, you do baby. You always have everything to say.â He took a step closer, cautious, like he was afraid youâd vanish if he moved too fast. âYouâre still upset, I can tell. And the way you feel is completely validâI really, really fucked up. I hurt you in a way I didnât think I ever could.â
Your jaw clenched. âYou didnât just hurt me, Kou. You forgot me. And it seems to be a patternâanytime something really important comes up, youâre never there. I know tonight mightâve been different butâŠevery other time, you couldâve taken time off.â
The words hit him straight through. He sank down on the floor in front of you, sitting cross-legged, elbows on his knees, staring up at you with glassy eyes. âI know,â he said hoarsely. âI know, baby. I justâwhen things get busy, I lose track of everything in front of me. Sometimes I even lose sight of whatâs really important to meâand believe me, Iâm trying. But thatâs not an excuseâif you canât see my effort, then itâs not enough and I know what I need to do.â
âBut you always say this. I know work comes first, I know you have to attend meetings, and travelâbut nothing changes between us,â you whispered, tears finally spilling again. âYou say you donât mean to. You say youâll do better. And for a while, things are better. But then the season starts, or thereâs a new deal, or another dinner, and suddenly Iâm back here, waiting for you to remember that I exist.â
He winced, hands trembling against his knees. âI never forgot that you existed, babygirl. I justââ His voice broke, cracking raw. âI need to find a balance between work and my relationship with you. When Iâm working, when Iâm focused, I donât know how to stopâthe grind mentality is the only thing Iâve known. I donât know how to slow down and stop and appreciate whatâs around me sometimes. But that doesnât mean youâre not my whole world. Youâve kept me grounded since the day we met.â
You wiped your face with the heel of your hand. âI shouldnât have to fight to be seen in the world of the person who loves me the most. I just want you to see that I matter, that my dreams matter too, that our future is all I think about. I want you to celebrate those moments with me.â
He crawled closer, hesitating just before he reached you. âThings are going to change. This is the last time that you deserve to feel this way.â His voice was barely above a whisper. âCan I please, please just hold you?â
You didnât answerâjust stared at him through blurry eyes. But when he reached out, gentle and uncertain, you didnât pull away. His arms came around you, careful, tentative at first, then tighter when you didnât resist. The moment his hand found the back of your head, the dam broke. You sobbed into his chest, fists clutching his shirt, shaking from exhaustion and heartbreak.
He just held you. No words, no promises â just quiet apologies pressed into your hair.
âI hate fighting with you, it fucking kills me.â he whispered eventually, voice raw against your temple. âI hate when I make you cry.â
âI hate fighting with you, itâs not fair to either one of us,â you murmured, pulling back to look at him. âI hate that we keep doing this. Things need to change, Kou.â
He nodded, eyes wet, thumb brushing a tear from your cheek. âBaby, I promise you, this is the last time. Iâll be betterâI know I have to earn your trust back, I know I have to prove myself.â
Your laugh was small, tired. âYou donât have to prove anything to me tonight.â
He smiled faintly â that soft, boyish one that still made your heart ache â and shook his head. âNo, I do. Just⊠not the way I did before.â
You frowned as he reached for the ring box on the table, picking it up carefully, like it might break if he held it wrong. He turned it over in his palm once before opening it again.
âEarlier,â he said, voice trembling, âI said âmarry meâ because I was scared that you were going on walk out on me. Thatâs not what I want this to mean. I donât want it to come from fearâyou donât deserve that. I want it to come from this. From us. From how much I love you, even when weâre a mess, even when things are hard.â
He looked at you, tears shimmering in his eyes. âLoving you is the best decision Iâve ever made. Loving you in easy. So Iâm asking again, because Iâm scared to lose you, but because I donât wanna spend one more night forgetting how lucky I am to have you. I want this for the rest of my life. Will you marry me? For real this time.â
Your heart cracked open all over again. You could barely breathe, barely thinkâall you could do was nod, choking out a small, tearful âyeah.â
His face broke into the softest, most fragile smile youâd ever seen. He slipped the ring onto your finger with shaking hands, then leaned forward to kiss your forehead.
It wasnât fiery or desperate. It was slow, reverent, the kind of kiss that said everything words couldnât.
You both sank into the couch together, too drained to move, wrapped up in each otherâs warmth. His hand found yours where the ring glinted faintly in the low light.
âIâm not going anywhere,â he mumbled, voice heavy with sleep.
âI know,â you whispered, tracing lazy circles over his chest. âJustâŠdonât forget about me again.â
âI would never,â he breathed, and this time, you almost believed him.
By the time the city outside went quiet, the two of you were already asleepâtangled in each other, the fight finally giving way to peace.
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â IWAIZUMI HAJIME this one is kindaaaa steammyyyy
You stared at him for a long moment, chest tight, hands trembling. The silence in the kitchen suffocated both of you, and the ring in his hand gleamed like it had a heartbeat of its own.
âY/nâŠâ His voice was barely above a whisper, raw and vulnerable, âCan you fuckinâ say something, please. IâI just donât know what Iâd do if youâif you sayâŠâ His words trailed, broken, the fear that had haunted him spilling into the open.
Your throat burned, but your lips found a small, trembling smile. âYes,â you said softly, voice thick with emotion. âYes, Iâll marry you.â
The words hit him like sunlight breaking through a storm, the air newly knocked itself out of his lungs in disbelief. His brown eyes went wide in shock, his hands shaking so violently you thought he might drop the ring. âYouâŠyou said yes?â His voice cracked, disbelief rolling into joy. âYou reallyâ?â
âYes,â you breathed, taking a careful step closer, letting the vulnerability of your own tears show. âHow could I say no? I love you more than Iâve loved anyone. Iâve always loved you, itâs always been you. ThisâŠthis doesnât scare me. Iâve always wanted thisâIâve always wanted you.â
Hajime froze, chest rising and falling rapidly, like he needed to inhale every word youâd just said. Then slowly, like he couldnât believe his own courage, he reached for you. His hands brushed your cheeks, gentle but insistent, thumbs stroking your skin, wiping away the tears, and his forehead rested against yours.
âIâve been such a jackass,â he murmured against your temple, voice low and rough. âI didnât mean to shut you out, baby. I was just scaredâŠI hate admitting that but I was scared that youâd say no. Scared Iâd fuck up the proposal.â
Tears slipped down your cheeks, and he brushed them away, his touch feather-light but grounding. âHajime,â you whispered, âall I want is you. JustâŠyou. Youâve always been enough for me, for everyone around you. I donât need anything more or anything less. Just you.â
The kitchen felt smaller, warmer, every sound of your heartbeats mingling with his. His lips found yours, slow at first, tentative, like testing the waters after a storm. But when you responded, his hands tightened around you, pulling you flush against him, trembling kisses cascading over your mouth. The urgency of the fight, the fear, the relief â it all poured out in that kiss, raw and emotional.
You clung to him, feeling the trembling strength beneath his embrace, his hands roaming your back, fingers gripping your hair, grounding you, pulling you closer to him. His breaths mingled with yours, heavy and uneven, soft moans escaping as he pressed closer. Every kiss, every brush of lips and teeth and tongue, was a confession, a promise, a tether between the two of you.
âIâm so in love with you,â he murmured against your lips, voice low and shaky. âI couldnât imagine what my life would look like without you. I never want to let you goâyouâre everything Iâve ever wanted.â
âI love you,â you whispered back, letting your tears fall freely now. âIâve always loved youâsince we first met.â
He groaned softly, heart shaking against yours, lips capturing yours again, this time slower, deeper, savoring every inch. Hands slipping beneath your shirt, touching your waist, pulling you impossibly closer until the rest of the world melted away. The fight, the anger, the fear â it all dissolved in this moment, leaving only you and him, raw and alive and utterly unafraid.
Eventually, you both sank onto the couch, limbs tangled, breathing ragged, foreheads pressed together, hearts hammering in sync. He brushed stray hairs from your face, his thumb tracing your cheek, and whispered, âWeâre gonna be okay, baby. Promise Iâll fix everything. Iâll make sure you never feel like this again.â
You shivered against him, resting your head against his chest, listening to the steady thrum of his heartbeat. âI trust you, I always have.â you murmured, voice soft, filled with everything words couldnât hold.
His arms tightened around you, and the kitchen faded into nothing â all that existed was the warmth, the trembling, the love that finally, finally, felt like it could breathe.
And when sleep took you, you did so tangled in each other, the ring shining softly on your finger, a quiet promise of forever, and the storm outside had nothing on the storm inside you both â because this one ended in surrender, in trust, in love.
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â MIYA ATSUMU my baby. I got carried away with this one
âMarry me. Please. I donât care that itâs ugly like this, in the middle of a fight, with the neighbors watchinâ.â His throat bobbed as he swallowed hard, desperate. âI canât stand ya thinkinâ I donât want ya, that Iâd ever choose anyone else other than you. Youâre it for me, y/n. Always have been. I canât do life without yaâI wonât.â
The whole street felt like it had gone stillâthe air, the lights, even the neighbors held their breath. Atsumu Miya, brash and arrogant and infuriatingly impossible, knelt trembling before you, his messy, ugly truth finally spilling out into the night.
And you just stared at him.
For a long moment, the world was nothing but the sound of your heartbeat and the faint hum of the streetlight above you. Atsumu didnât moveâdidnât breathe. The velvet box shook in his hands, his eyes wide and tearful, a thousand unsaid things trembling behind them.
âBaby IâŠI canâtâŠâ he choked, voice cracking, trembling. âI canât lose you, not like this. You donât understandâI would give my fuckinâ life for you! I love you so much it fuckinâ hurts, and I canâtâŠI canât imagine one second without you!â
Tears streamed down your face, a sob left your lips, and for the first time in hoursâyou let yourself feel every ounce of anger, every ounce of frustration, the betrayal of thinking he was being unfaithful. âAtsumuâŠâ you whispered, voice breaking.
His chest felt tight, almost like it would cave in on itself with every ragged breath he took. âLook at me, babygirl. Please. Donât walk away from me. Donât do this to me IâI canâtââ His voice broke again, loud and raw, half sob, half shout.
âThis isnâtâŠâ your voice cracked, barely a whisper. âThis isnât what I wantedââTsumu I-I just wanted the truthââ
He looked up at you, completely undone. âAnd ya think I wanted this?â he rasped, chest heaving. âI wanted this to be something specialâsomething so much more than whatever the fuck this is. I wanted to make ya feel loved, make ya feel like the luckiest girl in the worldâI didnât wanna make ya cry, baby, not like this. But I canâtâI canât let you walk out on me thinkinâ Iâd ever cheat on ya.â
Your throat burned. âThen why did you lie to me? Why did you sneak around and act like you didnât care? You just shut me out, Atsumuââ
âI was fuckinâ scared!â he shouted, the word tearing out of him before he could stop it. âI was scared that it wouldnât be enough, that me proposing to you wouldnât be enough, that youâd look at me andâfuck, that youâd say no. I was scared that I might lose the love of my life.â
His voice broke on that last word. You watched his head drop, shoulders trembling, and something in your chest gave way. The silence that followed wasnât peaceful, it was thick, suffocatingâheavy with everything you both hadnât said.
Your chest tightened. Youâd never seen him like thisâso stripped of arrogance, so unfiltered, so achingly vulnerable. You took a shaky step forward, and he closed the distance in a heartbeat, arms circling your waist, pulling you into him with tears streaming down his cheeks. You clung back, holding him against you trembling with every sob, letting yourself feel everything youâd bottled up too.
And then, as if the universe couldnât take it either, the sky cracked open. Thunder cracked, lightning struck throughout the night sky, clouds weeping alongside you both.
Heavy drops of rain began to fall, darkening the pavement around him. Within seconds, you were both soakedâhair plastered to your face, shirt clinging to your skin, exposing your bare skin to the world, the ring in his hand catching the blur of streetlight and storm. Atsumu let out a shaky, almost disbelieving laugh, tipping his head back.
âPerfect,â he muttered bitterly, wiping his eyes even though the rain made it pointless. âNow the fuckinâ skyâs cryinâ, too.â
You couldnât help itâyou laughed, too. A small, broken sound that tasted like salt and rain as you sniffled.
And thatâs when your chest collapsed in on itself. You looked down at him, a small smile on your lips, voice trembling as you whispered, âSweet boy,â
He looked up at you thenâdevastated but eyes hopeful, still on his knees in the downpour. Rain clung to his lashes, and the moon reflected through his eyes. He was beautiful, always had been, even like this.
âI donât care how ugly things get. Iâve always loved you more than you could ever imagine. SoâŠyes.â
Atsumu froze. His mouth opened, but no sound came out. Rain streamed down his cheeks, mingling with his tears as his head fell forward, a strangled, perplexed laugh escaping him. âYes? Yes to what?â
âTo marrying you.â
He laughed againâhalf-sob, half-disbelieving joyâhis forehead falling against your stomach, arms wrapping around your waist as if grounding himself in the truth of you.
Rain slicked streets, lights blurred around you bothâand neither of you seemed to care. And then he stood, towering over you with tears in his eyes, like his entire world has just been pieced back together. He grabbed your face, thumbs swelling softly against your cheeks as he searched your face for the truth.
âI donât want ya to say yes just because ya feel obligated to,â he whispered, hands shaking. âDonât say it if ya donât mean it, baby.â
âBabyâŠI mean it, always will.â you choked, your voice trembling but steady enough to convince him.
For a heartbeat, neither of you moved. Just the rain between you, cold and relentless, dripping from his jaw to your lips, mingling with your tears. Then Atsumu exhaledâa shaky, broken soundâand you barely had time to breathe before his lips were on yoursâsweet, desperate, a collision of a sincere apology and insatiable hunger. It wasnât soft, it didnât dare to be. It was everything youâd both been holding back, spilling out all at once without any reservations.
You gasped against his lips, fingers tangling in his soaked hair as he pulled you impossibly closer to him. The rain made your clothes cling to your skin, cold and slick, but his touch burned everywhere, a reminder than the fire between you still burned bright. His lips traced frantic paths down your jaw, to your throat, sucking deep purple marks into your skin that tasted of rain and salted skin.
âThisâŠthis wasnât how I imagined this would happen,â you moaned between kisses, voice breaking, breath hitching as his hands slid beneath the hem of the shirt clinging to your body.
âI know,â he rasped, lips brushing the corner of your mouth, the edge of your chin. âI fuckinâ know, baby. But I donât careânot right now. Itâs just me and you, thatâs all I care âboutâ
He stopped himself with a shudder, forehead pressing to yours, the two of you trembling, breathing the same ragged air. For one suspended second, the world narrowed to thisâthe heartbeat under your palms, the taste of him on your tongue, the rain pounding around you like static.
âI donât wanna let go, youâre all Iâve ever wanted.â you murmured, barely audible.
He smiledâsmall, absolutely wrecked. âThen donât, babygirl. Itâs always been me and you,â
Then, without another word, his lips were on yours again before he lifted you, pulling you close, shoulder catching you as he practically carried you to the apartment. The door slammed behind you; the world outside disappearing into the sound of rolling thunder. Thereâs a heartbeat of silenceâjust you both, rain dripping, pooling beneath your feet, absolutely breathless, staring at each other, shivering from adrenaline and cold and desire.
âYouâre fuckinâ perfect, ya know that?â he muttered, fingers brushing the damp strands of hair from your face, cupping your cheeks like heâs memorizing them, needing you in every way.
âIâm far from perfect, we both are.â you tease, voice shaky, teeth chattering from wet clothes clinging to your skin.
âIâm far from perfect, but youâŠyouâre beyond perfect, always have been, my baby. And itâs just for me.â he growled, tugging you into him again. His kisses are desperate, hungry, your arms tangled around his neck with a moan, his hands roamed every inch of your body, tugging at the shirt clinging to you, pulling it over your head to reveal the bare skin of your hips. Your lips crashed together in a chaotic rhythm, every moan, every shiver, every ragged breath is raw and real as his hands held you down, pulling you back towards him to ground you.
And you know itâs only just the beginning of a sleepless night, the world outside forgotten, and right now, this is enough. You both are enough for one another.
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â SAKUSA KIYOOMI Iâm apologizing in advance
You didnât move. The ring glinted between you like a cruel joke â a promise that showed up far too late. Your throat burned, chest rising and falling too fast as the silence between you hung.
Then you laughedâsharp, breathless, disbelieving. âYouâre fucking with me,â you said, shaking your head. âYou have to be.â
His brow furrowed, the faintest flicker of confusion breaking through his composure. âWhat? Why would I be screwing around with something like this?â
âBecause thisââ you snapped, gesturing to him â to the ring, to his kneeling form, to everything. âYou really think this is something I can accept? You think proposing after ignoring me for weeks makes it okay? I have had to beg for your attention, Kiyoomi!â
âThatâs not what Iâmââ
âNo, thatâs exactly what youâre doing!â Your voice cracked, anger flooding through the ache in your chest. âYou donât even talk to me, you donât see me, and nowâwhat? You just throw a ring at me and hope it changes everything? That I wonât beg you to love me anymore, that I wonât cry because you refuse to touch me, that I wonât scream at you like this because Iâm tired of not being treated right?â
His jaw tightened, the muscle twitching. âDonât do that, donât say that. Itâs not fair, you know howââ
âOh, donât you dare,â you spat, eyes stinging. âDonât you dare tell me whatâs fair. I begged you to let me in, Kiyoomi. I begged. I wouldâve gotten on my hands and knees if you wouldâve just listened to me! You shut me out over and over, and now you decide this is the moment to ask me to marry you? After all of this?â
His voice rose, quiet but razor-sharp. âBecause Iâm trying! Iâm trying to do the right thing, to show you that Iââ
âThat you what?â you cut in, shaking your head, bitter laughter bubbling up. âThat you love me? You donât even know how to show it unless itâs on your terms. Everything has to be perfect for you, doesnât it? Every word has to be rehearsed, every move you make it controlled. You canât even love me without making it complicated!â
His composure cracked â just slightly, just enough. âYou think this is easy for me?â he said, voice low and shaking. âYou think I donât fight myself every damn day to keep our relationship together? Iâm not good at this. I know Iâm not. But I thoughtââ His throat worked, and his voice broke mid-sentence. âI thought if I could make it right, maybe youâd finally see how much Iââ
âI do see it,â you said, tears spilling now, voice trembling with fury. âAnd thatâs the problem. You only show me that you care when we fight, when you feel like Iâm about to walk out on you. Ive been checked out from this relationshipâat least emotionally. You just donât show me when it matters mostâand I donât deserve that.â
The words hit him like a physical blow. His hand fell from the open box, the ring still glinting faintly between you. His eyes â wide, wet, unsteady â locked on yours. âDonât say that I donât show you that I love you. I show you in the only way I know how,â he whispered.
You swallowed hard, forcing the next words out because someone had to. âI canât marry you, Kiyoomi. I refuse to beg you to treat me like I mean something to you when another man would do it in a heartbeat without question.â
He froze. No breath. No sound. The world went painfully still.
âWhat?â His voice was barely a whisper.
You shook your head, wiping your face. âYou heard me. I cannot marry you. Not like this.â
âLove, pleaseâ His voice cracked again, rough this time, trembling with something raw. âDonât do that. Donât throw this away because I messed up.â
âYou didnât mess up,â you said, voice low but shaking. âYou waited. You waited until I was ready to walk out the door to finally decide I was worth the risk. And now you want me to just⊠what? Forget how lonely this has been? Iâm the only one in this relationship, Kiyoomi. Am I supposed to just forget how small you make me feel every time you shut me out?â
He took a step forward, desperate now, the mask fully gone. âIâm trying to tell you I can be better!â
âBut Iâm tired of waiting for that!â you cried, the sound shattering the air between you. âIâm so fucking tired of waiting for you to be ready to love me in the way I deserveâitâs been almost four years! Four years of me begging, of me trying to get you to see me!â
He flinched. His shoulders sagged, the fight draining out of him like blood. The box slipped from his fingers, hitting the floor with a dull clatter.
Neither of you moved.
You stared at him â the man youâd loved, the one whoâd built walls so high even his love couldnât reach through them â and you realized this was it. The breaking point.
When he finally spoke, his voice was hollow. âSo thatâs it?â
You took a shaky breath, forcing the words out even though they hurt like hell. âYeah,â you whispered. âThatâs it.â
He nodded once, eyes red, chest rising and falling unevenly. For a moment, it looked like he might say something else, might reach for you â but he didnât.
And maybe that said everything.
You stepped around him slowly, your hand brushing the wall for balance as you passed. The rain had started outside, faint at first, tapping against the window. You didnât look back when you reached the door.
Behind you, the sound of your footsteps faded â and somewhere between one breath and the next, Sakusaâs composure finally broke.
The ring lay between you both, glinting faintly in the half-light â a symbol of everything that couldâve been, now just another piece of the wreckage.
AUTHORâS NOTE
I really luv you people bc itâs fucking 5am in Germany right now and I put my whole ass into writing this. Smh. Should I write a version of this for JJK perhaps? I think so.