#astrologynerd

But that Leo🦁 conjunction of sexual looking symbols in my chart are also what make me feel proud when I look at him. 😍 He sent me a pic of him wearing a lot of purple (his fave color) today, and it’s all I can do not to post it right here, on the big wide interwebs​. Cuz he’s looking quite fine in it.

Sad that he has wasted so much energy over the years (mostly in his past, thankfully🙏) deeply disliking his body for believing he is “too skinny” (possibly my top fave thing about him🤷‍♀️​), or other falsehoods about it.

I was wise to sense my Leo Venus/Mars had something to do with why I can be a healing fit for him, despite us having pretty different Venus and Mars placements…. found out later his Part of Fortune is on my Venus/Mars. ​😘

And yes, a Leo Venus and a Capricorn Venus sound pretty different… but my Lot/Part of Eros (which includes Venus in its calculation) is on his Venus. No wonder I was calling him my “Venus Man” before I even knew this. I just thought it was because he’s a Taurus rising, with Venus conjunct Jupiter and his midheaven. 😍

Well shit, just realized the irony of how these are currently the thoughts most wanting to come out of me, and we are minutes away from Valentine’s Day in my part of the world.​ Ironic because I have never cared for Valentine’s Day and found the whole thing to just be commercialism. 🤷‍♀️

And I’ll probably still feel that way. Because I prefer the holidays I acknowledge to be based around things that make sense to me (but I don’t really know the origins of Valentine’s day, to be fair). Also to be fair, I have been single like essentially every other Valentine’s day in my 34 years.

Would be nice if I’m reaching a turning point; quite recently realized I’m currently at my Juno return. 🤞 Also learning to love myself enough to not sabotage things with others, and believe I can’t be in a relationship. Hoping it turns out I already met the person for me a decade ago.

It is quite nice the Moon will be in Taurus for tomorrow. And all up in Jupiter’s vicinity at that. 😍​ a Venus-ruled Moon, amplified by the other benefic? Yeah, that sounds like perfect Valentine’s Day weather.

Idk if I’ll even be seeing my lover, like I said I still don’t particularly care to recognize this date, and I don’t think he does either.

Nevertheless… the Universe is smiling on many people giving them this astro weather for Valentine’s Day. 😊

💘

To give you a better idea of what this could look like, I’ll include screenshots at the end, of some excerpts from the many extensive posts I’ve recently put to my private Threads account with no followers, which I’ve been posting to every day since about the start of the New Year. It was totally unplanned for me that the Threads app would end up being basically just a private online diary for me. (also another place to help me not lose touch with what’s being talked about in society.) But I’m fond of a lot of the stuff I’ve been writing lately, and honestly it’s been easier to work with than a physical diary for me, even with the dumb character limits! (For that reason, I probably should have just opened a new Tumblr account for myself in the interest of being a place for some of my more unfiltered and personal writing- but maybe I can still do that!)

I love that the style of writing I am by far most drawn towards, autobiographical accounts and the exploring of my own philosophies, does tend to be well-received here. It makes sense this is the style I’ve always been most drawn to, as a very subjective and expressive Cancer🦀 5th house Mercury. But I also have Saturn and Neptune opposing my Mercury in the 11th house, and Chiron conjunct my Mercury, so trying to share this type of writing with the world has been honestly pretty alienating at times- like on most other apps I’ve ever had! I don’t really have the mind to be as interested in sharing more objective writings that relay my understanding of astrology through sharing knowledge about lists of planet placements or something like that. Although I appreciate all of you who do gravitate towards writing those kinds of things. But it’s through reflecting on and sharing about my personal experiences, and the experiences of those whose lives weave into mine, that I can share my knowledge about astrology, in a more atypical way… and also hopefully keep people entertained with interesting stories and thoughts!

There’s a lot of self processing that has taken place in my recent writings, and I think my progress could inspire others to get to reflecting in positive ways on their own lives and sense of self. My musing is done in ways that are often comedic, always vulnerable, and often trying to be grateful while still being honest with myself. It’s definitely adult-rated.

I still don’t really know yet where and how it’d be best for me to get my writings out there. but if Neptune is the connector of all, and for some reason the musings of my individual mind actually would be influential for even a very minute subset of the public, I trust them (idk, Neptune probably uses they/them pronouns🤷‍♀️) to sort it all out.

Sun = 🧡❤️‍🔥

Moon = 💞 (the Moon has such an interesting way of supporting all the other planets by allowing us to feel what’s going on with each that makes it within her vicinity)

Mercury = 💌

Venus = 💖 or 💝 or 🥰 (I think it’s ok if Venus hogs more than her fair share here, because the heart emoji was basically designed for her)

Mars = ❤️‍🔥 or 💔

Jupiter = 💜 (purple is the color of wisdom) or 💘 (that arrow reminds me of Sag!)

Saturn = 🤎 (earth color cuz 🪐 be the planet that grounds us to reality! Also the only one with its own emoji- which shows who’s really boss😂)

Uranus = ❣️ (honestly just picked the one that breaks the mold the most)

Neptune = 💙

Meme I made months ago, and just thought about again because I appreciate the degree to which I am a TRUE skeptic and critical thinker… not a science worshipper who mistakenly believes the definition of these terms to be “believing what is set forth as true by scientific organizations and not believing what is not condoned by these organizations”.

Frankly, if people were to actually have enough of an open mind to learn astrology in depth- and follow it in the context of their daily lives, there’s just no denying that the patterns above relate to our lives. I see it every single day. You have to have an appreciation for the human experience to see it though- not just an eye for numbers or cold facts.

But I will say that many popular views in Western astrology sound way too hyped up over the North Node being YOUR ULTIMATE PURPOSE 🎊🥳… and even much more so, I can NOT personally relate to my South Node being a “skill” I’ve already mastered and/or something that I should just not focus on in this life (then again I also have 2 personal planets in the same sign/house as my SN).

At the end of the day, I think I see both Nodes as comfort zones of differing sorts. They’re both lunar points after all! But western astrology just likes to make it sound like your South Node is your comfort zone that should be avoided if you want to grow, while your North Node is the opposite of a comfort zone, but omfg you need to go there!! 🙄😂

I’m not sure about how many others feel, but I know I feel like my South Node is somewhat of an unchosen comfort zone, while my North Node is chosen, and a comfort zone of sorts because it gives me hope.

I hate when I see myself slipping into South Node patterns that don’t work out for me, but it can be very hard to avoid, particularly if under a lot of stress.

My North Node is something I consciously choose because it feels refreshing and hopeful. That’s not to say that Western interpretations mean nothing for me when they say we will have to actually push ourselves to follow the North Node, because it’s true that some parts of the territory can feel intimidating to me. But it’s usually like a good kind of intimidating. It can actually be *comforting* dare I say, when I engage in things that make me feel hopeful for my future.

Also, it’s probably possible to go too far with either Node, which perhaps is why Vedic sees them both as malefics!

Case in point: Donald Trump. He has his North Node in ♊️ (communication of information) 10th house (his personal legacy) conjunct his ☀️(ego) and Uranus (revolution).