#astralideas

I read this book:

and at the time I was only vaguely aware of fatphobia in the world. I was mostly just blaming myself for things.

The essay on "Hogging" is what broke through to me.

An article on Hogging is here cw r slur, o word, sexual violence (?), fatphobia, misogyny, dehumanization, sex talk this isnt the one in the book but it breaks the act down using quotes from people that do the activity.

I remember thinking about how its such an evil thing. That my body existing and having low self esteem didn't mean I deserved this. That people would go out of their way, on purpose to target someone like me was a lot to take in. Like. You grow up thinking everything is in your head or people don't mean it or if I change It'll get better or or or- when sometimes its just evil. Its a type of prejudice that evil justifies and your humanity doesnt matter. You cant be "good enough" "nice enough" or whatever for these evil evil people. I dunno like it all seems obvious now, but realizing that I was a good person and even if I did loose weight I didn't deserve to be sexually exploited in the mean time was the thing that got me. (Ironic now that I know im apothisexual but that was back when I was figuring things out).

I was very blessed that my epiphany happened before I encountered active medical fatphobia or anything else dangerous like that. So I suppose if I were to really break it down: I had enough self esteem in that moment to go "wait a second I dont deserve that" which was rare for me.

Im posting this publicly so hopefully others will chime in?

The LOAFT gang grove?

Out of curiosity, feelings about trans hcs in general or like a Specific hc?

​in warrior cats, but otherwise in general.

my feelings are multifaceted, and i guess i just...don't agree with anything anyone is currently saying abt them?

example:

"people only hc X as trans so they can have kits!"

i mean. maybe. honestly idrc about this one. like. as a trans guy. it 0% makes me upset if someone decides redtail is trans purely so he and whitestorm or whoever can have bio-kits. i do think you're overlooking adoption. but. i really don't care. i kind of see it as "oh cool trans men having kids-by-birth is so normalized it's seen as a valid solution to the 'how do we get two men to have kids?' question."

like remember when mpreg was a thing.

but in the warriors fandom y'all are just like "no redtail's trans now. it doesn't change anything"---and why should it?---"but he carries their litter."

but my feelings on this go even deeper.

i hc redtail as trans. his mate is brindleface. i don't have a decided sire for sandstorm. but. that's my hc. that's how what i think of them. (sometimes i deviate, it's fixed. it's often not specified.)

and that's the other thing, when i have trans hcs they're usually really, really, subtle. the only way you'd know is IF the subject of kits comes up.

so i think "people only hc X as trans so they can have kits!" just...it feels bad to me. i don't want to have to repeatedly state i'm trans constantly to explain why the only time my hcs about redtail being trans come up is when i decide for him to carry kits in this universe. i don't owe anyone that.

and basically any opinion people have on trans hcs. i have thoughtsonthoughtsonthoughts.

some positive ones tho:

whitestorm as trans is one of my favourite trans hcs. i don't usually apply it but i like that it exists. i think it's funny when in canon he was having so many kittens apparently. it's a fun hc and i like it.

lionblaze as trans. i think @acaciapines is the first place i saw it but i think about it often.

i think the correct answer to rowanclaw is to write using no pronouns. (this is 50% a joke: i'm not sure how long it is, but i did write a decently long scene of rowan and tawny using no pronouns for rowan. it's really not terribly hard to not use pronouns for a character: i like doing it. see if you notice next time i introduce an oc. but this isn't a real suggestion because it can be hard to sustain forever.)

It is gorgeous, isn´t it? That´s a screenshot I took from the conceptual art showed at the end credits of What if...? episode 4. I just enhaced a bit the colors.

AAHH Thank you so much !!

an art trade for @astralideas

This is Coldore Stringent from a story they're writing. Go check them out!!

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND NEED TO SEE THE WEDDING SO BAD THEYRE SO CUTE