#askbutt

THATS A LOADED QUESTION BUD. 

Heres my top 10: i cheated a lil because they have sequels or dif. versions oops 

1. Bare: A Pop Opera // Bare: A Rock Musical (I saw that one first since it was available on youtube) 

2. Hamilton 

3. Dear Evan Hansen

4. A Very Potter Musical / AVPS / AVPSY

5. The Last Five Years 

6. Spring Awakening

7. In The Heights

8. Jesus Christ Superstar Live 

9. Heathers 

YA TRUUU

victor is an oblivious dork yeah but that doesn’t?? mean yuuri is completely free of guilt 24/7?? he was kind of a huge jerk in episode 12 like i get that most of it is misunderstandings an anxiety problems but it’s pretty selfish of him to just decide all the time what victor wants or likes or cares about like

damn yuuri that’s not your decision?? victor is a grown man who can choose what he wants for himself and his own career??

I LIVE!

real talk, i genuinely didn’t intend to hop off of tumblr for THIS LONG

i appreciate all of the sweet messages, thank you for those! but i started having SUCH a wide array of problems with the site such as:

constantly appealing for posts that were completely average but were taken down anyway

the site crashing my last computer, Old Faithful, almost as soon as it loaded

just refusing to upload. there were a couple instances these last few months where i went to hit “post” after doing a big write-up and nothing. nada. refused to let me post

twitter was starting to open up and offer more opportunities! ( @scoutstiel over there btw!)

THAT’S ANOTHER BIG GOAL!!

you have ANY IDEA how much i miss cons!? they were ALL of my interactions. i think since cons stopped, i’ve gotten enough hugs to count on one hand. because zerbe has asked me if she could

currently no plans to revive the etsy shop right now. which does suck. i haven’t had it open in....YEARS now, which sucks even more. but once i moved i lost access to a post office, which meant i lost access to the income used to keep the shop alive, etc.

i’m FINALLY getting to some asks, i apologize–this is like two months old, but it’s something i’m currently wrestling with.

my current hurdle in motivation is peer pressure. something i’ve noticed that kills all inspiration and motivation is when i stop being selfish with my art. when i stop making things for myself. there’s an incredible, horrible, crushing feeling after creating prolifically for several years to have to impress, no matter what

but my best advice is:

create for yourself.

you need to enjoy what you’re making. art shouldn’t be torture. if you hate putting 9 hours into a piece, don’t put 9 hours into a piece! draw something for 15 minutes, think about what you did and didn’t like about it, and then seek out ways to improve so you continue to enjoy the process.

writing is still one of my biggest hangups, because while i write all my own stuff (unless stated otherwise, such as being based on someone else’s post, i’ll always link!) i don’t consider myself a writer.

that’s another hurdle to jump. try to avoid saying “i write/draw, but i’m not a writer/artist. it’s just something i do” because you are giving the definition of an artist or writer. even if you’re a beginner, setting a momentum for yourself that that’s what you are and are striving to be, makes a difference. confidence is something you find in yourself.

SO