#ask light

"LEEBSTER LITTLE BITCH WHAT DID YOU DO"

"pilma calm down bicht-"

"leebster where tf are your claws"

"uh"

(( pilma- @cocosupremaci

Light- @l4nt3rn-f1sh

M.D- @jellyfishes0are0cool

If you dont remember;ı was the guy who called congratulated on making the "one of the lamest self inserts in SCP wiki." And then you blocked me. And then a fan art was made based on that comment of mine, which really flattered me. But know that ı still am very **fucking pissed** off over that. Like, dude, people probably called you something worse than that, but the thing that ticked you off was being called lame ? Grow a back bone, cause your ego might crush the lower part of your body.

I will block anyone for any reason (including being mildly annoying in my notes) and never apologize for anything.

But hey, listen, this happened months ago, and if you remembered and made this alt account to send this ask, I think you might actually be upset and not purely trolling. So let me try to respond from the heart and give you some advice:

I think you have a way of looking at social media that is going to cause harm to you over time. I'm a very small-scale internet celebrity, which is awesome, and it is objectively and genuinely cool that you have opinions about something I made! And it's cool that you got fanart! But I'm also just a person out here using the internet for fun. There might be more nuance here if we were friends or neighbors, or if I were in some kind of position of significant power over you, but in reality, as a person I once saw leave an annoying comment on my tumblr post, I don't know you and I have no responsibility to interact with you.

There are a lot of people on the internet who are beacons of hate. I spent a lot of time on 4chan as a teenager, I would know. And the internet of my teenage years was actually better equipped to deal with this - we had a word for that, "trolling", and we had a protocol in place: "don't feed the trolls."

And on one hand, this leads to value judgments - a lot of people who you might snap-judge as a troll aren't doing this just to get a rise out of you, they might actually be in a really bad place or have a legitimate complaint or have a different cultural background or communication style. Maybe you're one of these. But "don't feed the trolls" is still a good heuristic to follow:

A) a lot of trolls will also pretend to be legitimately suffering or just bad at communicating, and will use this to further exploit your goodwill

B) If everyone knows you don't feed people who look like they're trolling, everyone gets pushed towards being polite. It's obvious if you understand decision theory.

These days, it seems like people feel a lot less agency over the internet - and some of this is valid, social media is vastly more engaging in sort of a predatory way than the forums of my youth, algorithmic feeds are widespread, etc. But the truth is every time you log onto the internet, you have a choice about what to look at. You can quit using some app. You can close the tab. You can look at something else, or unfriend that person, or report that scam.

Blocking is, for me and many many others, a tool for that. I like some things about tumblr, but I take active steps to just see things I want to see, because it's my life and I use this website for fun. And that includes blocking trolls or people who are indistinguishable from trolls.

You might take this as permission to do the same - you don't have to talk to annoying strangers for fun!

Think about it this way: what do you want out of tumblr? If that includes being part of a community, then how do you make an internet community that's good, when different people want different things?

And it can feel bad to realize you've annoyed someone else or they don't want you in there space or they've blocked you - like, 100%, I feel a biting shame over stuff like that. But I don't endorse that shame. Other people are out there growing their own gardens and you gotta roll with it. Maybe you made a bad impression, or maybe they're odious and unpleasant and petty - or maybe some kind of relationship there was never going to work out and they just realized it first. Who knows. You each have to curate your garden in your own way or else you're going to drown in the weeds.

"Not again-!" Light groaned, trying to close his eyes as the red beam appeared, in a useless attempt to stop whatever the anon meant, but the damage was already done.

Instantaneously, any single thought that didn't contain L (there weren't many, to begin with) disappeared from Light's mind. Every memory with L went to the forefront of his mind, especially the few where there skin had brushed together, on purpose or not.

Immediately one thought consumed Light, he had to be next to L, he had to feel L against every small sample of skin he had, to dig into L's skin and live inside his carcass if that meant L wouldn't leave him.

Light opened the door to the hotel room L had been staying in, he'd been called over by L for a meeting with the rest of the team, but Light couldn't care less about the meeting. He strode in the room, not even caring to close the door behind him.

The sound of Soichiro, his father, concernedly questioning what he was doing didn't reach Light's ear, or more like he didn't care to understand what the older man had said, his eyes zeroed in on L's bedroom, where he had to be, since he wasn't in the living area yet.

Light opened the door without knocking, shutting it behind him since he faintly could remember how embarrassing it'd be to do this in front of his father, and the other agents.

He made a small huff as he noticed L was sitting down, reading some report on the laptop, or had been til Light rudely interrupted. Light didn't care, just caring that L's attention wasn't on him. L should care about him, him, him! He was Kira, L should be throwing himself at him!

Light crawled onto the bed, before draping himself across L's lap, completely uncaring as the computer keys clicked and spammed letters into the search bar under him, only letting out a small sigh of relaxation as he finally could feel L's body against his own slightly.

But Light wanted, no, needed more. But for now, this was okay, he supposed... for now.

"Misa's been bugging me to get online and get on this website, so I decided why not? It can't be that bad."

-@ask-kiras-little-sister

Diemen Xicali: What’s your favorite food?Never been able to decide

Charun Krojib: Do you do art? What is the best piece you’ve created?Yee, I do. I don’t know my best piece if i’m honest. They’re all just moderately alright