#asexual self insert

L:"We are heading straight to my room."

Whoop, there it is.

L:"You are going to spend your last night in the Devildom there,

together with me, all night long until the break of dawn."

He's only succeeding in sparking some annoyance within you.

You hate how it always comes to this. Apparently not only with people, but demons as well.

This is the last drop for you today.

You've always hated others assuming things about you.

And you've been dragged around long enough in this realm to the whim of these demons.

Your own patience has run too thin, you are done.

L:"I'm not letting anyone else have you now. You are mine"

That's cute. Too bad you've made up your mind already.

He'll have something of yours tonight, allright.

A piece of your mind.

He notices you are no longer smiling. And how you stare at him, unimpressed.

But you don't move away from him.

And out comes your answer, sounding confused, and slightly disappointed.

MC:"Why?"

He's caught off guard.

MC:"Why do we have to go there now? What is it that you want to do there with me?"

He blushes faintly, but his composure remains almost intact. It's like playing jenga with this man's ego.

He clears his throat. And let's go of your arms, separating his face some more from yours, taking a step back.

L:"I misinterpreted... forget this happened. Why don't you go back to the party?"

You sigh, there really is no escaping it, you feel broken. But whether you are or not, he should hear why you answered that way.

Even if you know you are on thin ice now. Hopefully he will listen to you.

MC:"Lucifer, can I talk to you first? About something personal."

He doesn't look too enthusiastic to hear you out, obviously he'd rather you disappear right now. But he obligues reluctantly.

MC:"I'm sorry, okay? You are so important to me, my heart is aching at the thought of you. I know you can hear it pounding."

He can, which confuses him more, but he hopes what you will say will bring some clarity.

MC:"That's why even though I know you want me to leave you alone right now,

I need you to listen to me. Before I leave for good.

So even if what I say doesn't make sense to you, I'll be out of your life by tomorrow, so you don't even have to worry about it. Ok?"

His only reply is waiting for you to finally elaborate.

You sigh and take a deep breath.

You feel your heartbeat booming in your head and chest since this conversation started. You make a concious effort to look at his face as you speak.

Even if he won't look at yours for a moment or two.

MC:"I love you. And it's not that I'm not interested in sex with you."

Internally, he is thanking the deities.

You actually are about to give him an explanation, this is simply something he would never ask for.

MC:"I'm just not interested in sex at all. I can't do it. With anyone."

He looks thoughtful and brings a hand to his chin.

What? It must've been centuries since the last time he heard about a person like this. First time he's actually personally engaging with one himself.

L:"Is that all?"

He asks. But now it's you who can't bear to look at him.

You hate having this conversation usually. It takes it's toll on you. It starts so much inner turmoil.

So even though your mind is racing, you feel gratefull he didn't bombard you with questions.

With your chest caving in at having to refuse him so bluntly, his response sounds like, yeah... he's about done with you.

You stutter, godamn you hate it when it happens.

MC:"Y-Yes, I'm done bothering you now."  

You turn to leave but he calls before your 2nd step.

L:"But kissing is fine with you, correct?"

You stop but don't face him.

MC:"Yeah, just with you though."

You hear him aproach from behind, before you turn your head he is hugging your shoulders. And plants a kiss on your head. (He also notices he likes your shampoo.)

You can feel your face heat up again. But not with anxiety now.

L:"Then I will rephrase: You are going to spend your last night on the Devildom with me in my room. And you will tell me all the ways you DO want to be touched. Understood?"

You smile weary, you are happy but the conversation has left you shaken. It is safe to assume he is okay with your terms.