Sheās the reason
You are happy
And you are
The reason
Iām happy,
I hate her
But I donāt.
Oh but she only
Seems to be the reasonĀ
Iām happy,
When Iāve never really
Found happiness,
In anyone other thanĀ
You.
You found happiness
In me by keeping me
At an arms-length.
Keeping you
At an armās length
Was for your good,
Any closerĀ
And I may have
Burned you.
Keeping me at
An armās length,
But never
Letting me go.Ā
How was
Trapping me
In the open
Ever be good
For me.
Would let it goĀ
The string I was
Holding on to,
Go if you mustĀ
No longer trapped,
But know this
You take my happinessĀ
With you.
I want to go but
I cannot leave,
Not when you
Call me happiness,Ā
Yet chose her
To make you happy.
You say you care
Yet go on
And hurt me.
If you do love me
Let me know
And let me go,
Donāt ask me to leave
Because a body
Without a heart
Is just a
Dead person walking.
You can leave
And take my happiness,
If you lost yoursĀ
It can come in handy.
I was hurting and she came,
Sheās greatĀ
Though I didnāt find happiness
It was lost with you.Ā
She knows it
Says Iām hollow
Tells me Iām heartless
And itās a total mess.
You donāt have to be
Without a heart,
Take mine by all means
If you must,
Iāll exist without it,
If that is indeed what I must.
I could have been
Your happy and
Your happiness,
But you
Never wanted me
Even though
You needed me
The most.
You do not
Get to decide
Whether I should be
With you or not.
You say youāll burn meĀ
If you hold me any closer,
But look at me darling
I am just ashes,
Left of the passion
You showed me for her.
How could I never want you,
When in every crowd
I pass through
I search for you.
Dark and grey has taken over
Since you left,
No colors exist anymore.
I have no say I know
For youāre hurt too.
You may be ashes,
But oh my dear
Youāre ashes of the phoenix
Which will rise again.
The passion you talk about,
The feelings, the emotions,
They donāt exist anymore,
She has deemed me heartless.
Wanting someone
And having someone,
Are two different things
And even though you say
You wanted me,Ā
You kept me away,
Thinking you were
Keeping me safe
While all you did
Was hurt me.
I hurt you
When all I wanted was,
To keep you safe.
You see,
I donāt trust myself,
I want you,
But I donāt thinkĀ
I deserve you.
What if you comeĀ
And my demonsĀ
Make your life miserable,
Rather than better.
Nothing can make me
More miserable than
Not being with you.
Iād rather be sad with you
Than be happy anywhere else.
I canāt let you be sad,
Iāll do whatever I can,
To make you smile,
To make you happy,
For you deserve nothing less.
Will you be by my side
When the tides get high.
If you want me
To be happy then
Take me in your arms,
Let me be there
For as long as
You can hold me.
I need nothing more
Than you to
Keep me alive.
Let the tides get high,
We will be higher
By being at
Each others sides.
Let us shine bright
Like a beautiful sunrise.
Come then,
My arms are wide open,
Let me hold you.
Iām clumsy
But I wonāt let you fall.
Youāre too precious.
With you by my sideĀ
Weāll fight and defend,
Whatever comes our way.
We will glow,
Shed our tears,
Immerse ourselves,
In each other,
A beautiful sunrise, indeed.
a collaboration between @fragments-of-my-mind and @justscribbledwords