Worst part of being a sex favorable aroace (emphasis on the aro part) to me isn't the fact that I might actually want a typical relationship, which I don't. It's more about if I'm ever going to find an unconventional one, because who would want to explore their sexuality with someone who isn't attracted to them neither sexually or romantically? It happened only once and basically on accident and started from a joke.
I don't want my sexual experiences to be a joke.
I wish I could just explore it like other young people do, but they have a frame in which they can operate (relationships, finding someone attractive and having a one night stand) and I don't. And the more I grow up the more it feels inaccessible because people are out there learning about themselves and other people's bodies and I'm here like what am I supposed to do? It feels like looking at everything through a window or something
If someone has a similar experience or would like to express their opinion on this, go ahead. I'm seeking dialogue on this one.