#arlechinno

Trey is the most perceptive towards other people than the others, while everyone naturally fears her–he could see the "blood" on her hands and that's what makes him tense. He would often try to advise ace and deuce to stand clear in arlechinno!yuu way as well as often obeying her words, imagine during late at night–while he's cleaning up the kitchen the door slam shut as if somebody opening the door, when he look back he saw nobody but on the other side of the corner theres arlechinno!yuu standing–he immediately went towards his magic wand. Arlechinno!yuu holds no intention, in hurting ace and deuce in fact she just wants to talk with him towards leader to leader–when he asks why wouldn't she talk with riddle cause his the dorm leader, arlechinno!yuu make a comment that riddle is not perfect to be a leader... Yet, until he finishes the business of what's going on inside his heart and so he prepared a cup of tea and they talk.

Riddle would see arlechinno!yuu as a rival, he would pride himself on being a strict leader who would teach his dorm mates with strict rules and discipline–a person like arlechinno!yuu whose mere presence puts everyone on their best behavior and enforces discipline more effectively than him would cause a little jealousy in his position. Arlechinno!yuu originally didn't like riddle because of his ways, seeing it as tyranny instead. Yet she could immediately read why riddle acted the way he is, she would be strict with him as well yet patient with him. Riddle sees arlechinno!yuu as a rival and a challenge towards his authority, yet is also intimidated by her presence.

Savanaclaw

Arlechinno!yuu have grown a reputation of respect and fear, even most of the beastmen in the Savanaclaw form wouldn't even dare to challenge her and always stepping out of her way. Despite her code of always staying out of people's business, her presence or gaze would be enough to shut off any attempts of chaos from the students–honestly the school has never been so disciplined.

Despite Jack's respect towards arlechinno!yuu, he would be the most outwardly vocal towards her methods and often try to point out how "cruel" her tactics of arlechinno!yuu. However her unwavering composure and sharp logic and her tendency of being "right" he would often question himself whenever he was in the wrong or not, leaving him frustrated. He would respect her yet disagree with her methods.

Ruggie is a realist, he knows exactly which one holds real power–previously he might believe it was leona because he carries ambition and strength but arlechinno!yuu has taken that spot quickly. He saw how the fear of her presence brought and how people immediately tense up, he would take one look and immediately understand that she's one that he should never cross her. He would avoid interacting with her, yet he would be surprised that someone like arlechinno!yuu would often take in orphans and care for them–protecting them yet making sure they are prepared to face the world. He started to understand why she is so strict and respects her, he doesn't fear her in a way of a prey that manages to get in a line of sight of a predator but he fears her as a father that would willingly do anything as long as their cub is safe. Seeing her as a father figure that is strong yet mysterious, but he knows that she will be there to protect him.

Leona would immediately sense the immediate power gap between him and her, he wouldn't be "terrified" of arlechinno!yuu but he would often be on guard around her–towards him she's like a wolf in sheep's clothing. He holds no intention in seeing that side because he knows that if he did, he would go poof like others before him that were to curious about her. He would often stick to his territory and would order the entire Savanaclaw to stand clear out of arlechinno!yuu and her "house of the hearth" dorm. He would often wonder what caused Crowley to invite someone like arlechinno!yuu to the school ( technically, it was not by choice ).

Octavinelle

The most academic discipline in the school, teachers like professor mozus would boldly claim that out of all of the students he taught in his years–he never once encountered someone like arlechinno!yuu discipline and efficiency. Getting top scores and dominated the schools physically and academically, arlechinno!yuu treat each class as a source of information gathering–despite her attention often focus what's on the front, she's always observing her classmates and making mental notes about their weakness and assets.

Azul would try to get arlechinno!yuu under his Contract but it was proven as impossible, arlechinno!yuu is a person who is not easily fooled by the idea of debt and contract– his greedy personality is a reflection of a certain shady business man who says he's in the pursuit of mora and surrounded by grandiose plans but his ambition is filled with the unfairness of the divine lock behind his heart. She sees a reflection of pantalone in Azul because of his obsession with contracts, regardless of him making an enemy of her–he was already guaranteed to lose. Imagine Azul's reaction towards seeing the vault of his precious contract has already been broken into by her in a single night without struggle. He would be obsessed with outmaneuvering her, but it was proven how limited he truly is compared to her.

Jade would find excitement at observing towards rare species of plants and animals, and he would treat arlechinno!yuu with the same reverence towards a rare Apex predator. He personally would never challenge her because he already knows it's pointless going against her, but seeing Azul stressing so much about her makes him chuckle. He would never get in her way only observe her moments and make mental notes about her methods, so that he can adapt it to his own ways. He would offer her information about other students in hopes to get front row seats in her circle, arlechinno!yuu immediately able to read his intentions although he doesn't seem to hold no I'll intentions towards her–she would stand warry of the information she gave to him because shes wary what would happen if he manages to find a successful information about her.

Floyd would often try to get a reaction from other people but for arlechinno!yuu it was absolutely difficult, she doesn't show much emotions only composure. Despite that, her eyes are often fully aware of her surroundings so when or if Floyd plans a surprise attack–arlechinno!yuu has already foreseen it and move to the side. Heck at days when she's bored or amused by his attempts, she might give him advice on what he could do to make his surprises less predictable.

Scarabia

Studying and being a modal student isn't the only thing arlechinno!yuu been doing, she's been establishing a web of information and dedicated followers in the school no matter if they are a student or ghost. So when new information comes out, she would already be prepared and is casually drinking tea while the world is adapting towards a piece of news she heard a few days ago. Many students have already fled to her for orders, mostly because of people from broken homes or simply be seen as outcasted–with arlechinno!yuu there, they are given a sense of purpose.

One of the few students who doesn't fear arlechinno!yuu is kalim because he manages to sense that her protective and strict nature comes from a nurturing love towards her children, despite her outwardly coldness–she truly does care about her children and often is sad when she thought that one day her children wouldnt need her flame anymore. Towards him, she's still a better parent in comparison towards parents who would lie about their love. Arlechinno!yuu would be confused towards kalim lack of malice, and Despite the things he went through he still pushed forward which is a trait she admired. He could walk in her inner circle, and he would be expected to be protected by her and the house of the hearth because he is seen as family by them.

When Jamil tries to hypnotize arlechinno!yuu it is seen as fatal because he immediately launches himself back seeing the crimson moon, and arlechinno!yuu standing immaculately warns him "staring into my eyes is Ill advise, I suggest you wouldn't like what you see" he would constantly have this dreaded feeling of being outed by her and he would often be paralyzed by the feeling of wanting to hide from being audited by her. It feels like, his dancing on a thin wire–or is trapped in a spider web which he's unable to escape from.

Pomefiore

Arlechinno!yuu would often awake before dawn and get ready, arriving on time and absolutely looking in her best. Imagine ace and deuce looking like a mess while arlechinno!yuu is beside them with a crisp uniform and every hair is cone to perfection, grim is also not spared because Arlechinno!yuu makes some household rules for him to follow strictly or else no fancy tuna. She often would go to shows, where her children are performing and watch from the sidelines.

Vil would see her as a rival in aesthetic and beauty, seeing those heels and how she carries herself easily would even cause him to feel threatened by her posture. Despite the difference in beauty standards, he wouldn't deny that her aesthetic carries a sharp and practical presence for her. Seeing her fighting in those needles heels would be amazed at him especially how she's able to balance herself and fight casually without missing a target–a skill that is refined through harsh training and discipline which is something he admired. He often why wouldn't she pursue a career of beauty despite having what it takes to master it, her walk and posture would make the most top models shrink. Well he guesses, that it's good because she's not a model because the media would immediately suffer an intense shift.

Rook would be the most annoying person towards arlechinno!yuu and the most dangerous. Due to his fixation on understanding the beauty of the unknown, he would constantly observe her habits and "nature". He would often be curious whether or not shes human or something that is half–human due to her capabilities and abilities towards wielding the crimson flame. He would often admire her hands and often sing praises on how beautiful it is, and when arlechinno!yuu threaten him to stop but Rook says otherwise and is actually excited to see. He would be silently waiting, anticipating to see the other side of her.

Epel would be absolutely inspired to be like arlechinno!yuu, not in demeanor but in strength–seeing her as the ultimate model of it. Seeing how the toughest beast-man, monster and even Mr vagras would often stir clear from arlechinno!yuu. Seeing her wielding her scythe with such efficiency and power would light up sparks on him–changing in the definition of strength. He would often try to sneak away from pomifiore to ask for training by her, hes want her to be tough on him because he believe its the only way for him to be the "rugged" image he wants–he would be caught off guard when she ask what is he fighting for and unable to answer, one of the lesson she taught him was strength is absolutely worthless without purpose–she became strong so she can protect people.

Ignihyde

Arlechinno!yuu name carries more weight of respect and fear more than ; Crowley's own name is said or mentioned and the entire room immediately groans in despair. The students feared and respected her more than crowley, when they got caught causing trouble their initial worries wouldn't be Crowley but her and what type of discipline that would follow. You may ask, why do some students follow her but for them–at least arlechinno!yuu is honest and not wrapped up in lies. she cares and values discipline and growth even when it's harsh "the hand that cradles you is soaked in blood, but at least it cradles you".

Idia would see arlechinno as some sort of black box, he would be afraid of her monitoring him especially after one day he caught her glitching and looked straight towards the camera and made a shush hand signal for him as a warning as well as showcasing how she was aware of him staring at her. He would avoid any path that has her on it, idia already plans every escape path for him to avoid her because he hopes it would get him off her radar. Towards him, she's like a final boss that manages to grow self awareness and now is roaming on their own.

Ortho would be curious, and asked "inappropriate" questions about what she is and her purpose–those type of personal questions. She knows that he didn't mean to be rude because she knows that his program to look for data, many of the ignihyde students are mostly outcast so they would often feel at home with arlechinno!yuu and some even move towards the house of hearth because her dorm gives out a sense of purpose.

Disamonia

A master combatant, and assassin. Arlechinno!yuu would often stay out of the stage but once things get too dangerous and if her children are put into danger, she would step in and stop the fight. Nobody knows why arlechinno!yuu choose to be on the sidelines, and she doesn't need to explain it. She has extensive knowledge of magic due to her time at spending in the library studying, despite her unable to wield magic like normal mages–her flames and combat abilities are considered to be top tier that cause her to raise amongst the ranks.

The only dorm that arlechinno!yuu able to hold a decent conversation with. Malleus is able to see the burden that she carries, and how much responsibility she carries as the head of the house of the hearth–preparing those children to face the world while also having no control over their situation is a responsibility he found Lilia carry all the time. He would regularly invite arlechinno!yuu to have tea with him and enjoying the atmosphere, malleus can be quiet curious because he is wondering whenever or not that arlechinno is something that is half human but all her answers are vague. He is relief that she's the first person to treat him like a peer instead of a prince or a fae.

The only student that would shout at her, even arlechinno!yuu is taken aback by it and admired how straightforward he is even when he's shaking. Points for that low-key, he would be furious that someone like her would approach his young master with such a casual demeanor. Yet everytime he tries to correct her, the joke is often on him because Arlechinno!yuu usually just neutralize him with just a look or a comment towards his lack of posture that sure would put to shame towards his young master reputation. He wants to hate her, but it's hard to hate on somebody who's right and he has to admit, she carries herself with the level of regal and discipline that suppress his.

Silver would be on edge with arlechinno!yuu, he would sense a lethal aura around her despite not physically doing anything and even when she's relaxing. Silver would often be ready for an attack from her towards malleus, he would watch her like a hawk and afraid that if he looked around for a second she might strike. He would be the most suspicious and vocal towards malleus that his new friend might be a danger towards his safety, and is waiting when she's ready to drop the mask.

Unlike the other students, they do not waste time with games, social posturing, or vanity. Their focus is efficiency, control, and ensuring survival. Many find them terrifying, but no one can deny their competence and leadership.

Arlechinno!yuu is reserved, speaks with precision, and rarely wastes words. They don’t sugarcoat anything and expect others to handle criticism like adults. And if they cant handle the truth then they are immature

Whether it’s strategy, combat, or negotiation, Arlechinno Yuu is always ten steps ahead. Azul tries to outwit them? He fails. Leona challenges them? He has to actually put in effort.

Despite their strictness, they look out for those they deem worthy. They’d never say it outright, but Grim, Ace, Deuce, and others are under their watch.

Food, money, magic, effort—everything has value. NRC’s extravagant spending annoys them. They personally cook their own meals when they think the cafeteria food is too indulgent.

Will personally teach the first year's combat, to make sure they are able to protect themselves. Their training actually boosts the strength of them.

Many students would say to avoid staring straight into their eyes because you are gonna regret what your gonna see as if your staring back towards the abyss themselves.

Despite being cold and seemingly heartless, arlechinno!yuu cares and deeply hold closely towards who they see as family like grim.

Vil admirers arlechinno!yuu as well have you seen those shoes, vil sees him as an equal as them due to how both of them carry themselves but for arlechinno!yuu they don't look down at him but seeing his ambition towards beauty is simply wasteful why focus on looks when you could focus on efficiency.

Vil once tried to recruit arlechinno!yuu towards modeling but was rejected they said they hold no interest on being on stage they prefer being in the audience watching from afar.

Sees Riddle as too rigid and blindly obedient. Would have respected his intelligence if he weren’t so trapped by his own upbringing.

They detest liars and cowards like Crowley, who put themselves in a big position but in truth they are cowards always putting work on someone else rather than owning up towards his responsibilities.

During the opening ceremony they nearly killed Crowley, they woke up a burst out of the coffin with scythe in hand ready to decapitate him, and when riddle was interrupting them explaining how they disrupted the ceremony, arlechinno!yuu immediately look at him. The eye and he immediately shut up due to his guise having some similarities towards his mother.

During an over blot immediately cut down the monster in a single slash with ease as if it was nothing compared towards them.

Many students are curious about black markings on their arms but they usually told them it's better for them to not know how and where they got these markings.

They won't coddle grim or the first year but whoever tried to lay a hand on them would immediately regret their decision for laying hands on their family. Have a soft spot for ortho wondering why there's a child in nrc even tho it's for young adults.

Not to mention them being top students toppling over Azul and riddle in grades no matter how much they get arlechinno!yuu will always be ahead against them. Many faculty respect them as in professor trein who has been a long time meeting a student as strict as arlechinno!yuu.

The day had been weird from the moment you woke up.

The Sun was blinding you awake and you shut the curtains with an annoyed groan, though you usually loved to be woken up by it, stretching under it, sucking it into your sleep riddled body.

But today, as stated before, was weird. Different even.

It took you half a mind to get out of bed, later than usual, your bones and Muscles weary from sleep, your heart beating so slow and loud inside your chest that it echoed inside your ears.

You leaned on the chair of your vanity as black dots crossed all over your eyes and you felt faint, it always took a little until everything went back to normal, few seconds, few minutes. At last, you were able to push into the bathroom, refusing to properly look at your reflection and to simply just clean your teeth and face without turning the lights on. You also bumped into something several times, leaving you cursing, but you would rather do that than be covered in that slimy cold light on an early weird morning. Nu-uh.

Arlecchino however always loved to turn it on, you had heard it earlier this morning, that click and then you went right back into sleep, well, until she gave you a good morning kiss and a "See you at breakfast." but you were, by now, pretty unsure if she would, because first of all ; you weren`t hungry. An second of all : you just… did not want to go down. You drew the curtains on both sides and fell back into bed.

Missing it one time, not helping out one time… it`d be forgiven.

Not by your Husband though.

After the staff had snitched that you weren`t there to help like usual, and after ten minutes of waiting along with the children, she just told them to begin while she was looking for you.

Luckily, you weren`t hard to find.

"What are you doing here?" she asked, leaning against the door frame.

"Sleeping." you answered as you pulled the blanket over your head.

The carpet damped the sound of her heels. "It is eight thirty, breakfast time my love."

"I am not hungry."

She lifted the blanket, peeking her head in. "I doubt that."

You giggled at her eyes, glowing in the darkness. You cradled her face, thankful that she wasn´t able to see your red puffy eyes and tear-streaks. You let her wipe them still however.

"You didn`t have breakfast the last few days either. Is everything alright?"

You nodded.

"Words."

You blinked at her in the darkness and she sighed, you felt it cross your cheek, that disappointment.

"I am sorry."

"Never lie to me." she wagged her finger in front of your face and you giggled again.

"This is not a laughing matter my love, this is about your health!"

You put your hand over your mouth, just giggling under it while she was shaking her head.

"Wait here, I will be back in a bit."

She pecked the hand over your lips, before leaving you to the solitude of your, dark, shared bedroom.

As if you`d be moving from your spot.

Well, you would eventually, but not for at least another hour when you´d have to take care of the plants and staff while the children were being tutored in the basics, to then go train with their ´Father´.

You curled further up under your blanket. Sometimes you grew bored of it all, the routine, the children coming back… or not.

It was then that Arlecchino must have come back, when you went so far in your musings that tears were threatening to be spilled. "I am back." she announced, setting the tray down on your nightstand, you tried to retrieve more into the Blanket, become the blanket.

But your Husband would not have that, she cruelly ripped it off of you, revealing you to the cold harsh world. "It´s your favorite." she gestured towards the tray as she sat down, helped you get up.

"Arle-"

"If you won´t eat on your own, then I´ll just watch you eating."

She sat it down on your lap while taking a few papers and her pen. "You need it, you´ve been losing weight again."

"And how do you know that?"

She clicked her Pen, showing the sharp pin. "Because I know you and your body." she flipped through a few of the documents. "Your clothes have been rather loose, your energy has been low, you missed your period twice oh and- I feel it when you cling onto me at night."

You huffed. "I´m not… clinging, we are cuddling."

"I barely get out of bed in the morning."

You shrugged, drinking a few sips of your beverage. "Maybe that´s because you don´t WANT to get away from me." you leaned against her shoulder. "Ever thought about that?"

She chuckled. "I´d never want to get away my wife." Then she kissed your head as she continuously scribbled on the documents, adjustments, her signature sometimes she´d have to correct numbers, you watched it all with a great curiosity. "Try to not spill anything?"" she asked as she removed a few crumbs from her paper.

"Sorry." you mumbled. "I know you don´t like getting crumbs or anything in the sheets."

She did not even let you wear socks to bed.

"They´ll change them today anyways." she leaned further back into the headboard. "Now stop concentrating on me and eat a little more, you´ll soon be finished anyways."

You rolled your eyes but did as told, a little later you were sitting at her side, filled with food and satisfied.

Your husband, too, seemed rather happy. "There, now you can get up and I will see you in my office n a few minutes, ok?"

"Ok." you hummed as she got up, only to quickly grab her arm.

"And Arle?"

She looked down, slightly confused.

"Thank you, for taking care of me."

She gently shock her head, before leaning down to kiss you.

“Arlecchino?” You gently encourage another answer, reciprocating the compassion she seldom held for anyone but you in your tone and your expression.

“Peruere,” she enunciated with an unseen faltering, and you suppressed the urge to question it. She elaborated no more. 

You repeated the sound. “Peruere.” It was foreign to you, a word you've yet heard of before, yet it stirred some sort of ease inside of you–it felt right on your tongue for some inexplicable reason. 

Her lips parted, but nothing but an exhale escaped from them. Her eyes widened to a barely noticeable degree, but it certainly didn't mean there was no effect on her. She pursed her lips tightly after, her stare on you never leaving, but you had the sense that there was something else she saw in that moment. The glow of her eyes weren't as bright.  

“What is it?”

“My name. My name before her Majesty bestowed the name Arlecchino on me.”

‘Pereure,’ you repeated throughout your thoughts. Arlecchino shared little of herself, even with the growing proximity between the two of you. While your lover knew every intricate detail about you, there was hardly much you could say about her: her preferences, her upbringing, the source of her nightmares, and the reason for her frequent, blank, longing stares at you. You knew that there was no need to pry into her being, to pick out and uproot every bit of her that she meticulously hides away, just so that you could console yourself that you loved her just as she loved you. 

But it gnawed at you, the knowledge that you could be knowing nothing of the person you loved. How could you call yourself her lover, when she couldn't confide parts of herself in you, when you couldn't even know her favorite flowers, when you couldn't comfort her after a nightmare, when you couldn't support her as much as you could? Insecurity had crept up your spine over the years, clawing at your insides as you tried to assure yourself you were enough for her, but how could you be?

But when she whispered her name, like an intimate secret concealed away from the world, just between you and her, it sparked a hope in you, and there appeared an irrefutable fondness in your eyes that made the Fourth Harbinger nearly stumble over. 

“It's beautiful, Peruere,” you said to her, your eyes awfully warm for someone so cold, and the tenderness in your voice was enough to melt a bit of the ice encasing her heart. More than anything did it make her bleed out, the thumping organ in her chest cut open as she suddenly became sixteen again, her red-crossed pupils beholding a familiar carmine-haired girl for a moment that seems to extend farther than time. She blinked, and then you reappeared.  

Arlecchino stated nothing. Instead, she leaned forward, placing a chaste kiss on your forehead.

For the Director of the House of the Hearth, nightmares used to be commonplace. That is not to say that they no longer haunt her, only that they appear in the still moments, flickering alongside shadows and phantom whispers that echo in empty rooms. Brief remnants from a past still claw at her at the back of her mind, anticipating vulnerable, opportune times to lash at her and rise to the surface. The mocking leering from a cruel Mother ghosts one ear, and the innocent, childish laughter of a girl that never grew up lingerie on the other ear. Peruere–because it is not the feared, reliable Knave that stands in the place of her–experiences a multitude of these dreams, some that tangle and warp her present and childhood altogether, and others that are more singular, more insistent on leaving her with a reminder. 

It is this nightmare, the only one which she remembers so vividly, that haunts Peruere past beyond slumber.

A blanket of white expands past what she can see on a flat, barren plain. The ground gives under her boots with a soft crunch and her fur coat shuffles as the wind moans. All that illuminates her path is moonlight, luminous and full, and the dancing lights in the sky overhead. She tilts her head up, observing as the viridian rushes forth and across, flowing freely like a fickle stream. Viridian, that of a similar hue to… 

“Beautiful, isn't it, Perrie?”

Her attention is drawn away from the aurora, and when she turns to the side she is met with gleaming, emerald eyes. Clervie peers up, in a red stained white dress, an innocuous smile paired with starkly dead eyes. The lack of visible breath from her tells Peruere that Clervie is undoubtedly dead. 

“Don't you want to see this with me?” She presses. Even with her sweet words, Peruere knows something sinister lies beneath them. Peruere must not falter. 

At the lack of answer from the cursed being, Clervie continues. “You can see this with me everyday. You can be with me. I miss you, Perrie. Don't you miss me?”

She does. Everyday she does.

Peruere remains steadfast, stubborn and resilient as Clervie had always known her for. Even when her words are alluring, drawing something deep within Peruere that she was not even aware was alive, Peruere wills her mouth shut, in fear of what she might say, in fear of what she will not be able to take back. 

The apparition changes her tactic. 

“Aren't you tired?”

Peruere is. 

It is this damning question that haunts her, latching onto her like a parasite in everything she does. Waking, breathing, moving, thinking, somehow they all carry an inescapable exhausation to them. Even when she tries to, the truth is forced out of her, a simple, raw, “I am” tumbles off of Peruere's lips.

“Does it hurt everyday?”

How can it not? Not when she carries the sin of killing her former lover, and her siblings. How often does she have to bury one of her children in her heart? Even for her own children, she cannot eliminate their suffering, less of all, hers. Her cursed blood surges through her body, aches and pangs that nearly consume her everyday. 

Clervie offers a hand, kind and warm and everything that Peruere wants to surrender herself to. “You can come with me. I promise it won't hurt anymore. You can give up, Peruere. You outlived Mother. You don't have to live alone anymore.”

Peruere stares at the hand, small, pale, and most of all, unstained with blood–welcoming, even. She refuses to take it, even when her fingers itch to.  

Then Clervie asks the most damning question of all: “Why won't you give up?”

There's no answer from Peruere. She cannot find the answer, even when it lies on the tip of her tongue. When she parts her lips, nothing comes out, and she wonders if she ever could answer. 

There are a few things that you noticed when you first worked for her. All the miniscule details that you stored away mentally, for any future use that may allow you in her good graces. You weren’t aware of it then, but those details were what led to your relationship development–from boss to girlfriend. Arlecchino said early on in the relationship that one of your most alluring qualities was your attention to detail, always so keen on observing every bit of her until you knew all but everything of her. 

In the first month after your transfer to her, you’ve narrowed down her favorite teas and which one to give her in accordance to her outward mood. Liyuen Black tea in the morning for energizing, Inazuman Green tea during midday for a more soothing feel, and Lavender Melon tea for the evening to unwind. In the third month of working under her, you’d leave a tray with a teapot and cup for her on the desk that she'd inevitably return to when the moon reaches its peak. She bathes in the moonlight, sipping Chamomile tea, even with the knowledge the blood flames that course through her veins will never allow her to rest.

She tells you only in your eighth month that the tea is a futile but appreciated gesture to cure her sleepless bouts. It does not deter you; instead, you often pair the tea with a small side of honey beside it. There is no harm in sweetened things, after all, when sugar cuts back the bitterness of reality. 

There are other things that you notice about her. 

Arlecchino claims herself as a strict and unfeeling Father. At first, you had believed it well into the second week. Piercing stares into her children, as if she were gauging them, inside and out for every imperfection and fault she could pry out. Words harsh like the creaking of a door that echoes through the house with sparing touches, as cold as the Snezhnayan snow. Her interactions with the younglings beyond Fatui-related matters are few and far in between. 

Then there are the times when she observes. Unmoving, just like her expression, but her gaze never ending, always lingering. The observed never notice, but you do. It matters not what the children are doing, whether reading quietly among themselves, chatting boisterously, or even eating pastries, she watches. Sometimes you think her lips twitch a miniscule amount, but it is gone as soon as it appears, like a wispy ghost. It frustrates you, like deciphering a brick wall, evident of nothing but its unyieldingness. Like grasping embers that fade out of existence before your fingertips. 

You wonder why she watches, wonder what thoughts her mind conjures. Perhaps there is an underlying warmth to her actions, to the calculated callousness of her methods, or maybe that is just wishful thinking on your part. 

It only takes half a year for her to stare at you like that too–somehow all of your mundane routines have captured her attention, whether it was interacting with the children or fixing something in the kitchen. You’re aware of her, painfully so, by the way her crossed pupils dig so deep into your skin that you still feel the imprint of her intent gaze when even after she looks away. Her behold searing as if she were burning you with her crimson flames. 

(Every budding affection charred until ashes, pruned before it could blossom, and with that any thorn that may appear.)

What does she see when her eyes falter on your form? You suppose that you'd never know. 

A year into your relationship, Arlecchino asks you to retrieve some files in her bedroom's closet. For as long as you've started sleeping with her in the same bed (give or take half a year), you've never explored the rest of the room–you felt that it wasn't right to. You find the wardrobe she detailed, and try to recall what drawer it was she wanted you to find. Was it the last one or the second to last one? Curse your poor memory. 

You open the last drawer, expecting a file folder. Instead, you find two plush dolls, resembling bunnies, laying side by side one another innocently. On the left, a rose pink rabbit, with floppy ears, beady jade eyes, adorning a floppy bow tie and snow white headband. The tuft of what you assumed was hair stuck out from the head, and the tips of the ears were white, as well as the lower half of its face.

Adorable. 

The bunny (or rather, hare, you realize) to the right is white and black in color. Bangs cover up the left eye, and even with the bow tie and cutesy appearance, it's easy to tell who this toy is supposed to represent.

You suck in a harsh breath, curiosities swirling in your head. 

Quickly, you slide away the drawer and open the second one, finding the file folder you were sent here for and grabbing it. You shut the closet door resolutely, the image of the plushies never escaping your mind. 

You can ask her at a later point. 

Death comes for all, in the enemies she has slaughtered or in the lives of her children that slip past her. Even for Archons, death comes to, and Arlecchino knows that herself is no exception. Fate will come to her too, either in the agonizing, cruel way that catches the Knave off guard, or it will be in the way like her curse–slow and inevitable, a dull pain that swallows her surely. The curse will continue to rise past her forearms, and head towards her heart in a decade or two, she suspects. In any case, she believes that her death will come shortly, and there are many things that she cannot dawdle on because of that inevitability. 

Before her demise, there must be one of two conditions to be met. A self-imposed goal. One, she finds a way for the House of the Hearth to be permanently freed from the Fatui, which in her remaining lifetime is unlikely. The second is that the House of the Hearth has a suitable successor to take her place, ensuring that the children will live safely and contently beyond her.

Lyney is already shaping to become an exemplary successor. There are some more lessons for him to learn, but it will not take long–a few years at most–until he is ready. She is no longer concerned with the survival of the House of the Hearth, as her son would be an even better Director than she is. 

So, should death come to her in the near future, she would accept it graciously and without regret. She's fulfilled her purpose, protected who she could as best as she could, and while she has yet learned of what a family exactly is, she knows Lyney is brilliant enough to find the answer. And if not, Lynette, Freminet, and the rest of his siblings will show him the answer. She does not feel that the life Clervie gave her has gone to waste, and to some degree, she has seen and made the House of the Hearth into the ‘family’ and ‘home’ that Clervie had always wanted. 

There is not another reason for her heart to beat longer.  

Yet, her heart does. She’s discovered another reason for her heart to continue beating. 

The Knave is not afraid of death, make no mistake, but when her gaze falls on you she despises that she wishes for her life to extend a second a longer. Thoughts of a longer future are discarded just as they appear, driven away with a mental swat as if they were nothing more than nuisances. Her death will surely approach soon, so why is it that she wants her end to delay? She has nothing left, she has accomplished everything, why must she want more? When her touch grazes you, why is it that all she can think is where next to touch invoke such a flustered reaction? Why does she imagine more of your future smiles towards her? 

She does not need one more reason to continue living. And she realizes with a heavy heart that is the chink in the Knave's armor, what makes her most afraid: wanting to continue a future she does not have. 

About eight months after she's revealed her true name, you learn of a second name.

A blackened hand raises, stroking your cheek with a rare tenderness that's only extended to you, and your eyelids flutter. Sunlight streams through the window, painting Peruere as an angelic being, and her white hair emits off almost a heavenly glare. Red crosses greet your drowsy gaze, softened by your appearance.  

Like every morning for the past year, you've always awakened to the unmistakable warmth that belongs to Peruere. With the blood flames that course through her body, along with her Pyro vision, always on her person, she’s always hot to the touch. You find that you don't mind. On the more crisp nights, when she draws you closer underneath the covers and your bodies fit together like one whole, you can't possibly trade for another place to be. She is your hearth, a sanctuary that stokes the embers of your heart. You live inside of her heart, as does she in yours. 

It always takes a while to break the comfortable silence between the two of you. With how busy the Haringer is, finding quiet, intimate moments like these throughout the day is difficult. Basking in each other's company makes it all worth waking up and trudging through the day, then falling into each other's arms at night. Words are needless now, not when every touch or gesture is enough to communicate what the two of you need. After some while, Peruere breaks the silence by recounting what must be done today. Today is no different. 

“There's someone I’ve needed to see for some time,” she says, breaking your trance from admiring her lips. 

“Do you need me to see them?” 

She remains silent for some moments. “No. But I’d like you to.”

An unusual answer from her. Who is this person she'd like to meet? What kind of person are they, if Peruere wanted you to see them? What is their relationship? You could count very few individuals whose presence Peruere tolerates enough that she'd want you to see them. It's likely not Fatui-related in that case, not when she could hardly endure a minute with her fellow Harbingers, and her patience wore rather thin with other operatives. From her personal background then?

You try to recall what you've learned about Peruere’s past. A frown forms when you determine that it's very little. You knew not of how she became a Harbinger or her circumstance before taking the mantle of ‘Father.’ What you knew amounted to what she gave you about her curse, her real name, and the stuffed animals. You had never asked about, but occasionally the image of green buttoned eyes and the scarlett bunny flashes through your mind. If Peruere represents one of them, who was the other one? For now, you shove away the thought. 

“Then I'll go, if that's what you want,” you finally answer. 

Peruere nods, before wordlessly rising from bed. 

Arlecchino treks the same path up the mountain as she has times before. Her feet move on their own, as if the pull to the ruins were ingrained in her very muscles. Every time she's visited, it's always a sullen journey, as alone and cold as what remains on top of the hill. With each step, the air seems to thicken, and the bloodflames lick away at her veins, daring to consume her. Her frozen heart hardens until it grows heavy, dense enough that she feels it sinks into her stomach and that familiar suffocating, oppressive weight settles inside like an insidious parasite. 

Her heart is relieved by the most miniscule amount with your presence. One clasped with yours, and the other firmly holding the bouquet of Lumoudice Bells, she continues. She wonders if you can feel the way her heart thumps so erratically, so unlike the strict and unfeeling Father, the ruthless diplomat. How can one measly life disturb her when she's taken the lives of so many? She banished the thought away, because she knew her first love would never be just ‘one measly life.’ 

If you knew of Clervie, what were you to think of her? What were you to think, with the knowledge that her first–and only–friend died in her arms, her blood stained on her hands, and pierced by her sword? If you knew she had clung to Clervie beyond death and forced her day after day to wander, afraid, distraught, and alone, around a house whose walls haunted her, what would become of her in the eyes of you? 

Perhaps, you would see her as the monster Crucabena raised–maybe you too would burn from her cursed flames, and she'd be left with the only fate she could not defy: being alone, like how a wretched monster is supposed to be. Her only company would be the curse that gradually chokes her until she is buried in the ashes of all those close to her, and her life too will be snuffed out like fading embers. 

The blood flames nicks her, and she momentarily embraces the sting that spreads through her form.  

“Peruere,” you softly call out, concern dripping from your tone, and oh, how you do inexplicable things to her heart. She opens her eyes, and for a moment, she thinks she sees a glint of viridian in your eyes, before it flickers out of existence in a blink. 

She shakes her head to dismiss your worries, before looking ahead. The ruins come into view, and she wills the blood flames passive. Her forearms itch.

It's been nearly four years since she was last here, these crumbled walls and the overgrown stone floors make the resting place for both Clervie and her shadow. The sun–the same sun whose warmth Clervie had always wanted to feel–beams over Arlecchino just as it had done on the shadow. 

(Arlecchino wonders, when she held the dying girl for the first time, whether the warmth of her cursed flames could ever replace the sun's warmth. Would Clervie have been just as content, just as free for even a second, were she in Peruere's arms? For as cursed as she was, were her flames enough to be Clervie's Hearth?) 

Twice, here, she had said her farewells. Now, it's the first time that she's greeting Clervie since they first parted. 

She doesn't remember when or how she made her way here. Before her is a crude gravestone that she made after Clervie's death, hidden behind some rubble. She can still recall the way her hands terribly trembled and ached, as she hand-carved every letter and number onto the stone. She could barely register the pelting of the rain as she dug, and dug for what seemed like an eternity, but the weight of her body as she raised and lowered her seemed etched into her muscles, and–

“Peruere,” you say, and it is your warmth that jolts her when you intertwine your fingers with hers. “You're shaking.”

Indeed, her hands are trembling by her side, the bouquet bunching tightly. Inhaling deeply, she recollects herself, willing her hands to stop. 

“This is Clervie. She was…” Arlecchino begins but just as quickly pauses. She detests how difficult it was to grasp onto words when speaking was just as effortless as breathing. 

‘Everything’ she almost wants to say, and even the admission makes her chest churn agonizingly, her heart compounding into itself as if it wanted to hide from the truth. Those words are far too vulnerable, too revealing. Arlecchino attempts to find an appropriate substitute for the word but for once, she is at a loss. In an effort to reclaim some of her composure, but when she spots your gentle eyes, she sees a patience unfound by her from anyone before, an empathy that would swallow her whole if she continued staring into the abyss. A look that completely disarms her, that loosens her lips, that cracks her hardened exterior, and the emotions that have been welled up inside of her for years thrashes against its restraints, barging against her throat to escape. Peruere finds herself at the center of ravaging waters–waves of buried memories, of reserved sorrows–and even the cursed flames underneath her skin threaten to sear her. But even as the tides crash over, Peruere stands steadily. Here is not the place for her to crumble, not the time yet for you to see all of her walls peeled back. So, for now, she beckons the currents back into the well of her being. 

Her eyes flick away from yours, instead, looking up at the expanse of the sky. Peruere sees white clouds, reminiscent of Clervie's dress. “She was dear to me. She was my sole companion for much of my lifetime.”

You do not say anything for a few moments, long enough that Arlecchino starts doubting herself that you were even there until you finally say, “Do you miss her?” 

Miss her. Those two words can not attest to the amount of longing she has had since Clervie's death. Even now, a pang strikes through her, the bittersweet image of an adult Clervie–a Clervie that had the chance to grow up–appears at the forefront of her mind. If Clervie was here beside her, she would describe all the things the clouds resembled. “I do. But I would imagine that she would be at better peace now than with me.” 

Another bout of silence. This one is shorter than the last, cut with a simple question. “Would you like to talk to her?” 

She has never once thought of talking to Clervie's gravestone. What could be said to someone who could not respond? Arlecchino supposes, however, that there is no harm in doing so. She glances back down onto Clervie. Even if they never reach the intended audience's ears, it will act as a release for all of the unsaid words Arlecchino has. “Yes, I would.”

“I'll wait for you. Take as long as you need, Peruere.” The grass crunches behind her as you walk away, the sound growing quieter until it fades away. Once it does, she crouches down to place the bouquet of Lumoudice bells. 

“Clervie,” she addresses softly to the gravestone. “It has been a while. I apologize for not visiting sooner. I hope that you are faring well.”

What should she say? Arlecchino does not often converse with the dead.

“The House of the Hearth remains lively as ever.” She stops, recalling the more memorable events that occurred. Clervie would surely be amused. 

“We saw another addition to the family just a few months ago. I had taken in another child, Claude. He appears shy, but I believe that he will soon find his place among the rest of his siblings. Like you, he is an avid reader. Lyney has expectedly made earnest attempts to befriend him, but Freminet, with their akin quiet nature, would likely be more successful. Speaking of which, Lyney and Lynette's magic show has been prospering, and Freminet is included in some of the shows as well. He is becoming an increasingly beloved performer among the fans, and I do hope this will boost his confidence.”

She ponders for a moment of what else to add. 

“The children persuaded me to allow them to keep another stray cat, an abandoned kitten they found in an alley. I believe they called it Pumpkin, though I am certain it is a cover name for a more crude title. Two weeks ago, while I was working in my office, I was disturbed by an explosion. It appears that Foltz and Heloir were baking cookies, or what I can assume they were with the charred remains of their efforts.” 

Arlecchino lets out a huff of amusement, before continuing, “[Name] scolded the two quite thoroughly. They did not take to their given punishments so graciously, or at least less graciously as they would have had I issued the reprimand. [Name]’s generosity grants them that freedom, yet I cannot find myself especially irked with this. It is a welcome addition–[Name] is a welcome addition to our lives. The children have grown quite attached to [Name], and I…”

A beat of silence, an instant to formulate adequate words.

“[Name] is precious to me. They remind me of you, Clervie, in their kindness. You would have loved them. I had thought I would not find another person that would stay. But [Name] did. They are still here, and they do not intend on leaving. I cannot be any more grateful. They are attentive, gentle, and protective of the children, and to me… I cannot tolerate being without them. I could have never thought I would long for another just as I had for you, Clervie.”

A deep inhale then exhale.

“I had always wondered why you had given up your life for mine. Was the life I had lived worth yours in exchange? As of recently, I feel content with my life. Not yet satisfied, you know I am far too selfish and greedy to be entirely satisfied with this, but this is a life that I do not regret building. I am closer to the family we have wanted to build together as children, and… I think [Name] would be a good ‘Mother.’ Is it okay to ask [Name] to take your place? To be the ‘Mother’ we have always wanted?” 

There is no answer, nothing but the moan of a wind, but Arlecchino is satiated. 

“I should part soon with you. The children will wonder about my whereabouts, and [Name] grows anxious when they are away from the hotel for too long. I will visit you again. Next time, I promise a slice of cake so I ask you to wait for me until then.”

“Farewell, Clervie. Rest well.”

Arlecchino stands up, but stops before she fully turns around. “I nearly have forgotten to tell you. The aurora was just as beautiful as the ones in the pictures.”

It starts with a red rabbit and a white hare. The children are all largely asleep, and in the comfort  of your shared bed on a quiet, intimate night Peruere takes out two plushies, the same two that had mystified you ever since you discovered them in an obscure drawer. Finally, you knew of who the other plushie belonged to. 

“I met her at the House of the Hearth. We were both raised there for as long as I can recall, underneath the former Director, ‘Mother.’” Peruere sharply inhales, running her thumb over the face of the Clervie doll. 

“Clervie was Mother's biological daughter, and she was the only one of the other children that could see past ‘Mother's’ facade. Mother liked to sweeten us as if we were candy, only to spit us out when we could no longer satisfy her. However, our siblings never saw beyond her cloying words and faux affection. From the very beginning we were trained to fight each other. Mother isolated us from our peers, so naturally, a friendship grew between us.” 

“I spent every breathing moment alongside her, despite ‘Mother's’ attempts to separate me from Clervie. ‘Mother’ favored me because I was her strongest among my siblings, while Clervie was the weakest. But that did not dissuade Clervie, even when my other siblings feared me. In fact, my lack of companions only emboldened Clervie to become my friend. Clervie was my sole companion for years. Much of what we had was shared: meals, books, beds, clothes. Whatever I had was Clervie's, and what was Clervie's was mine. And so were her dreams. 

“One day when we were six, she came up to me, bright-eyed and determined despite the numerous bruises she gained from ‘Mother's’ punishment, with a declaration. Clervie wanted to make a real family, one that shed no tears or blood, one where she would be a mother that loved her children equally, and her children would love each other. She wanted to make that family with me.

“I do not know of what a family looks like, and I do not suppose that Clervie knew either. But even when ‘Mother's’ cruelty shed away her naivety in the later years, she still held this dream dear to her. Clervie took to fantasies much more than I did, but I played along. We would imagine ourselves as parents of our pretend family, Clervie, the gentle ‘Mother,’ and I, as the stern ‘Father.’” 

These,” Peruere holds up the plush version of herself, “were the results from that. Our ‘children.’ Children often take on the appearances of their parents, so we likened them to ourselves. My look-alike was Clervie's, and hers was mine.”

“But that dream did not last. As our time inside the House of the Hearth grew, Clervie realized that making our home into a true family was impossible. So, Clervie began to dream of freedom. Freedom for not just herself, but for our siblings as well. When she became shy of a teenager, she made attempts of escaping. ‘Mother’ would always stop her and make an example out of her to dissuade any attempts from the other children.

“At sixteen, we finally learned why we were being taught how to fight. From the very beginning, ‘Mother’ had been grooming us to be participants of our very own death game– we had to fight each other to the death. Only the strongest would arise alive, and would be crowned with a meaningless throne over the mountain of their siblings. Clervie had always tried to get the others to draw, to reduce as many deaths as possible, but ‘Mother’ had always made sure that there can only be one victor.”

“Clervie and I were the last alive out of our siblings. One by one I dominated the duels and slaughtered our siblings. The night before our duel she said to me that she sought freedom, and the only way she can achieve it was in her death. I granted her that freedom and became the sole survivor. I trained nonstop everyday after her death to be strong enough to kill ‘Mother’ and I had achieved that a year later, in the exact same place I last held Clervie.”

Peruere finally stops, silence filling in the space between you. You are breathless, trying to piece together her past. What could even be said after that?

She sets down the plush on the bed, silently offering it to you. You take the plush with delicate hands, as if the toy would shatter upon the slightest touch. Knowing the history behind its owner makes it feel heavy, dense with the foreseen tragedy you know appears in Peruere's and Clervie's story. You cannot imagine the current Knave holding such a cutesy toy, but the vision of a smaller, baby-faced Peruere cradling the plush to her chest like it was the only comfort the world would grant her… it clenches your heart agonizingly. Knowing that she was so small but endured so much… you wish that you could give that tiny Peruere and Clervie all of the care and love they deserved. 

Pushing back the tears that emerge from the corner of your eyes became difficult. When Peruere noticed your tears, a blackened hand came up to your face to wipe them away. You lean in against the warm hand, your sobs coming in more rapidly. Oh, Peruere, you can not help but think, how is it that she is still so full of love? How is it that the child that grew up to be the love of your life, someone who would dedicate her entirety for each of her children, suffered so much? How could fate be this unjust to such a kind soul? 

Nothing held you back from practically lunging at her, grasping onto her and sobbing into her chest. You look up at her through a blurred vision, and even now there is hardly a hint of affliction on her. For how stoic she was, your entire body wracks with sorrow, for all of the emotions she herself could not express, you experience two fold. She holds you the entire time wordlessly, and never stops wiping away your endless tears. 

“You were so small,” is all you can comprehensively babble when your sobs begin to recede and you start hiccuping. “It’s not fair. It's not your fault. It can never be.” 

Peruere's eyes widen by a fraction at your statement, her lips part in a stunned silence, and her body tense, as if she was in disbelief. As if you had just healed a broken part of her that had been that way for her entire life. Her hand twitches, and her expression smooths out when she brushes away the last of your tears. “I apologize for making you cry.” 

You shake your head, refusing the apology. Sinking further down into her embrace as if trying to weld with her, you cling onto her, assuring her that you would never leave. Your hiccups ebb away, and the two of you lay together, bound by one another's entangled limbs. Your ear is pressed against her chest, listening to the rhythmic drum of her heart. 

There is one more break in the silence before the two of you succumb to slumber. 

“Would you like to see the aurora with me?” 

Author's Note:

please don't let this flop please don't let this flop please don't let this flop

sorry for not uploading anything for 2.5 months. does this make up for it? i've had this idea worked on since last year, if I'm not mistaken, since at least august, and I only had just recently started working on it after I gave up on it for a good while. after this ill work on whatever i feel like. but it might be slow.

Clorinde your marrying someone, she knows acting as if there's nothing going on between you when there's clearly that both of you have affection for each other, she knows she shouldn't haven't distanced herself from you. SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE CONFESS HER FEELINGS MUCH QUICKER. but now your out of reach and now she has to admire you from afar , you were soon found dead and your husband was put on trial and wanting a duel, how shameless this man killed the love of her life and now he will died in the hands of her blade.

Arlechinno ever since in the beginning you would always try to be with her but she always prioritized clervie above all she simply put her above you. Before she takes the position as the head of the house of hearth as well as assassinating "mother", you were arranged to marry someone and that's the last time she saw you. But now her eyes lay upon your newly born baby. You were found dead killed by your husband and now he's on the watch list of the fatui. And now she has to raise your child whose livelihood reminded her of you.

Ningguang you know that she loves you with all her heart but she always prioritized her work above you, as well keeping your relationship professional on the outside. And always acting as if nothing ever happened between the two of you, unfortunately now you both stand on opposing sides becoming one of the harbingers was a personal back stab towards her back and now she stands on top of the jade chamber without you. And now everything is cold.

Beidou during one of the expeditions with the crux and a sea monster attacked the ship leaving many members on the ocean of course she jumped in and saved her crew mates, she saved a girl who she knew had been infatuated with her but her heart belongs to you but she still a crew members so of course she has to save you. When she got up she realized you weren't on the ship and she realized you were also thrown off the ship. She went back towards the ocean and saw your body falling deeper towards the ocean she tried to reach your hand but you were out of reach.

Jean she knows it's your choice to marry diluc but sometimes she would try to convince you to not marry him but you never seem to shrug her words away. Until during the wedding an ambush breaks out by the abyss and manages to land an instant death shot on you, diluc was holding your body shaking you as well tears coming out of his tears she rush towards you as well, and both of them seeing the love of their lives pass away.

Lisa you and her were akademiya students in the past, many people believe that your relationship was platonic but it was much more than that. You and her would sneak away and spend the night together watching the stars together. Lisa wishes to forever preserve this memory together but unfortunately your unwilling to let go of your life as a scholar broke her heart and that's how both of you part ways and when she's working she would day dream what life would be like if you chose her.

Raiden, one of the reasons why she pursued eternity was because of you, as one of the most powerful yōkai during the past you and her would spend time together with you,her, kitsune saiguu and the others everything was perfect back then, she wished the picture could freeze forever until the catlacisym arise and her sister decide to took her stead and she went to khanrieah to save her, when she came back she heard you were devour by the abyss trying to protect it with kitsune saiguu and sometimes she wonder what happened if she didn't go.