Jan 27, 2025
found and joined an objectified server and accidentally joined at the worst possible time i guess? im so bad with servers i dont know why i keep joining servers :sob: i either lurk and never talk or . lurk and never tal
#burnt out matches - 🔥#i join. i go through their verification process at like 6am. i go to sleep#i wake up. 'everyone who joined after friday is being kicked with no way to come back because weve been getting harassed. you know who you#are'#i blink slowly. i just wanted emotes and notifs for when the comic updates /lh#im so bad with stuff like this it gives me really bad. anxiety? paranoia?#i dont know i wave my paw. you know what feeling i mean#i gave them my tumblr. i mean my tumblr is public but i dont know if i like the idea of a link to my tumblr being accessable to people +#who . i dont know. does that make sense? i dont know#sitting here right after i wake up like 'am i the person theyre talking about and i just dont know it? am i the problem? is there anything#i can do to fix it? should i try to be active in the chat or keep lurking? i didnt even get the chance to lurk i was asleep and woke up to#this'#am i overthinking it? is it even that big of a deal?#i mean no i guess not. its just the idea of it#waa i guess this counts as a vent huh.#aagh they remove the verify channel so i cant delete the link. ooh hate hate hate hate#actually making me so paranoid#i know theyre being harassed. thats awful. being sent your triggers and shit is awful and i dont think thats good at all#im just separately having my own issues. i understand why theyre doing it#i just have Problems#aggrrg. awful. terrible awful terrible#pour the gasoline - 💥
