English is not my native language, so please excuse any mistakes!
Synopsis 𓄼 A war is uncertain, you never know what might happen. The only certainty it can give is that of many losses, losses that do not distinguish between enemies and allies.
Attention 𓄼 free, light romance, anguish, inner apprehension, neural connection, comforting, comfort with kuru.
Dictionary 𓄼 kinglor - flying insect similar to a moth 》ikran - mountain banshee 》tsaheylu - link 》kuru - neural thread 》vrrtep - demon 》tsahìk - spiritual leader 》ma txe'lan - my heart
You weren't born to fight.
You hadn't gained the gift to be a hunter, much less a warrior in your clan, but it wasn't as if those roles were the most coveted among the young prodigies of the Silk Forest.
The Aranahe were skilled artisans and weavers because those lands, blessed by the Great Mother, made them prosper in that capacity, teaching them from a young age to coexist with the kinglor creatures of the forest and the ikrans that flew over the beautiful floating mountains of the Western Frontier.
But when war approaches your territory, the hands that once wove the most beautiful and delicate fabrics are forced to wield thick, heavy weapons, as adapting to battle has become essential for survival.
But your people weren't warriors.
And that was what scared you the most.
– Your hands are trembling.
Her voice cut through the silence inside one of the upper domes where you two were sitting within the Hometree. Most of the resident aranahe were on the lower floors making preparations for those who would go to war that day.
The cheerful noise below, the enthusiasm and positive vibes among the newest warriors didn't reach your ears, passing by as something distant.
They were happy for the chance to finally be able to get rid of those demons from the sky that rotted their lands and destroyed their home.
An ugly word that left a bitter taste when pronounced, that granted scars when it happened, and that was the main cause of many losses since arriving on “Pandora”, from the stars.
Your fingers stopped halfway to her cheek, the yellowish ink on your hand looking too cold.
Times changed a long time ago.
Your people weren't born to fight like that.
But there you were, painting marks on her body and being forced to let her go to a battle of such magnitude.
It wasn't a cold response, but the way it was phrased, too precisely, didn't please her.
That didn't need to be stated, but it still seemed like the right thing to say. You lowered your gaze, the still almost untouched bowl of fresh ink near your knees on the ground. Etuwa noticed your silence too quickly.
– Our people will not be alone. The clans have united, and we will fight as one. We will attack together and defeat them before they can even recover.
You heard her words, you knew the plans prepared for that day, plans that had been discussed in the temporary unified council between the Aranahe, Kame'tire, and Zeswa. The offensive was the main line of reasoning; it was a good plan. But would it be good enough?
What if the attack went wrong?
What if the enemy managed to recover faster than expected?
– I will do everything to prevent so many losses. I will do everything to protect them.
Protect. A strong word that carried as much weight as responsibility.
Her tail twitched behind and her ears went back, betraying her discomfort.
– And who will protect you?
– I am taking the best with me.
– Even the best are prone to fall, Etuwa.
Silence hung between you.
And there was considerable time before one of you decided to make the first move.
You didn't resist much when you felt those warm, strong arms you'd grown to love supporting you, pulling you into her lap. Your legs tensed around her, with a quick tremor, and your arms gripped her shoulders tightly. Your head lowered to the nape of her neck, inhaling her characteristic scent, seeking to etch it eternally into your mind.
It no longer mattered if the fresh paint was now smudged or even staining your fine clothes.
Etwua embraced your partially bare back, her fingers delicately tracing your spine before one hand abandoned that task.
You noticed the subtle movement.
She stretched one arm behind her back, holding her own braid to show you. The pink strands appeared eagerly when you did the same, and they joined with hers as soon as the distance disappeared.
The effects of the tsaheylu were immediate.
You both let out synchronized sighs as the connection became too strong through both of your kurus, the silent feelings being exposed every second.
She felt your apprehension for her, your fear for those of your clan, your feeling of helplessness and your anguish, and you could feel her hatred for the war, her worry about leading so many to something unpredictable, the distress and weight of returning home with a victory and with the fewest possible losses.
But beyond all that, beyond the longing, the fear, and the uncertainty, there was comfort. A slight pulse of the connection trying to anchor you in that situation, which, gradually, began to be shared with her as well.
And little by little the bad thoughts calmed down in your mind, not disappearing, never disappearing, but placed in a place where they didn't need to be present at that moment.
Etuwa hadn't said a single word, because she understood. With or without connection, she would always understand you, but between duty, reason, and will, the choice would always be geared towards a greater good. Before she was your partner, she was a leader.
And you understood her better than anyone.
Her ears twitched even before she caught his voice and lifted her face from his chest.
His hands went to the sides of her face, the ink on his fingers already forgotten.
– That you won't let any vrrtep hurt you. That you'll come home alive… To me…
Saying that word felt like a sin, a poison.
The words sounded like a whisper, so low as if they didn't want to risk escaping into thin air. The tsahìk brought her face closer to your neck.
– I can't guarantee you something like that.
You knew. She knew. That was a cruel truth.
Her senses sharpened. Her kurus were still strongly connected to the side when she decided to place her forehead against his, her eyes closing as she felt his skin against hers. There. Present.
– I promise I will do everything to return home and to you, ma txe'lan.
That wasn't the answer your conscious mind wanted to receive. It wasn't certain or exact, but it was the closest you could get.
You simply allowed yourself to stay embraced with your companion, listening to her breath, feeling her warmth, and sharing your deepest feelings high up in your Hometree.
Your night wasn't guaranteed.
The Great Mother couldn't give you certainty.
But Etuwa was there now, and that was what mattered at the moment.
That day you let her go, watching her ascend to the heavens, her body painted for war alongside Ka'nat and the best warriors of her people, unsure if she would ever return to your arms.
But you believed in that promise.
Your right hand rose to firmly grasp a set of beads made from the seeds of the Hometree pinned to your chest, a small gift Etuwa had made and given you at the very beginning of your courtship, a few moons ago, but which held as much meaning for you as any other, for she kept a similar one you had made in your own garments.
So that I may always be with you.
And you believed in that promise.
Because at dusk the warriors would return victorious against the people of the sky, led by their leaders, and all would be well.
Oh, Eywa, all would be well.
𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒕𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.ᐟ