#arabellasystem

Tuafw you don't stim much when you're in your safe space (My room/house) or are in a neutral mood and so you start questioning if you're really autistic but then you realize the excited finger clicking when you're info dumping on someone, the wrist thumping when you're upset, and the wrist spinning when you're stressed/anxious and then you're like "Oh yeah, I'm valid even though I don't stim all the time." ❄🍇

Taufw you're grabbing snacks and most of the time, you grab either two or five, but this time you grabbed four and you tell yourself "This is fine, I don't need five bags of chips." But by the time you're in your room, you're so uncomfortable that you run back to grab a fifth bag so you don't feel like screaming anymore. ❄🍇

Tuafw You're 95% sure you could be/are autistic and you bring it up to your mum and she dismisses you, amounting it to your other illnesses (Anxiety, ADHD, Bipolar disorder) and when you bring it up to your new therapist, your mum calls you a hypochondriac.

Tuafw I'm sitting alone in my room, just scrolling through Instagram and everything is quiet then a video starts playing and I have to immediately stop it because I got so accustomed to the silence that even the silence is too loud (Can I be PeriBerry or ❄🍇?)

Tuafw I'm outside smoking while it's raining and someone drives by and everything is all of the sudden too loud and I just want to cover my ears and scream/cry