Fuck. My paycheck gone.
I've recently noticed I've been spending a lot of money on random crap. It's honestly not all that random, but mainly things I don't honestly need. I spent like $100 on just books. Like seriously I could just get them at the library, well if they had them!!! But I honestly really like reading actual paper books and not just books on my Nook. Well it's just a different feeling, and if I really enjoyed the book I want to keep it, kind of like a memento. I probably won't even read it again because I have a million other books I want to read. Haha. But seriously though, I like keeping books and collecting them. Honestly, one of my goals when I'm older is to have a collection of books that I really love and support. I want people to come over and appreciate the beauty of books. The knowledge obtained from books is truly beautiful and I can't believe I didn't realize that until recently! You just learn so much it's absolutely crazy.
Okay, well I did some impulse thing today and spent about a weeks worth of pay (a total of $720). Honestly, this wasn't really an impulse buy. It wasn't even really a purchase, it was basically an investment towards myself. I spent this $720 on a Aptitude test known as the Johnson O' Connor Aptitude Research test. I was referred to it by my mentor about a year ago, and finally committed to doing it while here in Boston. I had actually scheduled an appointment back home last winter, but never went through with it because god it was too fucking expensive and I couldn't bring myself to spend the money. But the more I pondered this aptitude test, kind of keeping it in the back of my mind all this time, the more I wanted to commit to it. I mean okay it's really a lot of money, just a few short of $1000. But really, this is a small investment to have knowledge that is useful for the rest of your life. I honestly convinced myself to just go through with it with this logical argument.
So I came into work pretty late today because this test was a total of 3.5 hours long. (p.s. this was just the first part of the test too). I was telling my co-working interns about this and one girl...I could already sense of judgement in a second. She is clearly not open to the idea of a test telling you your natural abilities and I could see she would never justify spending that much money on something she claims "she could just figure out on her own". Okay to argue her point, yeah you might "think" you know what your apitudes are and go into whatever career you choose, but do you really know? Do you REALLY KNOW? Do you think you could know more than a fucking research team who has been studying this for 70 years. Yeah I don't think so. All in all, I need to just let this go because it's draining my energy just thinking about her negativity and judgement. It's honestly making me more judgemental and I'm even judging her right now and wasting energy being upset about this FUCK. Okay let it go..let it go...It's not her fault she dosen't believe in this aptitude test. It's all about her upbrining and if I were in her case...I wouldn't believe it either. It's not her fault she is closeminded...This is her belief and will lead her to whereever the fuck her life ends up. It's not my problem.
Well anyways, after thinking about her close minded and ignorant attitude toward my commitment to participating in this research. I thought, well what the fuck, don't you guys have things you just naturally enjoy doing that other people don't? Lets take for instance ART. Like I was never taught art, but god I find it really enjoyable. Other people don't! That's something that's innate to them and them alone. Okay I know I find that interesting and I guess she could argue that she knows she likes art, why the fuck pay $720 to discover that. But this aptitude test goes into much more detail and tells you things you might never discover in your lifetime. It's just information to learn about yourself instead of having to experiencing it and then figuring out in a few years when it's too late to change careers. I honestly believe that it is better to be aware of these aptitudes when you are young and still making life decisions. Just keeping this information in the back of your mind will help you make less wrong choice(even though wrong choices aren't bad). It will just save you time in the end and unhappiness in the wrong choices. I'm all about learning from failure don't get me wrong, but just doing things knowledgeably and cleverly is much more important to me. I still believe that this is a small price to pay in return for some great fucking knowledge.
