#applemousse

another funny thing about the applemousse dynamic is that larry probably realizes pretty early on the Nature of his attraction to balki but he hates himself so much he keeps putting off any idea of mutuality and his fantasies are more centered around balki as a figure or a more abstract type of eroticism than about like. the two of them doing stuff. meanwhile balki instantly knows upon meeting larry that their lives are going to revolve around each other forever but he's like, a massive prude about it for the longest time

if balki had to be somewhere else for 24 hours the first thing larry would do is map out in his mind exactly how long balki would be traveling, when he'd be in which location doing which activity, etc. down to the minute. the second thing he'd do is cry for 4 hours. and the third thing he would do is brush his teeth with balki's toothbrush (it's sexual for him)

i think also larry's biggest obstacle to just saying fuck it and getting it on with his "cousin" -- besides the obvious -- is that. everyone loves balki and balki loves everyone. larry doesn't even like himself and so in his mind it's like well? what if i'm NOT special, what if anyone could have what we have? sure he's different with me but am i reading too much into that? is it just because we live together? what makes me any different from everyone else he meets who all kind of fall in love with him? and how can i compete with the entire world?

also i think the driving force of larry & balki's relationship is not necessarily lust or friendship or even love so much as it is an addiction to proximity. they are OBSESSED with being close to each other to the point where everyone around them is visibly uncomfortable with it. which is one of larry's greatest fears!!!! he HATES weirding people out!!! and yet he CANNOT stop hovering, holding balki's hand, bringing him along on dates, hiding in car trunks with him, fussing over his clothes, dancing with him in public, etc etc etc and if they are ever separated for any reason he immediately starts having a panic attack about how maybe balki doesn't need him. and balki is the same way, he HAS to be close to larry to the point where he literally handcuffs them together and being apart from larry for long is unbearable and depressing to him where he's normally so optimistic and exuberant. anyway!!!!!!!!