#apparently yeah

(@themischeviousfandomhoppergnome, Grinning Shadow AU is what "Your Mindless Smile Haunts Me" comes from)

Blame the duck not me, it's not my fault they gave me the stellar evil idea.

Azure is treating Macaque way better than his predecessor in a way, he still thinks he's a traitor and a coward but, well [REDACTED].

...which could mean nothing (aiden belongs to @thedolsideblog)

bonus under cut:

I think it's time that I properly address this now that I've had nearly a year to ponder this. ( literally; the activity drop is so so visible after march of 2024 ). I know my activity here has been minimal at best, and I'll be honest when I say that such isn't likely to majorly change any time soon. I'm not abandoning this blog, but it is going to likely be dormant, going through periods of activity and none. Maybe a few days, maybe a few weeks, maybe a couple months, who knows. Might be more often if a certain muse / fandom takes focus back or it might be graveyard silence. I understand if this means you wish to break connections, drop our ships/bonds, mutuals, etc. I know it can be disheartening and disappointing when someone isn't around. I won't hold it against you. If you want to keep them and being mutuals, great! but i understand not wanting to as well and if you softblock me, there's no hard feelings. Maybe one day I'll be here more and we reconnect if you are so inclined.

It's also been hard for me trying to figure out how to come back between lack of muse and having sort of fell out of the space here. Both due to I'm sure people's uncertainty as well as my own uncertainty, and that's perfectly reasonable. Some days are okay, some days are honestly extremely hard. The sorta delete it hard. I don't know what my long term plan is, I don't know what to say to expect, and I'm sorry I can't offer that. Maybe every couple weeks I'll be active? I don't know. I don't know to put this other than this time last year was a very, very dangerous time for me. So my focus has been elsewhere in a space that's helped a lot. Which, on a lighter subject, I think has helped refine my writing in some ways and I've learned to be proud of what I write. ( Most of the time. ) So silver lining to things. Maybe I'll make some au verses for other muses, it's possible. But i digress.

I truly am very sorry for my very spotty activity. You're all always welcomed to reach out and chat with me if you would like to. I very much still care about the connections, and I have missed you all and hope you're doing well. I'm sure that most of this you guys have probably already figured out by now. I just wanted to make a more official post in some regards to address the lack of activity and lack of muse on my side, and not being sure if people want to keep or drop things. What I do ask is please, please don't feel like you have to keep connections or mutuals or anything for any reason. It's sort of like when asking if you should add a muse people say yes, but then no one writes with them; you don't need to say so just because you feel expected or obligated to for one reason or another. This is 100% an open, honest invitation for you to do what you need / want to with the understanding that there's no hard feelings involved either way. I'm well aware of my absence and the effects/consequences of that before people come at me for that.