#antisocial pd

I've seen people with ASPD come from all walks of life. Some of us have homicidal ideation. Some of us don't have it at all. It is a rather common experience for many of us. It stems from many sources. Regardless of how or why, it is a topic that cannot be avoided. I feel frustrated about the way most people handle this discussion. I'm not just annoyed at prosocials. I'm even annoyed at how some antisocials approach it. There are so many people who pearl clutch over it, as if it is the ultimate evil. You can't tell your average person you experience it at all. They'll immediately be terrified of you. Others will treat you like a case study or even romanticize you as the "sexy serial killer" trope. Some will blindly encourage these behaviors without questioning the damage it will do. Others will obsessively dictate how their approach to their own homicidal ideation is morally superior to yours. I hate all of these angles. I wish that we, as a community, could have more neutral healthy discussions about how to cope with or work on these tendencies.

I think this topic isn't talked about often enough. I used to think I couldn't possibly have ASPD due to certain factors like this. As it turns out, anxiety disorders are really common in people who have ASPD. The anxiety may exist as more of a physical sensation for many of us. The person may be, otherwise, completely mentally disconnected from what they're experiencing. I can attest to that myself. I often don't know what I'm experiencing is anxiety or hyper-vigilance because I can't feel it mentally. In fact, developing the ability to feel my feelings, in the moment, has been a major part of my healing process.

I feel like people expect you to be so visibly distressed to alleviate their discomfort of hearing about your intrusive thoughts.

might make a part 2 if i feel like it.

Comorbid anxiety disorders alongside ASPD are extremely common.