16. I’ll love you if make me pizza with tons of cheese on it & the pepperonis would say "I love you" and/or "You're beautiful."17. It's crazy, but I miss Colin. He's this guy I fell in madly in love with back when I was a freshman. I was fifteen, soon to be sixteen, and he was twenty. Since then, I've dreaded everyday until I'm eighteen. That's why I'm so excited to be eighteen and why I'm making a big deal about it. He has a girlfriend though. For the past three years, but just knowing we can finally be together will make me happy. That's also how I got my twenty-year-old fetish. 19. When talking about my friends or anyone else in my life, I always compliment them. I always speak highly of them. But I deny everything they say about me. I'm incredibly jealous of everyone part of my life. I can never see myself as great as them. Never. 20. I hate my body the most. I just wish I had that slim look. Yeah yeah, a big ass is great, big boobs are great, so fucking what. That's all everyone sees on me. It's very rare someone calls me beautiful. That twenty year old I was talking about, all he did was tell me how pretty I looked that day. And everything I did was adorable. And how beautiful I look when I smile. Not once he mentioned anything about my body. Not once, and I love LOVE THAT. 33. What words make me feel the best about myself.Basically everything I said before. I mean, my mom doesn't call me beautiful, or pretty. I asked my brothers if they heard her ever say such things, they said no. I can't remember a time where se has. Because she never had.
