#ansgt

"not enough."

Kinda?

She had sex and birthed Iemitsu's son

Iemitsu is controlling, possessive, lying criminal bastard

Raised a baby alone in a helltown lonely and abandoned her to another country

Iemitsu can kidnap and take her son any time and won't even tell her

She doesn’t have a job, friends or family

She's not MENTALLY STABLE and nearly having a psycotic break. She's a weak woman that cannot handle suffering or trauma, so its worse for her?

If SHE IS BRAINWASHING ITS RAPE AND SHE LOST 16 YEARS OF HER LIFE!!!

She also crazy, genuine insane and single-focused on getting Iemitsu back home with her to be a family

I just feel like she’s broken

Nana literally is too...gone, too depressed to handle anything

Her sadness always been something she's far too gone and mentally obssessed

Tsuna is stronger mentally, can handle stuff better at 14?

He's pretty down and abused and bad scared physically and mentally, but he is mentally sane? He is sound, he's not delusional or mad or having psycotic breaks

She wants Iemitsu, so protecting her is hard, because Nana is a threat to herself and self-destructive

She is stubborn, won't listen, isn't mentally here and dead-set in getting her fantasy

Or a suicidal risk the same way Nana is

Maybe she was brainwashed or drunk on his Sky Flames?

She's kinda powerless and weak and has no Will beyond Iemitsu

Okay this is a Leo Valdez angst/vent story written in half an hour while I watched Jurassic Park. It is not beta read or spelled checked and it’s probably ass but this is my situation bar for bar with my boyfriend and writing about it makes me feel better. So boom, who’s coping now. There is a content warning in this for sexual content but not smut, more like mention of sex. So beware. Lmk if you want to be tagged and enjoy!

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tags ~ sad, angst, sexual content but only mentions, Leo Valdez, no use of y/n, insecure!reader, jealous!reader, no comfort sorry

Can I have my girl back?

Jermajesty x reader

Love Island AU!

Summary: You give Jermajesty the silent treatment when heard his words at movie night on the screen.

The villa had been peaceful for about five minutes. You and Jermajesty had been one of the strongest couples in the villa. From the first week, everyone noticed the connection between you two.

The way he always found a reason to sit beside you, you laughed at his jokes even when they weren’t funny. He called you his “girl” and “baby” like it was the most natural thing. Everyone thought you were solid.

Until Casa Amor. Casa Amor had tested everyone, and while you and Jermajesty both came back single, you thought you were past the worst part. You trusted him, until movie night.

The Islanders gathered around the fire pit, already nervous as the big screen lit up. A few people laughed nervously, Jermajesty reached over and squeezed your hand. “Don’t worry, baby,” he whispered. “We’re good.” You smiled slightly. “I hope so.”The first clips played.

There were laughs, teasing, and embarrassing moments from the villa. Then the title card appeared. Casa Conversations. Your stomach dropped, everyone went quiet. The clip started. It showed Jermajesty during Casa Amor, sitting with the boys, talking about you.

You were calm then you heard the words. “He’s just being honest,” someone whispered. You weren’t listening. You were staring at the screen. Jermajesty’s face changed. “Wait-" The clip continued.

The things he had said weren’t meant to be cruel, hearing them without context hurt. Hearing him question things, joke with the boys, and talk about your relationship like it was uncertain made your chest tighten.

You slowly pulled your hand away from his. “[Name]..." You didn’t look at him. The video ended, the villa went silent. “Babe, can I explain?” Jermajesty said quickly. You finally looked at him. “Explain what?” His face softened. “That wasn’t how I meant it.” You laughed quietly, there was no humor behind it. “Really?" “Yeah.”

You stood up. “It sounded pretty clear to me.” “Baby, wait.” You were already walking away. “[Name]...” You stopped for a second, everyone was watching. “I just need space.” Then you left.

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Soul Ties was quiet. You loved being there. It was where everyone went to relax, talk, and have fun. Tonight, you sat alone. You were hurt. The worst part wasn’t even what he said. It was that you thought you knew where you stood with him. A few minutes later, you heard footsteps.

You already knew who it was. “[Name]?"Silence. Jermajesty stepped closer. “Baby…”Nothing, he sighed. “Okay I deserve that.” You looked away. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.” Still nothing. “I was stupid I was talking with the boys and trying to act like I wasn’t missing you.”

You crossed your arms. “Did you miss me?” “Yes.” His answer was immediate. “I missed you every day.” You stayed quiet. He sat across from you. “I should’ve been more careful with my words. I should’ve never made you feel like you weren’t enough for me.” Your expression softened slightly, you didn’t speak.

“You’re my person in here,” he continued. “Everyone knows that.” You finally looked at him. “Then why did you make me feel like I wasn’t?” Jermajesty looked down. “I don’t have a good answer.” That made you pause. “I messed up,” he admitted. “I hate that I hurt you.”

You looked away again. “I’m not mad because you had doubts everyone gets scared.” He nodded. “I’m mad because I thought I was safe with you.” His eyes softened. “You are.” You swallowed. “I need you to understand that words matter.”

“I do.” A small silence passed. He quietly said, “I miss my girl.” You tried not to react. The tiny smile that appeared gave you away. Jermajesty noticed. He smiled a little. “I’m sorry, baby.” You sighed. “I’m still annoyed.” “I know you are baby.” “You’re sleeping alone tonight.”

His eyes widened. “Seriously?” You finally laughed a little. “Yes.” He smiled. “Okay fair.” You shook your head. “You’re lucky I love you.” His face softened. “I know, I’m lucky you do.” He reached for your hand carefully. You let him hold it hold this time. “Can I have my girl back?”

You looked at him. “You have to work for it.” He smiled. “Deal.” When you both walked back into the villa, everyone immediately noticed. One of the Islanders grinned. “Are they back together?” You looked at Jermajesty. He smiled. “She’s still mad.” You nodded.

(first pic is from hoyo and second pic is from a fan made animation which i forgot the creator...!!!)

Recently played the game, and it's now my new favorite thing right now XD

Might not be the best art since I was in a car while drawing, but you know, still art!

I was listening to Class of 2013 - Audiotree live version, and it lowkey reminded me of Ivan, so I quickly got my phone out to draw the reference in my head! Ivan suits Mitski songs SO MUCH it pains me

And privacity

Its mostly Reborn's fault, he should be kinder to a alredy bullied and neglected civilian child

Tsuna spend most of Daily Arc numb and in automatic mood, curling up in bed crying and sobbing, scared of death, trying to survive, also tired and trying to get somebody, anybody to listen.

And to get his 'new friends' to drag everyone to their deaths, screaming at them until his throat was raw.

Shouting and begging at everyone the all that he didn't wanted to die, didn't wanted to fight or be a Mob Boss, wanted to be free, that he's a person...and begin kicked in the head and told to shut up and keep fighting.

Because Reborn sees Tsuna as a toy to abuse, Vongola see him as a civilian pawns for more power. Nobody cares.

At 14 years old! All the 'adults' dismissing him as a kid and demanding him to solve their messes. And Tsuna just wants to have a life.

He sounded five minutes from a mental breakdown. For just going vegetative state and refusing to eat or sleep until they let him go.

Sawada Tsunayoshi is seen as a toy, a pawn, property of Vongola they can use and kidnap like they want and need, broken into a perfect puppet king...not a child, a person.

Tsuna running around, constantly having to hide from both Reborn and Iemitsu's attempts at 'training' and bonding, scared and tired and angry and begging those violent people to leave him alone!

His own room wasn't safe and Kaasan doesn’t care he is covered hin scars, bags under his eyes and under weight. He cannot eat or sleep in peace, his clothes are destroyed and replaced by Reborn 'more suitable to a Mafia Boss to wear'.

Otosan didn’t care either, just make it worse.

Because Vongola isn’t protection, Iemitsu never protected him or Nana. They are just troubles and sacrifice and solving their messes without any of the benefits.

Their idea of 'safety' is twisted and caged and powerless and hurt.

No wonder Xanxus is the way he is. Begin raised by those people. And abused and used and caged.

A Mad Dog filled with Rage and a Broken Puppet far too tired and numb to fight.

Because Nono wants his heirs broken and trapped and under his control in a way none can escape. So he can use them against their will. (No even just his heirs, Reborn tutoring Dino was shady)

Xanxus dared try and got frozen for 8 years and used as a hostage against the Varia. Nono was even worst to Tsuna, since he had no real Guardians like Xanxus. And used Tsuna to bring Xanxus to heel.

None of them saw their pawns as people, stupid enough.

Just pawns for power-hungry older man to move around and use.