Joe Keery x reader ā-> where they meet in different occasions by complete coincidence (reader is not famous, knows of him but wouldnāt geek out bc heās a normal person just like everybody else.) They eventually become friends ā> lovers
COINCIDENCE
joe keery x reader
desc - you and joe meet by coincidence, you also fell in love by coincidence.
val speaks - thanku sm for the request !!! i noticed u recently sent it again bc i took so long lol im sorry about that but i hope u love it ily !
it wasnāt your usual place, but the wind outside had picked up enough to make the decision for you. the line was long, people shaking rain from their coats and checking their phones while they waited. you ordered whatever sounded warmest and stepped aside, scanning for somewhere to sit.
every table was full except for one open chair at a long shared table near the window. a guy sat beside it, hunched slightly over a coffee, absentmindedly tapping his spoon against the rim like he was stuck thinking about something.
āsorry" you said, gesturing to the chair. āis anyone sitting here?ā
he looked up quickly, like he hadnāt expected to be spoken to. āno, youāre good.ā
you noticed people looking over after a few minutes. not staring exactly, just lingering glances. one girl slowed down as she passed, clearly trying not to be obvious about it.
you followed her line of sight without thinking and looked at the guy next to you again.
messy hair, familiar face.
it took a second, then recognition settled in quietly. youād seen him before, a show you watched with friends, clips online, interviews popping up now and then. joe keery.
you looked away again just as quickly, more surprised by running into someone recognisable in such a normal place than anything else. he seemed to notice the moment of recognition though, his posture shifted slightly, like he was waiting for something.
instead, you peeled the lid off your cup and frowned at it. ātheyāve given me oat milk againā you muttered mostly to yourself. āi didnāt ask for oat milk.ā
he let out a small laugh beside you, tension easing a little. āhappens to me every time. think they just guess.ā
ātastes like someone described milk from memory,ā you said, taking a cautious sip anyway.
he smiled at that, properly this time. āthatās⦠accurate, actually.ā
there was a pause, comfortable enough that conversation felt optional. after a minute he said, āiām joeā in the polite, automatic way people introduce themselves when theyāve already been sitting next to someone too long not to.
you nodded. āyeah, i know.ā
he glanced at you, waiting, maybe for excitement, maybe for the usual follow-up, but you just shrugged slightly.
āhope that doesnāt make it weird,ā you added. āiām not gonna pretend i havenāt seen stranger things.ā
he laughed under his breath, more relieved than amused. āfair enough.ā
the conversation drifted from there without much effort. nothing important, complaining about how busy everywhere felt lately, how hard it was to find somewhere quiet to sit, how everyone suddenly seemed to be in a rush all the time. he talked normally, without the careful phrasing people sometimes used when they knew they were being watched, and you responded the same way you would with anyone sharing your table.
every now and then someone passing by would look twice. you noticed it mostly because he noticed it, small shifts in his attention, brief moments where he seemed to pull inward.
ādoes that get tiring?ā you asked eventually, not prying, just curious.
he hesitated before answering. āyeah. sometimes more than others.ā
you nodded, like that made complete sense. because it did.
āwell,ā you said, adjusting your sleeve around your cup, āat least no one hereās asking you to sing or anything.ā
he smiled faintly. āgive it time.ā
you checked your phone a while later and swore quietly under your breath. you were meant to be somewhere ten minutes ago.
āiāve gotta goā you said, standing and pulling your coat back on.
he looked up. āyeah, of course.ā
ānice meeting youā you added, and you meant it in the simple way you say it after an unexpectedly pleasant conversation with a stranger.
āyou tooā he said.
you left without thinking much of it, already focused on being late and the cold waiting outside again.
joe stayed at the table a little longer, staring at his coffee after youād gone. it wasnāt that anything big had happened, it was just⦠normal. no careful reactions, no awkward excitement, no feeling like he had to match an expectation.
just a conversation.
and somehow that stuck with him longer than he expected.
-
work was slow in the worst way, not quiet enough to relax, not busy enough for time to move quickly. just a steady line of people, the beep of the scanner repeating over and over until it felt stuck in your head.
youād been on the till for hours when a customer came up already looking annoyed. she dropped her shopping onto the counter like it had personally offended her.
āthese are meant to be discountedā she said immediately.
you checked the screen. āthe offerās on the bigger size, sorry.ā
she sighed loudly. āwell thatās confusing, isnāt it?ā
you gave the standard retail smile, the one that wasnāt really a smile but passed well enough. you explained again. she disagreed again. the queue behind her shuffled impatiently while she kept going back and forth about it like you had any control over pricing.
eventually she paid, still muttering, grabbed her bags, and walked off shaking her head.
the second she was gone, you exhaled hard and rubbed your face.
āit is never that seriousā you muttered under your breath.
someone laughed quietly in front of you.
you looked up and froze for a second.
joe stood there holding a shopping basket, looking mildly apologetic for overhearing but also clearly amused.
āsorry,ā he said. ājust got the full performance while waiting.ā
you huffed a small laugh despite yourself. āyou missed last week when someone argued with me about bananas for ten minutes.ā
ābananas feel like a losing battle.ā
āalways are.ā
you started scanning his items, falling back into autopilot. seeing him again felt weirdly normal after the initial surprise, more like running into someone you vaguely knew rather than a big coincidence.
āyou work here full time?ā he asked.
āyeah. thrilling, i know.ā
he shrugged. āhonestly seems harder than what i do.ā
you glanced up briefly. ādoubt that.ā
āno, iām serious. nobody yells at me about cereal prices.ā
āgive it time.ā
he smiled a little at that, resting his hands on the counter while you kept scanning. it wasnāt awkward, just easy conversation filling the space while you worked.
ādidnāt expect to run into you againā he said after a moment.
āsame,ā you said. āalthough this is the closest supermarket, so you were bound to appear eventually.ā
āgood to know iām predictable.ā
you bagged the last of his shopping and told him the total. he paid, then hesitated slightly instead of moving away straight after.
ācan i ask something without making it weird?ā he said.
ādepends,ā you replied. ābut go on.ā
he laughed softly. āwould you wanna swap numbers? just as friends,ā he added quickly. āyouāre easy to talk to, and i donāt really know many people around here yet.ā
it sounded straightforward, not overly serious, which made it feel normal.
you grabbed a spare receipt and wrote your number down.
āyeah, thatās fineā you said, handing it over.
he smiled, folding the paper and putting it in his pocket.
someone behind him cleared their throat, and he stepped aside, picking up his bags.
āsee youā he said.
āyeah, see you.ā
you moved straight onto the next customer, the shift continuing like nothing had happened.
a few minutes later, during a quiet gap, your phone buzzed in your pocket.
you shook your head slightly, smiling without meaning to, and slipped your phone away as the next person walked up.
āhi,ā you said automatically. ādo you need a bag?ā
-
you didnāt expect texting him to feel so normal.
it started casually, a few messages about work, him complaining about attempting to cook something that turned out badly, you sending a picture of the storeās aggressively early holiday display. nothing deep, just conversation that picked up whenever one of you had a free moment.
a few days passed like that before your phone buzzed again while you were on your break.
joe: Okay random question
joe: Can we hang out on purpose this time
you smiled at the screen before replying.
you: bold conceptyou: yeah, that sounds nice
you settled on meeting in central park a couple days later. nothing fancy, just a time and a rough spot near one of the paths. when you arrived, the park was busy in that calm way it always was. people walking dogs, runners passing by, someone playing music somewhere in the distance.
joe was already there, sitting on a bench with two coffees beside him. he stood when he saw you, giving a small wave like he wasnāt entirely sure whether to go for a hug or not.
āhiā he said.
āhi,ā you replied, sitting down. āyou brought coffee. good start.ā
āi remembered your oat milk trauma,ā he said seriously. āchecked twice.ā
it didnāt feel like interviewing a celebrity or trying to impress someone. just two people comparing lives that happened to look very different on paper.
at one point a group walked past and clearly recognised him, whispering to each other as they went. he noticed, but it didnāt interrupt anything. you kept talking about a terrible movie youād watched recently, and after a second he relaxed again, attention drifting back to the conversation instead of the attention around him.
āthis is niceā he said eventually, almost like heād just realised it.
āyeah,ā you agreed. āturns out planning to meet works pretty well.ā
he laughed quietly, leaning back against the bench. the sun kept disappearing behind clouds, the air cool but not uncomfortable.
you ended up walking for a bit after finishing your drinks, no real destination, just following whichever path looked less crowded. conversation dipped in and out naturally, sometimes talking, sometimes just walking without needing to fill the silence.
it felt easy. familiar already, somehow.
after a while you stopped near the edge of the park, watching people cross the street outside.
āiām glad you didnāt freak out when we first metā he said suddenly.
you glanced at him. āi feel like that wouldāve been embarrassing for both of us.ā
āprobably,ā he admitted. ābut also⦠itās just nice being treated normal.ā
you shrugged lightly. āyou are normal. you just have a weird job.ā
he smiled at that, looking down for a second.
āwe should do this again,ā he said.
āyeah,ā you said. āwe should.ā
you headed home later with tired legs and the lingering feeling of having spent the day well, while your phone buzzed before youād even reached your stop.
joe: Next time iām picking where we go
you typed back before the subway doors even closed.
you: ambitious. iāll judge accordingly
-
somewhere along the way, hanging out stopped feeling like plans and just became routine.
it had been a few months since the grocery store coincidence, and seeing joe was as normal as meeting up with anyone else. sometimes it was coffee before your shift, sometimes late walks when heād been stuck inside all day, sometimes just sitting around doing nothing in particular because neither of you felt like going home yet.
you didnāt really notice when the friendship settled into place, it just did.
your phone buzzed one afternoon while you were restocking shelves.
joe: Free later? I escaped work early
you: escaped makes it sound illegal
you smiled to yourself and typed back a quick yes before shoving your phone back into your pocket as your manager walked past.
later that evening you found him outside your building, leaning against the wall with two takeaway bags.
āyou look exhaustedā he said instead of hello.
āi am exhausted,ā you replied, taking one of the bags. āis this food?ā
āfigured you wouldnāt have eaten yet.ā
you started walking without really deciding where to go, the familiar rhythm of it automatic now. conversations picked up halfway through topics like they always did, no catching up needed because you already knew the small details of each otherās days.
he told you about a long recording session, how one song refused to sound right no matter what they tried. you told him about a customer who insisted coupons from five years ago should still count. both stories were delivered with the same level of seriousness.
at some point you ended up sitting on a low wall near the park, eating and watching people pass by.
by now conversations slipped easily between joking and quieter moments without feeling forced. there were stretches where neither of you said anything, just existing in the same space comfortably.
fame came up sometimes, but less and less. youād gotten used to occasional double takes or someone asking him for a photo when you were out. he handled it, you waited, and then conversation just continued afterward like nothing had happened.
it stopped feeling unusual.
āi forget sometimes that we met randomlyā he said after a while.
āme tooā you said. "feels like we've known each other a while now"
it did. you knew his coffee order now, the way he got quiet when he was thinking about music, the specific sarcastic tone he used when he was tired. he knew which shifts you hated most, when you needed distraction versus when you just wanted company.
nothing about it felt complicated. just steady.
āiāve got a demo of something iāve been working on,ā he said, pulling his phone out. ādonāt feel obligated to like it.ā
āi will be brutally honestā you said.
āthatās exactly why iām playing it for you.ā
you listened through one earbud while he watched your reaction like it mattered more than he wanted to admit. the song was good.
āokay,ā you said when it ended. āi actually like that.ā
āāactuallyā feels backhanded.ā
āi mean it as encouragement.ā
he smiled, looking relieved anyway.
the sky had started getting darker without either of you noticing. streetlights flickered on, people heading home around you.
āyou knowā you said, standing up and brushing crumbs off your hands, āwe hang out more than i see most people iāve known for years.ā
āyeah,ā he said, standing too. āi was thinking that.ā
you started walking again, falling into step beside each other automatically.
ācoffee tomorrow?ā he asked.
ābefore work?ā
āobviously.ā
you sighed dramatically. āfine. but youāre paying.ā
āi always pay.ā
āand yet i still expect it.ā
he laughed, and the conversation moved on to something else entirely before you even reached the end of the street.
by now, spending time together didnāt feel like coincidence anymore.
it just felt normal.
-
you didnāt notice the change all at once.
it wasnāt like anything big happened. there wasnāt a moment where everything suddenly felt different. things just started feeling⦠slightly off in a way you couldnāt explain. not bad, just more noticeable.
you became more aware of small things.
how close he stood when you walked through crowded streets. how easily conversations stretched late into the night without either of you wanting to leave. how heād started texting you first thing in the morning sometimes, not about plans or anything important, just random thoughts that couldāve waited but didnāt.
you told yourself it was normal. you were close friends. thatās what happened.
still, something sat quietly in the back of your mind.
that evening you were at his place for the first time in a while, sitting cross-legged on the floor while music played softly from his speakers. takeout containers were spread across the coffee table, half finished because youād spent more time talking than eating.
he was showing you different versions of a song heād been working on, switching between recordings while explaining tiny differences you probably wouldnāt have noticed on your own.
āokay, listen to this partā he said, leaning closer so you could hear better through the laptop speakers.
you leaned in too, shoulders brushing without either of you moving away. it wasnāt unusual but this time you noticed it. the warmth, the fact neither of you shifted to make space. the song ended, but neither of you pulled back right away.
āthat oneās better" you said quietly.
he didnāt answer immediately.
when you looked over, he was already looking at you.
not in a joking way, not mid-conversation. just⦠looking. like heād forgotten what he was about to say.
the room felt suddenly quieter even though the music was still playing.
you became very aware of how close you were sitting. his arm resting beside yours, your knees touching. neither of you moved, but the pause stretched longer than normal conversation allowed.
his eyes flicked briefly to your mouth before coming back up again.
and for a second, it felt obvious what was about to happen.
you both leaned in slightly at the same time, hesitant, like neither of you were fully committing yet, just testing whether the other would move away.
then his phone rang.
loud. sudden. aggressively normal.
both of you pulled back immediately, like the moment had snapped in half.
he blinked, grabbing his phone off the table. āsorry- i should probably take this.ā
āyeahā you said quickly, sitting back and reaching for your drink even though you werenāt thirsty.
he stepped into the other room to answer, voice low, while you stared at absolutely nothing and tried to act like your heart hadnāt just sped up for no reason.
you told yourself it hadnāt meant anything. moments get weird sometimes. people misread things. it was late, you were tired, youād just been sitting too close.
completely normal.
when he came back a few minutes later, the energy had shifted in a way neither of you addressed. conversation picked up again, but more carefully, like you were both avoiding stepping back into whatever had almost happened.
you left earlier than you usually did, both of you pretending that wasnāt intentional.
ātext me when you get homeā he said at the door, the same way he always did.
āyeah, i will.ā
the walk home felt longer than usual.
the next few days were⦠slightly weird.
not bad. just off.
you still texted, but replies took longer. conversations stayed safer, nothing that lingered too long in silence. you both acted like nothing had changed, which somehow made it more obvious that something had.
you caught yourself rereading messages before sending them, which youād never done with him before.
he cancelled one plan because of work, which was normal, except you overthought it anyway.
by the third day, you were annoyed at yourself for even thinking about it. it had almost been a kiss. almost. that didnāt mean anything had to change.
still, when your phone lit up that evening with his name, your stomach did an annoying little flip.
joe: Are you working tomorrow?
you stared at the message for a second before replying.
you: afternoon shift. why?
a minute passed.
joe: Can i come by after?
joe:Feels like i havenāt seen you properly this week
you exhaled slowly without realizing youād been holding your breath.
you: yeah. thatās fine
you locked your phone, leaning back against the couch.
nothing had been said yet. nothing defined. but the space between friendship and something else suddenly felt a lot smaller than it used to.
and you werenāt entirely sure which side of it you were standing on anymore.
-
your shift felt longer than usual.
nothing actually went wrong, but you kept checking the clock more than normal, distracted in a way you couldnāt quite shake. every quiet moment gave your brain space to replay the almost-kiss again.
by the time you got home, you were tired enough to hope maybe youād imagined the tension entirely.
youād barely kicked your shoes off when there was a knock at the door.
joe stood there holding a takeaway bag and looking slightly unsure of himself, like heād reconsidered coming over halfway through but committed anyway.
āhiā he said.
āhiā you replied, stepping aside to let him in.
the usual ease was there, but thinner somehow. both of you aware of it without mentioning it. he set the food down, talking immediately about traffic, about how long it took to decide what to order, about accidentally walking past your building the first time because he wasnāt paying attention.
you nodded along, recognising nervous energy when you saw it.
you sat on the couch with your food, the tv on quietly in the background though neither of you watched it. conversation kept starting and stopping, small pauses stretching just a second longer than they normally would.
he laughed at something you said, then went quiet again, rubbing the back of his neck.
āokay,ā he said suddenly. āthis is weird, right?ā
you let out a small breath. āa little, yeah.ā
he nodded quickly, almost relieved youād said it first. āi hate it. i hate that itās weird.ā
you waited, sensing he had more to say.
he leaned forward, elbows on his knees, staring at his hands for a second like he was trying to organize thoughts that refused to cooperate.
āiāve been overthinking everything since the other night,ā he admitted. ālike⦠every conversation weāve had. which is annoying because i never used to do that with you. you were the one person i didnāt feel weird around.ā
his words came faster as he kept going, nervous humour slipping in between sentences.
āand i tried to just pretend nothing happened, but then it felt worse because obviously something happened. or almost happened. and then i thought maybe i imagined it and you didnāt, which somehow made it more stressful.ā
you smiled slightly despite yourself, watching him ramble.
he glanced up briefly, then kept talking, momentum carrying him.
āand the thing is- i think iāve liked you for a while. like⦠longer than i realised. it just didnāt hit me all at once. it was stupid small things.ā
he laughed softly at himself.
ālike how you always complain before your early shifts but still show up with coffee for other people anyway. or how you refuse to admit when you actually like a song until the third time you hear it. or the way you talk to strangers like theyāre already your friends.ā
he shook his head, smiling faintly.
āi started noticing that i remembered everything you told me. random stuff. stories you probably donāt even remember saying. and then suddenly i was looking forward to seeing you more than anything else, that probably shouldāve been a sign.ā
you felt your chest tighten slightly, but he kept going, words spilling out faster now.
āand after that night, when things got weird⦠i hated it. i hated not texting you normally. i hated feeling like i messed something up.ā he exhaled, laughing nervously.
he finally looked directly at you, expression softer now but still unsure.
āi just keep thinking i shouldāve kissed you,ā he said quietly. āand i didnāt, and now iāve been replaying it like an idiot all week.ā
he started talking again immediately, almost backtracking.
ānot that you had to want that- i mean, obviously, if you didnāt then thatās completely fine, i just-ā
you leaned forward and kissed him.
it wasnāt dramatic or rushed. just enough to stop the words mid-sentence.
he froze for half a second, clearly surprised, before relaxing into it, one hand coming up instinctively to steady against your arm like he needed to make sure it was actually happening.
when you pulled back, he blinked at you, processing.
āokay,ā he said softly, a small, almost disbelieving laugh escaping him. āthat works too.ā
you smiled. āyou were talking in circles.ā
āyeahā
the awkwardness that had hung between you all week seemed to dissolve all at once, replaced by something warmer but still familiar. not a huge shift, just the same comfort layered with something new.
he shook his head slightly, still smiling.
āi had, like, ten more examples ready,ā he said. āfully committed to the speech.ā
āyou can save them,ā you said. āfor later.ā
he leaned back into the couch, shoulders finally relaxed again.
āgood,ā he said. "i feel way better now.ā
you did too.
this time, when silence settled between you, it wasnāt awkward at all.
-
dating joe didnāt feel like starting something new so much as continuing something that already worked.
the biggest difference was mostly in the background details. his hoodie permanently ending up at your place. your toothbrush appearing in his bathroom without either of you officially deciding it should. plans becoming assumptions instead of questions. you coming over after work, him waiting downstairs when your shift ended, weekends blending together because neither of you bothered making separate ones anymore.
you still spent most of your time doing ordinary things. grocery shopping together turned into debates over snacks neither of you needed. heād play you pieces of music while you sat on the kitchen counter, pretending to judge seriously even when you already liked it. youād tell him stories from work that somehow became funnier every time you retold them.
it stayed easy. that was the thing you both noticed most.
there wasnāt pressure to be impressive or romantic all the time. some days you barely did anything at all, just existing in the same space, comfortable enough to be quiet.
over the next few months, life settled into a rhythm that made everything else feel lighter. bad days didnāt stick as long. good ones felt better because there was always someone to share them with. somewhere along the way, you realised you were happier than youād been in a long time, and judging by how often joe smiled lately, he probably felt the same.
that evening the air was warm enough to leave the balcony door open.
you were at his place, music drifting softly from inside while the city buzzed below in that distant, steady way it always did at night. you sat sideways across his lap on the balcony chair, one of his arms loosely around your waist while you absentmindedly played with the sleeve of his hoodie.
neither of you were talking much. it had been a long day for both of you, and the quiet felt earned rather than empty.
he seemed distracted though. not distant, just thoughtful. you noticed it in the way his thumb traced slow circles against your side, like he was working himself up to saying something.
ācan i tell you something without you making fun of me?ā he asked eventually.
you glanced up at him. ādepends entirely on what it is.ā
he laughed under his breath, nervous enough that you felt it in the way his chest moved behind you.
āsee, this is why i hesitated,ā he said, shaking his head slightly. he looked out over the street for a moment before continuing. āiāve been trying to figure out how to say this for like⦠two weeks.ā
that got your attention.
he shifted slightly, one hand coming up to rub the back of his neck. a habit youād learned meant he was genuinely nervous.
āand i know weāre already⦠us,ā he added quickly, gesturing vaguely between you. āso itās not like anything needs to change. i just- i keep almost saying it and then overthinking it.ā
you waited, heart picking up a little at the uncertainty in his voice.
he exhaled slowly, finally meeting your eyes.
āi love youā he said, quieter now, like admitting it felt bigger once it was actually spoken. āi didnāt want to make it a whole thing or freak you out or say it at a weird time, butā¦i really do.ā
for a second he looked almost embarrassed after saying it, a small nervous smile pulling at his mouth like he wasnāt sure what reaction to expect.
your expression softened immediately.
you leaned closer, brushing a hand along his cheek.
āyou couldāve just said itā you said gently.
āi knowā he admitted.
you smiled, pressing a soft kiss to his lips before answering.
āi love you too.ā
the tension left his shoulders so visibly it made you laugh quietly. he let out a breath heād clearly been holding, pulling you closer against him.
āokay,ā he said, half smiling. āgood. i was like⦠ninety percent sure.ā
āonly ninety?ā
ālike to stay realistic.ā
you shook your head, settling back against him while his arms wrapped around you again, steadier now.
the city lights flickered below, the night calm and unhurried around you.
and for the first time in a long while, everything felt completely settled, like youād both quietly arrived somewhere you wanted to stay.
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Summary: You wake after nine months, and everything feels unfamiliar, except him. Together, you relearn life, love, and what it means to come home.
Word count: 22k+ ( omg sorry)
Warnings: angst, emotional trauma and grief, physical and emotional rehabilitation, fluff, happy ending
A/N:
this is part 2 of honey? , so I would recommend reading that first xx
English is not my first language, so I apologize if I made any (grammar) mistakes. Feedback, requests, talks, vents, recommendations or just simple questions are always welcome.
Not my greatest work, so I apologize
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You woke to the sound of rain.
Soft and steady, it whispered against the window like an old song you almost remembered. Each drop sounded far away, like the world itself was trying to remind you of something ā of before.
The room around you was gray and hushed, the kind of quiet that didnāt feel peaceful but unnervingly still. For a long, long moment, you couldnāt place where you were. The air felt too clean, too sharp. Your chest rose, fell ā and even that felt strange, wrong, foreign.
You felt heavy ā too heavy ā as though your bones had been filled with sand. Your limbs didnāt feel like your own. Your fingers were stiff, your skin tight and paper-thin, every nerve slow to remember what it meant to exist. A dull ache lingered deep in your muscles, like youād been holding still for centuries.
You drew in a shallow breath, and even that burned faintly, scratching the back of your throat. Your lips were dry, cracked. The world smelled faintly of antiseptic and something metallic ā the sterile tang of hospital air ā but beneath it, something else.
Lavender.
Soft, faint, almost hidden beneath everything else.
That scent tugged at something deep inside you. A memory trying to surface. You used toā you used to spray that every night before bed, didnāt you? A little mist on the pillow. It made him smile.
Him.
The thought flickered by before you could grasp it, vanishing like smoke.
Your eyelids fluttered open, slow and uncertain. Light flooded your vision, too bright, too white, blurring into halos until your eyes watered. You squinted against it, trying to focus. The ceiling above you was a dull, sterile gray. Shadows moved somewhere in the periphery ā machines maybe, faint green lights blinking in rhythm.
A sound reached you then ā steady, methodical. Beep⦠beep⦠beep.
You turned your head toward it instinctively. Pain flared up the side of your neck, sharp and sudden, forcing a small, broken sound from your throat.
It startled you. The sound itself ā rough and alien, like it didnāt belong to you.
Your heart rate jumped, the monitor beeping faster, louder. Panic clawed its way up your chest. Your breathing hitched, ragged. You couldnāt move. You couldnāt remember why you couldnāt move. You tried to lift your arm, but it was like trying to lift a mountain. Your hand twitched weakly, IV lines pulling at the skin.
Tears stung your eyes, unbidden.
Where am I? What happened to me?
You swallowed hard, your throat dry as sandpaper, and tried to speak. Nothing came out. Just another faint, hoarse noise ā a ghost of a word that never formed.
A wave of nausea hit next, dizzying and sharp. The edges of your vision pulsed in and out. Your pulse raced so fast it hurt. The panic built with each second of not knowing, of not understanding.
You blinked again, trying to anchor yourself ā the wall to your left, the rain outside, the faint hum of fluorescent lights above. It all felt like a dream stitched together wrong.
Then ā footsteps.
Soft ones. Quick. Familiar.
A womanās voice cut gently through the haze. āHeyā hey, easy now, sweetheart. Youāre okay. Youāre safe.ā
You turned your head toward the sound, blinking through the blur until you saw her ā a nurse, mid-thirties maybe, eyes wide and kind. Her name badge caught the light: Ramirez. She moved quickly to your side, hand landing gently on your wrist. āItās alright. Donāt try to move too fast. Youāve been asleep for a while.ā
Asleep? The word didnāt fit. This wasnāt sleep. Sleep didnāt steal time.
Did it?
You tried to form words again, but all that came out was a rasp. āWhāwhereā¦?ā
Ramirez leaned closer, her expression softening. āYouāre in Metropolis General,ā she said quietly. āYou were in an accident, but youāre safe now. Youāre in good hands, okay? Just try to stay calm for me.ā
Your heart pounded so hard it hurt. āWhat⦠what happened?ā
Then a doctor came in, exchanged a brief, heavy glance with the nurse ā the kind of look people share when they know the truth is going to hurt. Then he stepped closer, the lines around his eyes softening. His voice dropped, careful, cautious ā the way someone speaks when holding fragile glass.
āYou were in a car accident,ā he said quietly. āDo you remember that?ā
You stared at him, blank at first ā then, like a film reel burning to life, images flashed behind your eyes:
Headlights.
A blaring horn.
A scream ā maybe yours.
The screech of tires on wet asphalt.
Then⦠nothing.
A yawning blackness where time should have been.
Your lips parted. āI⦠I think so.ā The words barely made it out, rough and shaky.
The doctor nodded slowly. āYouāve been in a coma.ā
The world seemed to pause.
He hesitated ā just long enough for the dread to coil in your chest ā before adding, āFor nine months.ā
The words didnāt land all at once. They just hung there, echoing in the sterile air, unreal. You blinked. Once. Twice. Waiting for him to take it back, to say youād misheard, to laugh and tell you it had only been days.
āNine⦠months?ā you whispered.
He nodded, and the nurseās eyes softened, full of quiet sympathy.
āNo,ā you said, voice cracking as you shook your head. āNo, that canātā Iā thatās almost a year.ā Your throat tightened, panic rising like fire through your chest. āNine months?!ā
The beeping from the monitor quickened, matching your racing pulse.
āItās okay,ā the nurse murmured, stepping closer, her hand light against your arm. āYouāre safe now. Youāre awake.ā
Awake.
The word felt foreign in your mouth. Nine months later.
The tears came before you could stop them ā hot and fast. They slipped down your cheeks, soaking into the stiff pillow beneath your head. Nine months of nothing. Nine months gone.
The weight of it hit you all at once ā not just time lost, but life.
Birthdays. Seasons. Stories that unfolded without you.
You imagined the city moving on ā people laughing, living, the world spinning forward ā while you lay here, motionless, forgotten beneath white sheets and fluorescent light.
āI⦠I lost nine months?ā The words sounded so small. So afraid.
The doctor nodded gently. āYour body needed time to heal,ā he said softly. āYour injuries were significant, but you pulled through. Your scans look good now. Youāre very lucky.ā
Lucky.
The word cut like glass. You didnāt feel lucky. You felt robbed ā hollowed out by absence. You felt like a ghost waking up in a world that had dared to keep going without you.
Your voice broke as you whispered, āDoes⦠does he know?ā
The nurse frowned slightly, glancing between you and the doctor. āWho, sweetheart?ā
You swallowed hard, your mouth dry, every breath trembling. āClark,ā you rasped. The name came out cracked, raw, but it anchored you ā a lifeline in a sea of confusion. āMy boyfriend. Clark Kent. Heāhe needs to know.ā
You tried to sit up, desperate to do something, but pain exploded through your ribs, white-hot and immediate. You gasped, your body folding in on itself.
āHey, hey,ā the nurse said quickly, steadying you with gentle hands. āEasy, honey. Donāt strain yourself.ā
You shook your head weakly, tears spilling faster. āPlease,ā you whispered. āI need him. I need Clark. Someoneāsomeone get me a phone.ā
The desperation in your voice silenced the room. Even the steady beeping seemed to fade beneath it. For a long moment, no one moved ā until the doctor exhaled quietly and nodded.
The nurse hurried to the counter, grabbing her phone with careful hands. āAlright,ā she said softly, āletās call him.ā
Your hands trembled so violently you could barely keep them steady as she handed you the phone. The plastic was cold against your skin, and you could hear your pulse in your ears ā a frantic, uneven rhythm.
āDo you want me to dial for you?ā the nurse asked gently.
You nodded, unable to trust your voice. āPlease.ā
She glanced at your chart ā at the emergency contact written in neat black ink ā the same number that had been called hundreds of times over the months, the same man who had never once missed a visiting hour. Her fingers moved quickly over the keypad.
The phone rang.
Once.
Twice.
Three times.
Your breath hitched. The ringing filled the room like thunder. Then ā
āHello?ā
His voice.
That voice.
It was tired. Trembling. Rough in a way that spoke of sleepless nights and too many tears swallowed down. But beneath it, achingly familiar ā warm, deep, steady. Home.
Something inside you broke open. The tears that came now werenāt just grief ā they were everything at once: relief, disbelief, love so sharp it hurt.
Your lips quivered, and your voice barely made it past your throat, soft and shaking and full of everything you couldnāt say all at once.
āHoney?ā
Clark didnāt remember leaving the office.
One moment, he was standing at his desk ā frozen, the phone trembling violently in his hand, your voice echoing through the line like something pulled straight out of a dream ā and the next, he was moving.
Fast. Reckless.
His chair crashed to the floor behind him, papers scattering like startled birds. His heart was a thunderstorm in his chest ā pounding, wild, disbelieving ā his breath coming out in ragged bursts that didnāt seem to reach his lungs. His whole body felt electric, alive, and yet completely untethered.
He stumbled through the bullpen like a man possessed.
āClark?ā Loisās voice cut through the noise, sharp and startled as she shot up from her chair. āClark, whatā?ā
But he didnāt hear her.
Didnāt hear Jimmy calling after him, or Perryās booming voice demanding to know where he was going. Their words were muffled, meaningless ā ghosts of sound drowned out by the echo still ringing in his head.
Your voice.
āHoney?ā
It didnāt even sound possible. And yet it had been so real.
His vision tunneled, narrowing to a single, impossible truth. You were awake. You were awake.
He didnāt bother with the elevator. Didnāt even register the stairs. One moment he was in the newsroom ā the next, he was outside, air whipping against his face, the wind roaring in his ears. His tie flew loose behind him, his glasses askew, his chest burning with adrenaline and disbelief.
The city blurred beneath him, colors smearing into streaks of gray and gold. Traffic lights, rooftops, clouds ā all of it passing in a dizzying rush. He didnāt care. He didnāt think. He didnāt stop.
By the time the red cross of Metropolis General came into view, his heart felt like it might split open from the sheer force of it ā fear, hope, exhaustion, love ā all colliding in one unbearable explosion.
He landed outside the entrance hard enough that his knees buckled slightly. His hands were shaking as he pushed through the doors, the automatic glass panels parting with a hiss.
The sterile air hit him immediately ā that sharp, antiseptic smell that had haunted him for months. It was the scent of heartbreak, of sleepless nights and whispered prayers, of you.
He was still catching his breath when he reached the front desk. The world around him felt both impossibly fast and agonizingly slow. Every step echoed too loud. Every second felt like forever.
The nurse at the counter looked up.
Nora.
He knew her name by heart. She was one of the nurses who always smiled at him when he showed up after visiting hours with flowers in his hand. The one who left him a spare blanket when he fell asleep in the chair beside your bed.
Her expression softened the instant she saw him.
āMr. Kent,ā she said softly, like she was afraid if she spoke too loud, the moment would break.
Clark stopped in front of the counter, breathless, disheveled, eyes red-rimmed and shining. His voice came out rough, broken, his chest heaving. āPlease,ā he rasped, barely above a whisper. āPlease tell me Iām not hallucinating.ā His throat worked, swallowing hard. āPleaseātell me sheāsāā
Noraās smile trembled, her eyes bright with tears she didnāt try to hide.
āSheās awake, sweetie,ā she said simply, voice warm and soft as sunlight. āSheās asking for you.ā
For a heartbeat, the world went completely still.
Clark froze. His breath hitched. He blinked once, twice ā as if the words were too big, too good to be real. His vision blurred instantly, tears spilling before he even realized he was crying. His hand flew to his mouth, stifling the sound that tore out of him ā a choked, helpless laugh that cracked in half halfway through.
āOh my Godā¦ā he breathed, his voice shaking so violently it barely held together. He pressed the heel of his hand against his chest, like he could hold his heart in place. āOh my God.ā
The nurse laughed softly, eyes glistening. ā You know the room number. Go on.ā
He didnāt need to be told twice.
He was running before the words even finished leaving her lips ā through the halls he knew by memory, past the familiar posters and white walls and flickering lights. His footsteps echoed off the linoleum, fast, frantic, unsteady.
People turned as he passed ā a blur of motion and tears and the faint, desperate sound of his breath catching on the edge of a sob.
And for the first time in nine months, Clark Kent wasnāt running from something.
He was running home.
He didnāt take the elevator. He didnāt trust it.
Every second mattered, and yet every step felt like an eternity. His shoes pounded against the stairs, echoing up the narrow, sterile stairwell. His legs burned, his lungs screamed, but he didnāt care. He could have torn through concrete if it meant getting to you faster. People moved out of his way as he flew past, their startled glances lost on him ā just a blur of motion and desperation in a wrinkled shirt and tear-streaked face.
By the time he reached the third floor, his chest hurt from running ā but it wasnāt the physical ache that stopped him. It was something deeper, older, heavier. A kind of pain and love that had lived inside him for months, clawing at the edges of his heart, and now had nowhere to go.
He stumbled to a stop.
Room 306.
He knew the number like he knew his own name. That little brass plaque had been burned into his memory ā the place where hope had lived and died and lived again. How many nights had he sat just inside that door, voice hoarse from reading, whispering into the quiet, begging for something, anything?
And nowā¦
Now it was real.
He stood frozen in the hall, one trembling hand hovering over the handle. His breath came in shallow, uneven bursts. He could hear his own heartbeat pounding in his ears, loud and fast and almost unbearable.
What if this wasnāt real?
What if this was another cruel dream ā another nightmare where youād vanish the second he reached for you?
His vision blurred with tears again. He pressed his palm flat against the cool metal of the door and whispered, so softly it barely carried,
āPlease be real. Pleaseā¦ā
Then, with a breath that shook all the way through him, he turned the handle.
The door creaked open.
And there you were.
Awake.
The world stopped moving.
Everything ā the beeping of the heart monitor, the hum of the machines, the faint hiss of the oxygen line, even the rain tapping softly against the window ā fell away until there was nothing left but you.
You were sitting up slightly, eyes half-open, blinking against the light. You looked so fragile, so impossibly small against the white sheets, but your chest rose and fell. Your eyes ā glassy, dazed, but alive ā found his, and in that instant, the universe righted itself.
āClarkā¦ā
The sound of his name ā your voice, your real voice, cracked and trembling but yours ā tore right through him.
He made a sound that didnāt belong to words ā a gasp, a sob, a prayer. He crossed the room in three long, uneven strides and dropped to his knees beside your bed like a man collapsing under the weight of a miracle. His hands shook violently as he reached for you but stopped short, inches away, afraid.
What if touching you made this all disappear?
But then your fingers ā weak, trembling, still marked by faint bruises that hadnāt quite faded ā brushed against his.
And the dam inside him broke.
A strangled laugh tore out of him, choked and wet, and before he could stop himself, he pressed your hand to his face, his forehead resting against your palm as his shoulders shook. He didnāt care that he was crying ā really crying, the way he hadnāt since the day theyād told him you might not make it.
You felt the warmth of his tears on your skin. The sound of his broken breathing filled the room.
āClark,ā you whispered again, your throat raw, the name barely audible. āYouāyou look so tiredā¦ā
He let out a breathless, shaky laugh that broke halfway through. āYou think?ā he whispered, voice rough and uneven. He turned his head just enough to meet your gaze, and the sight of him ā the red-rimmed eyes, the unshaven jaw, the exhaustion carved into every line of his face ā made your chest ache.
āYouāre here,ā he said hoarsely, voice wrecked beyond recognition. His breath hitched on the word here, like he still couldnāt make himself believe it. His eyes searched your face as though afraid you might dissolve right in front of him. āYouāre reallyāā His voice cracked, his throat closing around the last word. āYouāre here.ā
You blinked, tears spilling freely down your cheeks. āI am,ā you whispered, your voice soft and uneven, every word trembling with exhaustion. āIāIām so sorry, Clarkā¦ā
He shook his head almost violently, his hand trembling as it cupped your cheek with reverence, his thumb tracing the faint scar near your jaw like it was something sacred. āDonāt you dare apologize,ā he choked, his voice breaking open in the middle. āYou have nothing to be sorry for. Youāā His words faltered, his mouth twisting as another wave of emotion hit him. āI thought I lost you. I thoughtāā His breath caught sharply, his body trembling as he tried to speak, but nothing came out except a raw, broken sound that echoed in the quiet room.
You reached up with weak, trembling fingers, your touch feather-light as you brushed away one of his tears. āYou didnāt,ā you whispered, the words barely audible. Your lips curved into the faintest smile, fragile but real. āYou didnāt lose me.ā
Clark let out a shaky exhale ā something between a sob and a laugh ā and closed his eyes as if he could press the moment into his memory forever. His forehead pressed against your hand, his breath warm against your skin. āI prayed for this,ā he murmured, voice trembling, cracking. āEvery night. Iād sit here and tell myself that if I just kept believing, if I just held on long enough, youād come back to me.ā His shoulders shook. āAnd now youāre here, and Iāā He broke off again, laughing through his tears. āGod, I donāt even know if Iām awake right now.ā
You smiled faintly, though your own tears kept falling. āYou are,ā you whispered, voice so soft it could have been the rustle of air. You pressed your trembling hand over his chest, right where his heart was hammering against his ribs. āYouāre home.ā
Clarkās eyes opened slowly, and when he looked at you, it was like seeing sunlight after a year of darkness. His hand moved up to cradle your face ā tentative, shaking ā his thumb tracing over your bottom lip like he needed to feel every part of you to be sure you were real.
His voice was low, ragged. āYou have no idea how long Iāve waited to hear your voice again.ā
You smiled through your tears, and your voice broke on a quiet laugh. āThen donāt stop listening.ā
He couldnāt help it. The breath left him in a trembling sigh as he leaned forward, closing the distance between you. His lips met yours ā soft at first, almost hesitant, like he was afraid the world might shatter if he pushed too far. The kiss trembled between life and dream, full of disbelief and everything he hadnāt said for nine endless months.
Your lips moved against his, weak but real ā and the moment your mouth responded, even the smallest movement, a strangled sound escaped him. His hand slid to the back of your neck, his touch impossibly gentle, holding you like you were made of starlight and breath.
When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested against yours. His eyes were red, his lashes wet. His breath shook as he whispered, āI love you. God, I love you so much. You donāt know what it was like without you.ā
You gave him a small, tired smile, your thumb brushing a tear from his cheek. āI think I do,ā you whispered, voice faint but steady. āI think... I heard you. Sometimes. I donāt know how, but I did. Youād talk to me, tell me about your day, about the world, and IāI think thatās what brought me back.ā
Clark let out a breath that hitched halfway, his chest trembling under your hand. āYou heard me?ā he whispered, wonder threading through his voice.
You nodded weakly. āEvery time you said āI love you,ā I wanted to say it back. I just⦠couldnāt.ā
Clarkās eyes flooded again, his expression crumbling under the weight of it all. āYou donāt have to say it,ā he murmured, his voice low and raw. āIāve known it every single day. Every day you stayed, every breath you fought for. I knew.ā
He kissed your forehead this time, lingering, his lips shaking against your skin. āYou came back to me,ā he whispered. āYou really came back.ā
āI told you,ā you murmured softly, eyes fluttering shut from exhaustion. āYou didnāt lose me.ā
Clark stayed there, kneeling by your bedside, his forehead resting gently against yours, his arms carefully cradling you. He could feel your heartbeat ā faint, uneven, but alive ā beneath his hands. He closed his eyes, tears still slipping down his face.
āI waited for you, honey. I never stopped waiting.ā He whispered in your hair, like he was afraid to lose you again.
For the first time in nine months, Clark Kent let himself believe in miracles again.
Clark stayed kneeling there for what felt like forever, his fingers entwined with yours as if afraid that letting goāeven for a momentāwould undo everything. The machines hummed softly beside you, their rhythmic beeping like a fragile lullaby, reminding him that this was real. You were here. You were alive.
He whispered endlessly, words choked with disbelief and emotion.
I love you⦠I missed you⦠Youāre safe now.
Each syllable was a prayer, a confession, a vow, and he couldnāt stop the tears slipping down his cheeks. Every tiny motion of your hand against his face or the brush of your fingers sent him spiraling into awe and disbelief ā that you were really, truly back.
A soft knock on the door made both of you flinch. Clark blinked rapidly, reluctantly letting go of your hand enough to glance toward the sound. Dr. Patel stepped in, his white coat crisp against the muted hospital light. His kind eyes, though shadowed with fatigue, softened when he saw him.
āMr. Kent,ā he said quietly, offering a small, understanding smile. āI thought I might find you here.ā
Clark straightened slowly, one hand still clutching yours like a lifeline. āSheās awake,ā he rasped, his voice hoarse, trembling with disbelief. āSheās really awake.ā
Dr. Patelās expression softened further. āShe is. And thatās a miracle weāre all grateful for.ā He moved closer, checking your chart with careful efficiency, his movements gentle and considerate. āHow are you feeling?ā
You swallowed hard, your throat dry and raw. āLike⦠like Iāve been asleep for years,ā you murmured, blinking against the harsh light. You tried to offer a smile, but it was shaky and weak.
āThatās not far off,ā he said kindly, his lips curling in a faint, reassuring smile. āYouāve been in a coma for nine months. That takes a serious toll on the body. Your muscles have weakened ā youāll need time, and weāll start with short, careful physical therapy sessions. Small steps: sitting up, moving your legs, rebuilding your balance. Youāll get there.ā
You nodded faintly, the weight of her words pressing down on you. Nine months. Nine months of silence, absence, lost mornings and evenings. Hearing it aloud made it hurt in a new way, like a bruise pressed too hard. āNine months,ā you whispered, voice distant. āThe world kept moving⦠without me.ā
Clarkās hand squeezed yours tighter, thumb brushing your knuckles. āThe world waited for you,ā he said firmly, voice low but unwavering. You looked up at him, eyes glistening with tears, and he offered a tiny, trembling smile that spoke more than words could.
Dr. Patel nodded, sympathy deep in his gaze. āHeās right,ā he said gently. āBut I wonāt sugarcoat it ā waking up after so long⦠itās not just your body that needs healing. Your mind and your heart will too. You might feel confused, disoriented, or even grieve for the time thatās passed. Thatās completely normal.ā
You stared down at the blanket covering your legs, your voice just above a whisper. āGrief⦠for something I didnāt even get to lose consciously.ā
āExactly,ā Dr. Patel said softly. āItās a lot to process ā realizing how much has changed, trying to find your footing again. Iāll be referring you to a trauma therapist who specializes in coma recovery. Talking to someone will help.ā
Clark never let go of your hand, his thumb still brushing against yours. āShe wonāt have to face that alone,ā he said quietly. āIāll be here. Every single step.ā
Dr. Patel gave a small, sad smile, almost wistful. āI know you will. You always have been.ā He glanced at your chart one last time, then looked back at you. āYouāve already done the hardest part. You woke up. Everything else⦠Weāll face together.ā
You gave a weak, grateful smile, tears brimming again. āThank you,ā you whispered.
The doctor squeezed your shoulder gently. āIāll give you two a few more minutes. Then the nurse will come by to run some tests. Rest when you can ā your body needs it.ā
After he stepped out, the room seemed smaller somehow, the air quieter, softer. The rain outside whispered against the window, faintly silver in the gray light. Clark sank back into the chair beside your bed, still holding your hand like it might slip away if he loosened his grip.
āTherapy,ā you said after a pause, voice small. āI donāt⦠I donāt even know where to start.ā
He smiled faintly, eyes glistening, his thumb brushing over yours. āWeāll start with this,ā he said gently. āYou breathing. Me sitting here. One day at a time.ā
You looked at him, really looked ā at the exhaustion etched into his face, the faint shadows under his eyes, the lines carved by months of grief and sleepless nights, and at the love that had never dimmed. āYou waited for me,ā you whispered.
Clark let out a quiet laugh that broke halfway, shaking his head. āYou think I couldāve gone anywhere else?ā His voice cracked, low and trembling. āYouāre my whole world.ā
You reached up again, fingers brushing weakly against his cheek. āThen I guess I owe you nine months of sunrises,ā you murmured.
He leaned down slowly, reverent, and pressed a soft, trembling kiss to your forehead. āWeāll make up for every single one,ā he whispered, voice breaking against your skin. His hands lingered on your face, caressing, memorizing, worshipping every feature as though trying to engrave you into his memory forever.
You exhaled a faint laugh, fragile and raw. āPromise me weāll go slow,ā you whispered. āI⦠Iām not strong yet.ā
Clark shook his head softly, tears falling freely again, a mixture of awe, relief, and love. āWeāll go however you need, honey,ā he murmured. āIāll be with you every step. Iāve waited nine months to hear you say my name. Iāll wait as long as it takes for you to be okay.ā
You rested your hand over his heart, feeling it hammer with a force youād never fully realized before. āI feel it,ā you whispered. āAll of it. And⦠I missed you so much.ā
āI know,ā he breathed, pressing his forehead against yours once more, holding you like the world could never take you from him again. āI missed you every single day. Every single moment. And now youāre here. Thatās all that matters.ā
Your brow furrowed as you tried to catch your breath, the haze of sleep and months of unconsciousness still clinging to your mind. The hospital room felt simultaneously foreign and achingly familiarāthe soft hum of machines, the sterile scent of antiseptic, the faint lavender that reminded you of home. Your voice came out small, hoarse, trembling with both confusion and urgency.
āClark⦠I⦠I need to know,ā you whispered, fingers weakly clutching the bedsheets. āMy family⦠are they⦠okay? My parents⦠my brother?ā
Clarkās hand tightened around yours, a tremor running through his fingers as he swallowed hard. His eyes glistened, glinting with relief, exhaustion, and months of pent-up fear. āTheyāre⦠theyāve been⦠worried sick,ā he said, voice catching. āEvery single day. They came to see you⦠every chance they got. Your mom cried when she thought I wasnāt looking. Your Dad⦠he tried to be strong, but I know he prayed every night. And your brother⦠he waited outside the hospital doors so many times⦠just hoping youād wake up. Every single day. But eventually, they had to go back to Australia, for your brother's school. They will be over the moon when I call themā
Tears welled in your eyes as the weight of what you had missed pressed down on you. You tried to swallow, but your throat felt raw and heavy. āI⦠I missed so much,ā you whispered, voice breaking. āDid⦠anything⦠happen while I was⦠gone? Anything⦠bad?ā
Clark shook his head, though his lips trembled with the memory of the terror he had lived through each day. āNothing worse than⦠than the accident itself. I stayed with you. Every day. Every hour. I⦠I kept watch. I told you stories. I read to you. I brought little things I thought might comfort you⦠letters, snacks⦠even your coffee, exactly how you like it. I⦠I donāt think Iāve ever been so scared in my life.ā
Your hand lifted weakly, trembling as you reached for his face, brushing a faint trail over his cheek. āYou⦠you really didnāt give up on me. Even when I wasnāt⦠even when I couldnāt beā¦ā Your voice faltered, tears spilling freely now. āYou stayed.ā
Clark leaned down, forehead resting against yours, letting his tears mingle with yours. āNever. Not for a second. Youāre⦠youāre my world. Every single day without you⦠it was like the sun didnāt rise. I thought⦠I thought I had lost you. And I⦠I couldnāt live in that world.ā
Your chest tightened, your fingers clutching at him, desperate for some tether to the world you had just woken into. āAnd⦠my friends?ā you asked, voice small, fragile. ā Your friends? Lois, Jimmy, Cat⦠did theyā¦? Did they come?ā
Clarkās lips quivered, voice breaking as he recounted the months of devotion and waiting. āThey came. Every weekend, every holiday, every time they could. Sammy called every dayābecause you know she hates hospitals. Rachel kept bringing drawings of lilies, your favorite flower. Chris came every day to fill you in on celebrity gossip, so you wouldnāt miss out. Lois⦠she almost drove me crazy with her questions, insisting I take a break, that I eat, that I⦠sleep. Jimmy⦠brought every single photo he thought youād want to see. Every time you slept, heād bring a new memory. And Cat⦠she⦠she stayed too, even when she knew I wouldnāt leave your side. They all⦠they all waited, but I⦠I was here.ā
The truth of it hit you like a physical blow. Nine months. A lifetime spent unconscious. The world had kept moving without you, and yet, some thingsāsome peopleāhad not given up.
" I talked to you. Every single day. I told you about work, about Loisās latest headlines, Jimmyās photos, the things happening in the world⦠in our apartment. I⦠I even read books to you, like you always wanted. I wanted you to come back to a world that hadnāt forgotten you⦠that hadnāt stopped waiting for you.ā
You swallowed hard, tears streaming down your cheeks. āClark⦠I⦠I donāt even know how to process all of this. Nine months⦠gone.ā
He cupped your face gently, thumb brushing your tears away. āI know,ā he whispered, voice trembling with equal parts relief and awe. āI know itās a lot. But weāll do it together. One step at a time. Iāll tell you everythingāabout your family, your friends, everything you missed. I promise. Every detail. Every laugh. Every day that went by without you.ā
You closed your eyes, leaning into him, letting yourself feel the gravity of it all. The ache of lost time, the relief, the impossibly sweet reunion. āI⦠I missed you so much,ā you whispered.
āI know, baby,ā he murmured, voice low, raw, against your hair. āAnd I waited. Every day. I waited for you to wake up⦠and now, youāre here. Youāre really here. And Iāll never let you go again.ā
You opened your eyes, searching his face for the reassurance that had kept you tethered to reality even while unconscious. āI need⦠I need to know everything,ā you said, voice small but insistent, trembling from the flood of emotion and questions.
Clark kissed your hand, pressing it gently to his lips. āThen Iāll tell you everything, honey. Every moment you missed, every worry, every laugh⦠Iāll be here for every step you take from now on. Always.ā
You nodded, weak but resolute, letting his warmth anchor you. āTogether?ā
āAlways,ā he said, voice fierce, raw, unwavering. āAlways, honey.ā
The next morning, the room felt impossibly small, quieter somehow, as if the world outside had paused in deference to the fragile new reality inside. You perched on the edge of the bed, legs dangling over the side, your muscles trembling under the simple weight of your own body. Every fiber of your being felt alien, uncooperative, like someone had borrowed it and forgotten to return it fully.
Clark was already there, perched in the chair beside the bed, hand hovering over yours, eyes scanning your face for every flicker of discomfort, every twitch of fear. His presence was grounding and terrifying all at once ā a reminder that love had endured while you slept, and that the world had waited for you, but also that so much had been lost.
āYouāre going to do amazing,ā Clark whispered, low and trembling. āIām right here. Every movement, every step⦠Iāve got you.ā
You swallowed hard, gripping the sheets, a mix of fear and frustration coiling tight in your chest. āClark⦠I donāt know if I can. I⦠I feel like Iāve lost everything. My legs⦠my strength⦠itās all gone.ā
āYes, you can,ā he said firmly, brushing a sweaty strand of hair from your face. āYouāve fought through worse. Months of nothingness⦠and now⦠this is just the first step back.ā
The door opened, and in walked a tall woman with a confident, professional air. She carried a clipboard and wore a gentle but firm expression. āGood morning,ā she said. āIām Dr. Elena Vargas, your physical therapist. Weāre going to start with some very careful steps today. Youāre safe, but itās going to be challenging ā and thatās okay. Every movement matters.ā
You blinked at her, suddenly aware of the unfamiliar authority in the room. āChallenging?ā you rasped. āI⦠I can barely move my legs.ā
Dr. Vargas nodded, placing a walker in front of you. āThatās why we start here. One motion at a time. Weāll measure your progress in inches and seconds at first. Iāll be right here, guiding you. Clarkā¦ā She glanced at him, voice softening. āHe can support your arm if you need him.ā
Clarkās fingers entwined with yours, his eyes searching yours. āIām not going anywhere,ā he murmured. āEvery step, every stumble⦠Iāve got you.ā
You let out a frustrated groan, gripping the walker as your legs quivered violently under you. The simplest motion felt like trying to move through cement. Pain lanced through muscles that had forgotten how to work. Your knees shook. Your thighs screamed. Every nerve in your body seemed to revolt.
āThis is impossible,ā you hissed through gritted teeth. āI⦠I canātāā
āYou can,ā Clark cut in, his voice breaking with emotion. āLook at me. One step. Youāre doing this. You are strong enough. You have to believe it.ā
You forced a shaky foot forward, then another. Your legs buckled slightly, and tears pricked your eyes. āClark⦠it hurts so much! I feel like Iām falling apart! I canāt⦠I canāt do this!ā
Dr. Vargas moved closer, steadying you with a calm, professional grip. āItās supposed to hurt. That means your muscles are waking up. Thatās progress. Breathe. Focus on the movement, not the fear.ā
Clark leaned in, brushing your damp hair from your forehead, pressing a trembling kiss to your temple. āI know it hurts. I know itās frustrating. I know you want to scream and cry. And thatās okay. Youāre alive. Youāre moving. Youāre here with me. Thatās what matters. One step at a time.ā
You blinked through the sting of tears, your chest heaving. āI feel like Iām breaking,ā you whispered.
āNo,ā Clark murmured, pressing his forehead to yours, his voice thick with emotion. āYouāre not breaking. Youāre waking up. Youāre healing. Every stumble is a step toward being yourself again. Iāve waited for this for nine months. Iāve waited for you. And now, youāre here. Iāve got you. I love you. Always.ā
With another trembling effort, you took a few more steps, each one slower and shakier than the last, but forward nonetheless. Pain lanced, frustration bubbled, but so did a fragile, flickering hope.
āI⦠I think Iām doing it,ā you whispered, astonished, breath ragged, tears streaming freely.
Clarkās lips quivered into a smile, and he pressed your hand to his lips, eyes glistening. āYes, honey. Youāre doing it. Iāve waited a hundred times over for this. Look at you⦠moving. Alive. Here. Youāre incredible.ā
You stumbled slightly, and Clark caught you immediately, wrapping you in a careful, fierce hug. āIāve got you,ā he murmured against your hair. āAlways, honey. Always.ā
By the time the session ended, exhaustion and pain had overtaken you, but the tiniest spark of triumph and hope glimmered in the midst of it. Clark helped you back to bed, brushing damp strands from your face, pressing soft, lingering kisses to your forehead, cheeks, hands.
āYouāre amazing,ā he whispered, voice breaking. āAbsolutely incredible.ā
You rested against him, chest heaving, the weight of nine lost months pressing down on you. And yet, for the first time since you woke, hope blossomed. Because here was someone who had waited, suffered, and loved through every agonizing day ā someone who would not let you face any of it alone.
āI love you,ā you whispered, weak but certain.
āI love you,ā he replied, voice hoarse and raw. āIāve always loved you. And now⦠now we start again. Together.ā
You rested against him for a long moment, letting the warmth of his body anchor you in a world that had felt unsteady for so long. But as the adrenaline of relief ebbed, the reality of your weakened body pressed in. Your muscles ached just from sitting, your arms and legs trembled, and a deep frustration bubbled in your chest.
āI⦠I donāt know how to do this,ā you admitted, voice small, shaky. āEverything⦠itās like Iāve forgotten how to be me.ā
Clarkās fingers threaded through yours, holding you steady. āYou donāt have to know how,ā he said softly. āWeāll figure it out together. Step by step. Thatās all that matters. One moment at a time.ā
You sighed, a shaky, almost defeated sound. āItās so frustrating⦠my legs donāt listen. I canāt even stand for more than a few seconds without shaking like Iām made of glass.ā
Clark pressed his forehead to yours, his voice breaking slightly. āI know, honey. I know itās hard. Iāve watched you struggle through every quiet night, every agonizing hour of waiting⦠and now itās just the beginning of getting your strength back. But youāre not alone. Iām not going anywhere.ā
Dr. Elena Vargas, your physical therapist, stepped back into the room, her clipboard in hand, eyes warm but professional. āClark, I know your support is invaluable,ā she said gently, ābut today, itās about small victories. I want her to try a few steps with the walker again. Even if itās just a foot forward at a time.ā
You groaned, frustration breaking free. āI have to do it again? A foot? Thatās it? Thatās supposed to be progress?ā
Dr. Vargas smiled patiently. āItās enormous progress. Your body has been inactive for nine months. Every inch you take today is a triumph. Your muscles and balance are waking up. Youāre doing the impossible.ā
Clarkās hand tightened around yours, a tether of reassurance. āSee? Youāre already doing it. One step. Thatās all that matters right now.ā
You pushed yourself upright with the help of the walker again, your legs trembling violently beneath you. Every motion burned, every fiber protested. Your breath came in short, jagged gasps, and a tear slipped down your cheek. āIt hurts so much, Clark! I hate this! I canāt⦠I canāt do it!ā
Clark stepped closer, placing a steadying hand on your lower back. āYes, you can. Youāre alive. Youāre moving. Youāre here. Thatās what matters. Iām right here with you. Every stumble, every ache⦠Iāve got you. Always.ā
You forced a shaky foot forward. Then another. And then another. Pain lanced through your thighs and knees, but with Clarkās support and Dr. Vargasā guidance, you took a few more tentative steps. Each movement was exhausting, terrifying, but also exhilarating.
A sudden wobble made you stumble slightly, and Clark caught you instantly, pressing you against him. āIāve got you,ā he murmured, holding you tight. āAlways, honey. Always.ā
You rested against him, chest heaving, exhaustion and triumph mixing into a cocktail of emotion so strong it left you trembling. āI⦠Iāve missed this,ā you whispered, voice barely audible.
āIāve missed you,ā he said, pressing soft kisses to your hair, your forehead, your hands. āEvery day. Every second. And now⦠now we get to start again. Together. Step by step.ā
Dr. Vargas nodded approvingly, a faint smile crossing her face. āSee? Look at what youāve done. Every step counts. Youāre building a foundation for everything that comes next.ā
You let out a shaky laugh, tears still streaming. āI just⦠I didnāt realize how much strength Iād lost. I didnāt realize how much Iād need you.ā
Clarkās arms tightened around you. āYou donāt need to realize anything. You just need to keep moving. And Iāll be here.ā
You closed your eyes, letting yourself soak in the warmth and unwavering devotion, even as frustration and exhaustion fought against it. It was raw, it was painful, but it was real.
The next few weeks blurred together, a rhythm of small triumphs and crushing setbacks. Each morning, you would wake to the sterile hum of the hospital, the faint scent of antiseptic mingling with lavender from Clarkās insistence on bringing a little of home with him. The walker sat waiting beside your bed like both a lifeline and a reminder of how much your body had betrayed you.
Clark never left your side. He was there when the physical therapist arrived, his hand hovering over yours, ready to steady you. His eyes never left you, tracking every tremor, every flinch, every flash of frustration. But some days⦠frustration got the better of you.
āI canāt do this!ā Your voice cracked, echoing off the sterile white walls. Tears blurred your vision until the world was just shapes and shadows. āMy legs hate me, Clark! They just hate me!ā
You kicked weakly at the air ā not out of strength, but desperation ā and the walker in front of you wobbled dangerously. Your knees buckled, muscles trembling violently from the effort. A helpless, broken sob tore out of your throat. āWhy wonāt they work?ā
Clark was there before you could fall, hands steady on your waist, anchoring you. āHeyāhey, easy,ā he whispered, voice calm but laced with heartbreak. He lowered you gently back to the chair, kneeling so his eyes met yours. His tie brushed the floor, but he didnāt care.
āI know, honey,ā he murmured, voice soft but unwavering. āI know itās hard. I see it. I feel it. But even in this anger⦠even in this frustration⦠youāre moving. Youāre trying. Thatās everything. Thatās progress.ā
You turned away, biting your lip so hard it almost drew blood. āYou donāt understand!ā you choked, your hands clenching into fists against your thighs. āYou donāt know what it feels like to be trapped in your own body! To remember who you were, but not be able to be that person anymore!ā
Clarkās chest rose and fell in uneven breaths. He wanted to reach for you, but he could see the tension in your shoulders ā the way your frustration trembled just beneath your skin. So instead, he waited, voice low, careful. āYou think I donāt understand pain, sweetheart?ā he said, the smallest waver in his tone betraying his calm exterior. āI watched you sleep for nine months. I sat by that bed every day, praying to hear your voice again, praying youād open your eyes. I watched the world move on without you, and I couldnāt. I couldnāt move on. I was frozen.ā
You shook your head, tears falling faster. āI feel⦠useless. Iāve lost everything I used to be. I canāt even stand! I canāt walk across the damn room!ā
Clarkās heart ached. He reached up, brushing the tears from your cheeks with trembling fingers. āYouāre not useless,ā he whispered fiercely. āYouāre alive. Youāre here. Youāre breathing. Thatās not nothing, honey ā thatās everything. Youāve already done the hardest part. The rest⦠the rest weāll do together.ā
āI donāt want to be strong anymore!ā you burst out, your voice breaking. āIām tired! Iām tired of fighting, of hurting, of feeling like a shell of who I was!ā
Clark leaned forward, pressing his forehead gently against yours. His breath was steady, his voice barely above a whisper. āThen donāt be strong,ā he said. āYou donāt have to be. Not with me.ā
You froze, your sobs hiccupping to a stop, your chest heaving.
He continued, voice rough with emotion. āYou can cry. You can scream. You can hate the world, hate me, hate the walker, hate everything. You can break down a hundred times if you need to. Iāll still be here, honey. Iāll take it all. Every word, every tear, every ounce of anger ā Iāll take it. Because youāre still here. And thatās what matters.ā
You stared at him, trembling, anger and heartbreak warring inside you. āYou shouldnāt have to do this for me,ā you whispered. āYou deserve someone whoāā
Clark cut you off, his voice suddenly fierce, the calm breaking. āDonāt,ā he said sharply. āDonāt you dare finish that sentence.ā His hands cradled your face, firm but tender, forcing you to meet his eyes. āYou are everything to me. I waited nine months for you, and Iād wait nine more if it meant Iād get this ā you, right here, fighting. You are worth every second of it. Every tear. Every prayer.ā
Your lip trembled. āClarkā¦ā
āI love you,ā he said, the words coming out raw, urgent. āI love you, even when youāre angry, even when youāre hurting, even when you donāt believe you can do it. Especially then. Because youāre trying. And thatās more than enough.ā
You broke then, the anger dissolving into quiet sobs. Clark pulled you into his arms, holding you close against his chest. You felt his heart pounding under your ear ā strong, steady, real.
āI donāt want to keep failing,ā you whispered into his shirt.
He kissed the top of your head, his voice muffled but steady. āThen donāt think about failing. Just think about trying again tomorrow. And the next day. And the one after that. One day, youāll stand on your own again. One day, youāll walk. Iāll be there for every single step. I promise.ā
Your fingers clutched at his shirt, holding on like a lifeline. For a moment, neither of you spoke ā just the quiet sound of your uneven breathing and his heartbeat beneath your ear.
Some days, the sessions were short ā mercifully, painfully short.
A single, shaky step could undo you.
Your legs would tremble beneath you, muscles straining as if they were trying to remember something long forgotten. The world would tilt slightly, a reminder of how fragile your balance still was. Sweat gathered at your temples despite the cold air, your breath coming in sharp, uneven gasps. And then, just as you thought you could take another step, your body would falter ā the strength gone as suddenly as it had come.
You would collapse into the chair with a frustrated sob, your chest heaving, tears spilling freely down your cheeks. āI canāt,ā youād choke, voice breaking. āI canāt do this today.ā
Clark was always there, instantly, steady hands on your shoulders, a grounding presence in the blur of pain and disappointment. āHey,ā heād whisper, his voice a low hum meant only for you. āItās okay. You did enough. You stood. You fought. Thatās everything.ā
Sometimes, heād kneel in front of you and take your trembling hands in his. His thumbs would trace slow, comforting circles over your skin, even as your tears fell onto his knuckles. āYouāve already done more today than most people do in a week,ā heād murmur. āYou showed up. Thatās what matters.ā
But on the better days ā the rare, golden ones ā youād manage two steps. Then three. Then four. The sound of your walker scraping against the floor would echo down the hallway, uneven but determined.
Your breaths came in sharp bursts, your face flushed with effort. Each step felt like fire ā your calves screaming, your knees wobbling ā but beneath the pain, there was something else: momentum.
And when you reached the end of the short therapy mat, just six feet from where you started, youād let out a small, disbelieving laugh through your tears. A sound that was half joy, half exhaustion, and somehow entirely you.
Clark would be at your side in an instant, smiling through misted eyes. āLook at you!ā heād whisper, brushing your damp hair from your forehead, his thumb lingering at your temple. His voice trembled with pride, with awe. āEvery inch counts, honey. Every single one. Youāre incredible.ā
Youād shake your head weakly, still trying to catch your breath. āI donāt feel incredible,ā youād whisper back, your voice raw and hoarse from both crying and effort. āI feel like Iām breaking every time I try.ā
Clarkās gaze softened, his hand still cupping your cheek. āYou are breaking,ā he said gently, honestly. āBut only in the way glass breaks before it becomes something stronger. Youāre breaking and rebuilding. Thatās how strength comes back. Thatās how healing works.ā
Your chin quivered as another tear slipped down. āI just⦠I thought it would be faster,ā you admitted in a small voice, like a confession. āI thought Iād wake up and be me again.ā
He smiled ā that small, crooked, heartbreakingly tender smile ā and pressed a kiss to your forehead. āYou are you,ā he said softly. āYou never stopped being you. Youāre just⦠finding your way back. And Iām right here, every step of the way.ā
You looked at him then ā really looked ā and saw the dark circles still faintly shadowing his eyes, the worry lines that hadnāt quite faded, the quiet love burning steady behind it all.
āWhy are you still here?ā you whispered, your voice trembling.
He smiled faintly, brushing a tear from your cheek. āBecause youāre the only place I ever wanted to be.ā
Sometimes, in moments of extreme frustration, you would lash outānot at Clark, but at the helplessness of your own body. A weak shove, a frustrated groan, a burst of tearsāsometimes aimed at him, sometimes at the walker, sometimes at nothing at all. And each time, he never flinched.
āHey,ā heād murmur, voice steady, gentle, wrapping his arms around you. āIām not leaving. You can yell, cry, curse⦠whatever you need. Iāll be right here, honey. Always.ā
āYouāre too good to me,ā youād sometimes whisper between sobs and shaky breaths.
āIām just in love with you,ā heād reply simply, pressing his forehead to yours, tears mingling, voice cracking. āAnd I always will be, honey. All of this⦠itās part of the journey. And Iāll be here for every step.ā
Little victories began to accumulate. A few more steps with the walker each day. Standing unassisted for moments that stretched longer and longer. Tiny triumphs punctuated by moments of despair, each followed by Clarkās unwavering presence and encouragement.
āYouāre doing it,ā he whispered one day, holding you as you wobbled precariously on your own feet. āIāve waited so long for this. Every month, every hour⦠all leading to this. Youāre here. Youāre alive. Youāre mine.ā
āI feel⦠so weak,ā you admitted, tears stinging. āBut I⦠Iām trying. I really am.ā
āAnd thatās enough,ā Clark said, voice raw with emotion, brushing a kiss to your temple. āTrying is all Iāve ever wanted from you. Youāve survived nine months in a coma, honey. Everything else⦠this is just the world catching up to you. And Iāll be right here while it does.ā
The sessions were painfully slow, heartbreaking, and beautiful in equal measure. Each step forward carried the weight of months lost. Each setback carried the echoes of despair you had felt while unconscious. But through it all, Clark remained your constant. Your anchor. Your unwavering devotion. The world outside could wait; here, in the quiet hospital room filled with the scent of lavender and hope, you were slowly, painfully, reclaiming yourself.
It was a rare day without physical therapy. Your muscles ached from weeks of effort, your joints still stiff and unforgiving, but todayās challenge was different. Today was mental, emotional ā a therapy session with Dr. Madeline Reyes, a specialist in trauma and recovery after long-term comas. Clark had come only because you had asked him to, to anchor you, to hold your hand when the storm inside your head became too loud.
You sat on the edge of the hospital bed, knees tucked under, blanket wrapped tightly around your shoulders like armor. Clark knelt quietly beside you, fingers loosely entwined with yours, eyes steady but silent. His presence was a lifeline, but today wasnāt about him. It was about you.
Dr. Reyes entered, her expression gentle, voice warm. āGood morning. Clark, thank you for being here. And you⦠welcome back. How are you feeling today?ā
You swallowed, throat tight. āI⦠I donāt know,ā you admitted. āConfused, mostly. Angry. Sad. And⦠scared. Everything is too much, all at once.ā
She nodded, settling into the chair across from you. āThatās understandable. Nine months is a long time to lose. Your mind and body are just beginning to process everything.ā
āI feel like I should be happy,ā you said, voice barely a whisper, trembling. āI woke up. Iām⦠alive. But I donāt feel alive. Itās like the world moved on without me."
Your hands gripped the blanket tighter. Heat rose to your face as tears pricked your eyes. āI⦠I canāt even remember the last day before I⦠went under. And now⦠itās like nine months of my life just⦠disappeared. How do I get that back? How do I fix it?ā
Dr. Reyes leaned forward slightly, eyes patient. āItās not about getting back to who you were before. Itās about understanding who you are now, and how you move forward with the life you have. And itās okay ā more than okay ā to grieve the time you lost. Those nine months matter. Your emotions matter.ā
You buried your face in your hands, hot tears spilling freely. āI just⦠I need him. I need Clark. I donāt know how I lived without him here. Even knowing he visited⦠I canāt imagine how lonely it must have been for both of us.ā
Clark shifted beside you, but didnāt speak. His fingers stayed locked with yours, thumb brushing gently over the back of your hand. His silence was grounding, letting you have this moment without interruption.
āI feel so⦠weak,ā you confessed through trembling lips. āNot just physically. My mind feels stuck in that coma. Like Iām missing months of me, and I donāt even know who that version of me was. I⦠I donāt know if Iāll ever feel normal again. I donāt know if I can catch up.ā
Dr. Reyes nodded. āThatās very real, very normal. The mind and body take time to reconnect after trauma like yours. Itās not a race. Itās a process. And some days will feel impossibly hard, while others may surprise you with small victories. Itās okay to feel frustrated, to feel lost, to be angry. All of that is part of healing.ā
You wiped your face on the blanket, voice raw. āItās just⦠every day I wake up, and I feel this⦠emptiness. Like nine months were stolen from me. And I canāt get them back. How do I move on when the world didnāt wait for me?ā
Clarkās hand squeezed yours, reassuring, steady. But he still didnāt speak. He was here, silent, letting you own this ā letting you confront your grief, your anger, your confusion.
Dr. Reyes offered a small, encouraging smile. āYouāre not alone in this. And itās okay that it hurts. Today is about talking, about letting these feelings exist without judgment. Youāre safe to say whatever comes to mind, however it comes out.ā
You exhaled shakily, letting your hands fall to your lap. āI donāt know what to do first,ā you whispered. āI just⦠want to feel like myself again. But I donāt even know who that is anymore. Did I⦠miss everything? Was everything okay without me?ā
Your voice cracked, a fragile thread of pain, fear, and longing. Tears spilled again, freely, hot and unrelenting. Clark simply held your hand, shoulder brushing yours, breathing steady and patient. His presence alone reminded you that you werenāt facing this alone ā that someone who had waited, who had loved you through it all, was right there, silently promising he wouldnāt let you fall.
āI just⦠I want to understand,ā you continued, voice quivering. āI want to feel⦠grounded again. I want to know how to live in a world where I missed so much, and everything feels⦠strange. I donāt want to be broken forever.ā
Dr. Reyes nodded again. āAnd you wonāt be. This is the beginning of that process. Healing takes time, patience, and sometimes anger, sadness, or grief. All of it is part of rebuilding. And youāve already survived so much. Youāre stronger than you know.ā
You closed your eyes, pressing your palms to your face, but it didnāt stop the tremors running through you. The pain wasnāt physical ā not entirely. It clawed from the inside, hollow and heavy, a weight that pressed on your chest and tightened around your ribs. Every breath felt shallow, as though the air itself was trapped in the empty space of nine months lost.
āI⦠I canāt,ā you whispered, voice trembling. āI canāt even think about it without feeling⦠everything. I wake up, and itās like⦠Iām in someone elseās life. I donāt remember the days, the weeks⦠the months. I donāt know what I missed. And⦠and what if⦠what if Iāve changed so much that no one⦠no one even knows me anymore?ā
Tears streamed down your face, warm and relentless. Your hands shook violently as you pressed them to your lap, gripping the blanket like it could hold you together. āI only remember the accident⦠I remember the pain, the headlights, the screeching tires⦠and then nothing. Nine months of nothing. And people⦠they moved on. They lived. And I was⦠gone.ā
Dr. Reyes leaned forward, voice gentle but insistent. āItās okay to feel that, to grieve those months. You lost them, and that loss is real. And itās okay to be angry, to feel confused, to feel scared. Youāre allowed all of it.ā
āI feel⦠guilty,ā you admitted, your voice breaking. āGuilty that I wasnāt there. Guilty that Clark⦠he had to watch me lie there for nine months. Guilty that Iām here now and everything else⦠everything else kept moving without me. I should be happy, right? But I feel⦠broken. Hollow. Like I donāt belong in my own life anymore.ā
A strangled sob escaped, and you couldnāt stop it. Your body shook with it ā violent, uncontrollable. The grief of lost time, lost experiences, lost self, poured out of you in tidal waves. Clarkās hand held yours firmly, steady, his thumb rubbing slow, comforting circles over your knuckles. He didnāt speak. He didnāt need to. He was here to anchor you while you let yourself fall apart, to be the one safe place where you could release everything.
āI canāt remember simple things,ā you whispered between gasps. āFaces⦠conversations⦠laughter⦠I feel like a stranger in my own life. And Clark⦠I see him, and heās been here every single day, loving me, waiting for me⦠and I donāt even know how to tell him how sorry I am. How I canāt even⦠how I canāt evenāā
Dr. Reyes let you cry, offering a tissue without forcing words. āYou donāt have to explain anything yet. Just let yourself feel it. Youāve been carrying nine months of silence and absence inside you. Let it out. Let it touch you, let it move through you. Clark is here to hold you while you do it. Thatās all that matters right now.ā
You buried your face in your hands, shoulders shaking, your body trembling like it had been emptied and refilled with pain. The tears flowed freely, unrelenting, every sob carrying months of fear, anger, loss, and guilt. Your chest ached from the force of it, but somehow, beneath the unbearable heaviness, you felt a thread of something else ā relief, because for the first time in months, you didnāt have to fight alone.
Clark pressed his forehead gently against your shoulder, silent, steady, grounding. His presence whispered a single truth you could cling to.
you are not alone. Not now. Not ever.
And though the pain was still raw, jagged, and all-consuming, you let it sweep over you. You let it be real. You let yourself hurt ā and, somehow, that made a fragile space for hope.
Dr. Reyes waited patiently, letting the silence stretch for a few moments before speaking, her voice soft and deliberate. āYouāve been through a lot,ā she said gently. āAnd right now, that grief is valid. But I want to try something different for a moment. Letās talk about something positive. Something small, maybe even tiny, that still exists for you.ā
You shook your head slightly, bitter laughter escaping through your tears. āPositive? After⦠after losing nine months? After feeling⦠like I donāt even belong in my own life?ā
āIt doesnāt have to erase the pain,ā Dr. Reyes said. āItās not about forgetting or minimizing what youāve lost. Itās about finding the little pieces of life that still matter ā the things that make you feel alive again, even just for a second.ā
You bit your lip, hesitating. Your mind swirled with memories half-remembered, moments youād lost, days you hadnāt lived. āI⦠I donāt know. Everything seems⦠empty.ā
āStart anywhere,ā Dr. Reyes coaxed. āA sound you like, a smell, a memory, a person⦠anything that gives you even the tiniest spark.ā
You glanced at Clark, who gave the slightest squeeze of your hand. You drew a shaky breath, and the words tumbled out before you could stop them. āHis voice,ā you whispered, barely audible. āClark⦠just hearing him, being near him⦠thatās⦠thatās something that stayed real. Even when everything else⦠disappeared.ā
Dr. Reyes nodded, encouraging. āGood. Hold onto that. Can you tell me more? What about Clarkās voice? What does it do for you?ā
You swallowed, tears still wetting your cheeks. āIt⦠it grounds me. Makes me feel safe. Even when the world feels like itās moving too fast and Iām lost, I know⦠heās there. Heās steady. And heās⦠heās been waiting. For me.ā
āAnd how does that make you feel?ā Dr. Reyes asked softly, letting you explore the space without pushing too hard.
āGrateful,ā you admitted, voice trembling. āAnd⦠hopeful. But also⦠guilty, because he waited. He never left, never gave up. And I⦠I wasnāt awake. I wasnāt⦠myself. And I canāt⦠I canāt stop thinking about all the things I missed.ā
Dr. Reyes gave a small, empathetic nod. āYou can carry both at once ā gratitude and guilt, hope and sorrow. Itās okay to feel them together. Youāve been through something no one should have to endure. The fact that youāre awake, that you can recognize the good in even one thing⦠thatās huge. Thatās progress.ā
You hiccupped a sob, your voice cracking. āI⦠I just want to catch up. I want to remember⦠everything I lost. I want⦠to feel alive again. I want⦠to be me. And I donāt know if I can.ā
āEvery step matters,ā Dr. Reyes said, calmly but firmly. āEven this. Even saying these words. Youāre reclaiming pieces of your life, piece by piece. And Clark⦠heās here because you asked for him. Heās here to hold the pieces with you. Thatās okay. Thatās what love looks like in recovery.ā
You let out a shaky breath, leaning slightly into Clarkās shoulder. āI⦠I want to try,ā you whispered, āeven if it hurts. Even if itās slow. I want⦠to feel something good again.ā
Dr. Reyes smiled warmly. āThen thatās exactly where we start. One small positive at a time. Just notice it, hold it, and let it exist alongside the grief. Youāre allowed that. You deserve that.ā
And for the first time that day, you let yourself imagine ā just for a moment ā that maybe, with help, with time, with Clark beside you, it was possible to feel whole again.
Nine Weeks Later
You and Clark sat side by side in the comfortable chairs by the window, books resting in your laps, legs stretched out and barely brushing. His glasses had slipped slightly down his nose, and the messy sweep of his hair fell just enough to make him look as effortlessly disheveled as always. Every so often, his eyes would lift from the page, glancing at you with quiet pride, relief, and a tenderness that made your chest ache.
You were still cautious on your feet ā sometimes leaning on the arm of the chair or resting your walker nearby ā but the progress over the past weeks had been remarkable. Even the small victory of walking a few steps to the window to feel the sunlight on your face without support felt monumental. And today, the room felt light, alive, as if the sunlight itself was celebrating your tiny triumphs.
Turning a page slowly, you read aloud in that soft, tentative voice youād spent months recovering. Clark leaned slightly toward you, tilting his head as he followed along. āWait ā that part,ā he murmured, his finger hovering above a sentence. āThatās exactly how I pictured it when I read it last time. Youāre going to love what happens next.ā
A soft laugh escaped your lips, breathless and uneven, the sound like music to his ears. āI doubt it,ā you teased, your voice still shaky from weakness and exertion. āYou always think you know whatās coming, and youāre usually wrong.ā
Clark grinned, that familiar half-smile that could make the world feel safe. āMaybe,ā he admitted, leaning closer, brushing a loose strand of your hair from your face. āBut itās fun to be wrong with you.ā
You laughed again, more fully this time, the sound catching on a sob you quickly swallowed. Clarkās eyes softened at the sound, and before you could even react, he leaned in and pressed a light, fleeting kiss to your lips.
āClark!ā you gasped, blinking at him, your voice half-laugh, half-protest.
āI couldnāt help it,ā he murmured, voice low, teasing, but carrying all the warmth and devotion heād held back for so long. āYouāre gorgeous when you read aloud like that. I couldnāt resist.ā
You shook your head, pretending indignation, but your smile betrayed you. āGorgeous? Iām weak, wobbling, and practically clinging to a chair for dear life, and you call me gorgeous?ā
Clark laughed, the sound rumbling softly in the quiet room. āExactly,ā he said. āYouāre even gorgeous then. Thereās something brave and beautiful about the way youāre here, fighting, laughing, reading aloud even when itās hard. Thatās more than enough.ā
Your chest swelled, a mix of pride, relief, and an ache that had been buried under months of fear. You reached up instinctively, brushing your fingers over his hand, which was still resting near yours. āYou always know what to say,ā you whispered, a little breathless, a little tender.
āI try,ā he said, leaning closer again, teasing and soft at once. āBut mostly, I just try to be here⦠for you. Thatās the part that matters.ā
You shook your head, laughing again despite yourself, the sound shaky but light. āI think you might be spoiling me, Clark Kent.ā
He smirked, brushing his nose gently against yours. āMaybe I am. But Iām not sorry.ā
And then, in a quiet, fleeting moment, he captured your lips in a gentle kiss, light and tentative, savoring the feel of you, the warmth, the life that had returned to you. You kissed him back, weakly at first, but the connection, fragile yet unbreakable, made your heart feel fuller than it had in months.
When you pulled back, breathless and laughing softly, Clark rested his forehead against yours, eyes glistening. āYouāre amazing, honey. Every single day. And Iām so proud of you.ā
You smiled through the tears forming in your eyes, a shaky laugh escaping. āI⦠I donāt know how I got this lucky,ā you whispered.
Clark pressed another soft kiss to your hand, the smallest gesture overflowing with love and devotion. āIāve been waiting my whole life for this moment,ā he said quietly. āAnd Iām never letting you go.ā
A knock at the door broke the quiet. Dr. Patel stepped in, clipboard in hand, his expression warm but professional.
āGood morning,ā he said, smiling. āHow are we feeling today?ā
You set your book down, straightening in your chair. āOkay, I guess. A little tired. And a little nervous,ā you admitted. āClark and I were just readingā¦ā You gestured vaguely to the books on your laps.
Clark squeezed your hand, this time speaking softly. āAnd we were just discussing why the main character is terrible at taking advice,ā he said with a teasing smile, trying to lighten the tension. You let out a small laugh, and he grinned, brushing his thumb gently over your knuckles.
Dr. Patel nodded, stepping closer. āThatās good. I have some news, though ā and I think you might be ready for it. With the progress youāve shown, both physically and emotionally, we can start preparing for you to go home.ā
Your heart jumped, a mix of excitement and hesitation twisting inside your chest. āHome?ā you whispered. āI⦠I donāt know if Iām ready. My legs⦠I still feel⦠wobbly. I donāt want to fall. I donāt know if I can do this on my own.ā
Clark leaned closer, his hand firm over yours. āHey,ā he said, voice low and steady. āYou can do this. And Iām not going anywhere. Weāll take it one step at a time. Iāll be with you every single second. You wonāt fall because Iāll be right here.ā
Dr. Patel nodded thoughtfully. āThatās very understandable. Even though youāve shown great improvement, your muscles are still rebuilding after nine months of immobility. The therapy will continue at home and at the hospital ā both physical and emotional ā but with fewer sessions, because youāre strong enough to handle more independently. You wonāt be left alone, and weāll provide support for any challenges you face.ā
You swallowed hard, uncertainty and fear rising like a tide. āBut what if I⦠what if I canāt? What if something happens and I⦠I fall?ā
Clark leaned forward, resting his forehead gently against yours for a brief moment. āThen weāll do it together,ā he said firmly, eyes shining. āYouāve been through more than anyone should have to, and look at how far youāve come. Youāre stronger than you think, and Iāll make sure nothing happens to you. Weāll figure this out, together.ā
Dr. Patel offered a reassuring smile. āItās okay to be hesitant. Thatās normal. Going home is a big step, but look at what youāve accomplished. Youāre ready ā even if it doesnāt feel that way yet.ā
You exhaled shakily, pressing a hand to your chest. āI⦠I think I want to try. I want to go home. But⦠itās scary. Iāve been here so long⦠this room has been my world.ā
Clark brushed a loose strand of hair from your face again, then spoke softly, almost a whisper: āYouāre ready for this. And home⦠home is where weāll keep building the life weāve waited so long to have. Iāll be with you every step ā even when itās scary, even when it hurts. Iām not going anywhere. I promise.ā
Dr. Patel gave a small nod, his eyes warm but steady. āTake it at your pace. The first few days will be adjustments, but you have a support system in place. And Clarkā¦ā He glanced briefly at him, his lips curling in a faint, knowing smile. āHeās clearly a remarkable support for you. Use him. Let him be there. Lean on him when it feels overwhelming ā heās more than capable, and he wants to be.ā
You swallowed hard, letting the words sink in. Home. The word felt heavy in your chest. Leaving the hospital ā the place that had been both your cage and your sanctuary for months ā was terrifying. Every wall, every monitor, every nurseās smile had been a constant in your life, and stepping out into a world youād missed so much felt impossible.
Your gaze shifted to Clark. He was still holding your hand, fingers wrapped around yours, steady and unwavering, his thumb brushing gentle circles over the back of your hand. His eyes were glistening, just on the verge of tears, and for a moment, all the fear threatening to rise in your chest was balanced by the sheer certainty of him. He wonāt let me fall. He wonāt leave me.
āI⦠okay,ā you whispered finally, your voice trembling despite your efforts to sound stronger than you felt. āIāll try. I⦠I want to go home. But⦠I need you. Please, Clark⦠I need you there with me.ā
His eyes softened, and the corner of his mouth lifted in a small, tender smile. Tears shone along the edge of his lashes, and his hand tightened around yours. āYouāll always have me,ā he said, voice low, steady, and full of emotion. āAlways. Iām not going anywhere, honey. Not for a single second. Weāll face everything together.ā
You exhaled shakily, pressing your forehead to his shoulder for a moment, letting yourself feel the relief and love and fear that had been coiled in your chest for so long. The hospital, the monitors, the routines ā everything that had held you captive for nine months ā suddenly felt like it was fading behind you, and in front of you was a future you had only dreamed about.
Clark lowered his lips to the back of your hand, pressing a gentle, reverent kiss. āLetās go home,ā he whispered, his breath warm against your skin, ātogether. Every step, honey ā Iām right here. I promise.ā
Your fingers tightened around his, letting him anchor you. You closed your eyes, leaning into him for strength, for courage, for the simple, unshakable truth that he would be there. Home wasnāt just a place. Home was him. And with him, maybe ā just maybe ā you could start to feel whole again.
The hospital room was quiet, except for the steady beep of the monitors. Sunlight filtered through the blinds, dust motes dancing in the golden light. You sat on the edge of your hospital bed, legs still trembling from the small exercises you had done that morning, and Clark hovered nearby, quiet and watchful, as if he had been waiting his entire life for this moment.
Dr. Vargas had given the final instructions earlier, explaining that while therapy would continue at home, you had progressed enough to be discharged. The words had sunk in slowly, unsteady in your mind. Home. A place you hadnāt been in almost a year. The thought was thrilling and terrifying all at once.
Clark had gone ahead of the hospital staff, making sure your apartment was ready for your arrival. He had washed your favorite clothes ā soft pajamas, comfortable leggings, and a loose sweater ā carefully folding them on a chair near the door. The scent of laundry detergent, faintly floral, mingled with the warmth of your home. It was subtle, clean, and comforting, like a promise that someone had prepared for you to return.
āOkay,ā he said softly, kneeling in front of the chair and holding up a sweater for you. āWeāll take this slow, okay? Iāll help you. Step by step.ā His voice carried the same steady devotion that had kept you alive through months of uncertainty.
You nodded, nerves fluttering in your chest. āI⦠I donāt know if I can do this, Clark.ā
āYou can,ā he said firmly, brushing your hair gently from your forehead. āAnd if you canāt, Iāll catch you. Every step, every stumble. Iām right here.ā
He helped you into the clothes with careful, deliberate movements, making sure each sleeve and pant leg was adjusted without causing strain. You noticed the faint scent of detergent and fabric softener in the clothes, the care he had taken to make them feel fresh and familiar. Something inside you melted ā the thought that he had thought of every little detail, that he had been waiting for this day as anxiously as you had.
When he finally helped you stand, your legs quivered violently under the unfamiliar weight of your body. Clark immediately held you, his hands steady on your waist. āIāve got you,ā he murmured. āJust breathe. One step at a time.ā
Your first tentative step into the hospital hallway was slow, every muscle screaming in protest, every nerve ablaze with fatigue. But Clark stayed by your side, every bit the anchor you needed. āGood,ā he whispered after each movement, voice full of quiet pride. āThatās perfect. Youāre doing amazing, honey.ā
You took another step, then another, until you reached the wheelchair waiting near the door. Clark helped you into it carefully, making sure you were comfortable before wheeling you down to the lobby. The sunlight streamed in through the glass doors, reflecting off the polished floors, and you realized with a jolt that you were really leaving.
Clark pushed the wheelchair with steady hands, glancing at you frequently, his eyes soft and wide. āAlmost there,ā he murmured. āWeāre almost home.ā
The ride through the city was a blur, a strange, overwhelming storm of sights and sounds that your mind struggled to process. Buildings stretched impossibly high, their glass facades reflecting the sunlight in shards of gold and blue. Cars honked and weaved, their tires screeching on the asphalt. Pedestrians moved in a chaotic rhythm, a living mosaic of color and motion.
You felt the car beneath you, the subtle hum of the engine, the way it carried you forward, and a strange mixture of fear and exhilaration twisted in your chest. Your body tensed with every movement; your muscles, long unused to supporting your weight, protested even the gentlest shifts. Every bump, every slight jolt made you flinch.
Clarkās hand rested lightly over yours, warm and grounding, a tether to something steady and safe in the midst of sensory chaos. His thumb brushed in small circles, steady and slow, and you realized it was the first thing that made you feel anchored since youād woken up. āYouāre doing so well, honey,ā he murmured, voice low, reassuring. āIāve got you. Just look at me.ā
You turned your head toward him, blinking rapidly, trying to focus on the familiar face. āIt⦠itās so⦠so different,ā you whispered, voice trembling. āEverythingās⦠bigger. Louder. I⦠I donāt know where to look first.ā
Clark squeezed your hand gently. āThatās normal. Youāve been out of it for nine months ā the city moved on while you were asleep. Itās like stepping into a painting thatās still moving.ā He gave a small, teasing smile. āBut Iām right here. You donāt have to figure it all out at once.ā
Clark chuckled softly, a warm, grounding sound. āYou are seeing it for the first time,ā he said gently. āAnd itās okay to be overwhelmed. Weāll take it slow. Iām not going anywhere.ā
You turned toward him, your hand still trembling under his. āI⦠I missed so much."
You exhaled shakily, leaning a little into him, feeling both the fear of the unfamiliar city and the comfort of the man beside you. āItās⦠strange,ā you admitted, voice small. āI know the streets, I know the buildings⦠but itās like Iām seeing them for the first time, like Iām⦠someone else.ā
Clarkās eyes softened, his fingers tightening over yours. āYouāre the same person Iāve always loved,ā he said quietly, almost reverently. āYou just get to see the city ā and the world ā again. And I get to be here with you. Every step, honey. Every moment.ā
A car honked sharply nearby, and you flinched, gripping his hand tighter. He laughed softly, brushing a loose strand of hair from your face. āSee? Itās loud. Itās chaotic. But weāre okay. Weāre together.ā
You let out a shaky laugh, the first genuine one in months, tears welling in your eyes. āI⦠I never thought Iād get to do this again. See it all. Feel it all.ā
Clark smiled, squeezing your hand once more. āAnd youāre doing it, honey. One step, one breath, one moment at a time. Youāre here. Youāre alive. And nothing⦠nothing can take that from you.ā
Finally, you arrived at your apartment. The city outside seemed quieter now, softened by the light fading through the windows, but inside, the space was alive with small signs that it had been waiting for you. Clark pushed the door open and helped you inside, carefully maneuvering your wheelchair across the smooth hardwood floors. Every step was slow, deliberate, filled with the same care he had shown you in the hospital.
He had moved furniture, cleared obstacles, and placed the couch in just the right spot by the window so the sunlight would fall across it in a warm, comforting patch. The familiar scent of laundry detergent lingered faintly in the air, mingling with the delicate perfume of the flowers he had set on the table ā your favorites, tulips and lilies, in soft pinks and whites. The room smelled like home, like care, like someone had been waiting for this very moment.
Clark turned the wheelchair so you could face the couch, his hands steady on your arms. āAlright,ā he said softly, voice low and reverent. āWeāll do this slowly, okay? Just a few small steps. Iām right here.ā
You nodded, hands gripping the armrests, knees trembling from the effort of balancing your body again. āI⦠Iām scared, Clark,ā you whispered, voice tiny and vulnerable. āWhat if I fall? What if I canātā¦?ā
āYou wonāt,ā he interrupted gently, brushing your hair back from your face. āIāve got you. Every step, every stumble ā Iām not going anywhere. Youāre safe. Youāre home.ā
Taking a deep breath, you allowed him to lift you from the wheelchair. His arms were a fortress, steady and unyielding beneath your fragile frame. Your legs wobbled violently as they hit the floor, muscles weak from months of disuse, but his hands never faltered. You took a shaky step toward the couch, then another, your breath coming fast and shallow.
Clark pressed a kiss to your temple, a soft, grounding touch that made your knees feel a little steadier. āYouāre home,ā he murmured again, voice thick with emotion. āWeāre home. You did it, honey. You made it.ā
You leaned against him, exhaustion settling deep into your bones, a tremor of fear and relief running through you. āI⦠I canāt believe Iām here,ā you whispered, voice breaking. āIt feels⦠unreal. Like Iām dreaming.ā
Clark wrapped his arms fully around you now, holding you close while his lips brushed gently against your hair. āI know,ā he murmured, his own voice cracking with the weight of months he had carried silently. āI canāt believe it either. But youāre here. Youāre alive. And weāll face everything together. One step at a time.ā
Tears pricked at your eyes, and you allowed yourself to let them fall freely, pressed against his chest. āI missed⦠everything,ā you whispered, voice trembling. āI missed the sun, the city, being⦠alive.ā
āYou didnāt miss me,ā he said softly, almost like a promise, his lips brushing the top of your head. āI was right here. Waiting. Every moment. And now youāre back. Thatās all that matters.ā
You let out a shaky laugh, leaning further into him, the warmth of his body and the sunlight mingling on your skin. āIt feels so strange⦠everythingās familiar, but different. And I⦠I donāt know where to start.ā
Clark chuckled quietly, brushing your hair back again and pressing another gentle kiss to your temple. āStart with me,ā he said simply. āIām here. And weāll take it slow. One breath, one step, one day at a time. Weāll rediscover everything together.ā
For a long, golden moment, you just rested against him, letting the sunlight warm your skin, the scent of clean clothes and fresh flowers fill your senses, and the enormity of what had happened sink in. After nine months of struggle, pain, and uncertainty, you were finally home. And for the first time in almost a year, it felt like life might really start again ā fragile, tentative, but beautiful.
Clark tightened his arms around you, voice low and reverent. āWelcome home, honey. Youāre finally home.ā
You whispered back, closing your eyes against the tears and exhaustion, feeling it all for the first time: āIām home⦠with you.ā
The familiar scent of laundry detergent and fresh flowers still lingered in the room, mingling with the subtle, grounding warmth of Clarkās presence. It wrapped around you like a shield, a reminder that, for the first time in months, you were somewhere safe.
You sat on the couch, legs stretched out, a soft blanket draped across your lap, the weight of it oddly comforting. Clark moved quietly in the kitchen, the faint clinking of spoon against mug accompanying the aroma of tea steeping. He made it exactly as you liked ā light honey, a hint of lemon ā and the steam rising from the mug carried the gentle scent throughout the room, mingling with the air you breathed in, steadying you in a way that was hard to put into words.
Even the simplest tasks were monumental. Standing to pour yourself a glass of water left your legs trembling violently, muscles weak and stiff from months of disuse. Moving from the couch to the kitchen required careful planning, slow breaths, and Clarkās unwavering hands on your waist, guiding and steadying you like a silent promise: you wouldnāt fall, not while he was there. Every step, every small motion, was a sharp reminder of the months youād lost, the body that had betrayed you, and the fragility of this newfound independence. But even in that frustration, there was triumph. Each movement was a victory, and Clark never let you forget it.
āYouāre doing amazing, honey,ā he whispered one afternoon, his hand warm around yours as he guided you toward the counter to place a dish down. His voice was soft, unwavering, the kind that held steady even when your legs threatened to buckle. āEvery little thing counts.ā
You huffed, exhaling sharply as your legs shook. āItās ridiculous. I should be able to do this on my own by now,ā you said, cheeks burning with a mixture of shame and frustration.
Clarkās hands stayed firm, unyielding, resting lightly over yours. āItās not ridiculous,ā he said gently, eyes full of a quiet reverence that made your heart ache. āItās progress. Youāve come so far already, and Iāve never been more proud of anyone. But Iām here. Always. I'm telling you, you donāt have to do this alone.ā
Mornings were a different kind of challenge ā slow stretches and exercises that felt almost torturous at first. Clark would kneel beside you, demonstrating movements, counting repetitions with calm patience. His eyes never left yours, keeping you tethered to the world when your body felt like it might betray you. Each small victory ā a step that was once impossible, a bend of your arm that no longer felt like fire ā was celebrated quietly, intimately, between shared glances and soft words.
Sometimes, though, the frustration overflowed. Muscles screamed, joints ached, and your body felt foreign, alien. One morning, as you struggled to lift your arm over your head, the ache burning deep into your shoulder, the tears of exhaustion and anger pricked at your eyes.
āI hate this!ā you shouted, slamming your hands against the countertop, the sound echoing through the apartment. āI canāt even bend without feeling like Iām going to fall!ā
Clark didnāt flinch, didnāt step back. He knelt to meet your gaze, his expression soft but steady, his hands resting lightly on your shoulders as if they could absorb your pain. āI know, honey,ā he murmured, voice full of tenderness. āI see it. I feel it. That anger, that frustration? Itās part of healing. Youāre allowed to be upset. Youāre allowed to be scared. Iāll take it. All of it. Iām here, and Iām not going anywhere.ā
Your breath hitched, tears spilling over despite yourself. He didnāt move. He just held you in that space, letting you be raw, letting you be furious at your body, at the months youād lost, at the unfairness of it all. And slowly, almost imperceptibly, your body leaned into him, seeking the grounding only he could provide.
āYou really⦠mean it?ā you whispered, voice small, broken, almost afraid that accepting it would make the pain worse.
āI mean it,ā he said firmly, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple. āEvery word. Every day. Every step ā Iām right here with you.ā
Afternoons were quieter now, a rhythm you were learning to cherish. Sunlight pooled across the hardwood floors, spilling over the corners of the furniture, catching on the dust motes like little sparks of gold. You sat in your chair, legs still shaking from the morningās exercises, the walker parked close by as a security blanket of sorts.
Books lay open in your lap, their pages soft and worn, familiar stories that grounded you when the world outside felt unfamiliar. Clark sat beside you, leaning just enough to read along without crowding, occasionally brushing his fingertips against yours. The touches were quiet, subtle, but each one felt like a lifeline ā grounding, reassuring. You could feel his pulse, steady and strong, as if it were telling you that the world was safe, that you were safe, that you were allowed to be here, alive, whole, even if only slowly.
A record played in the background, the gentle croon of a voice that had been part of your life for years filling the apartment. You hummed softly along, your voice catching at first, hoarse from disuse, but Clarkās hand pressed lightly over yours, encouraging. āDonāt worry about the pitch,ā he murmured. āIāve waited nine months to hear you sing again. Thatās all that matters.ā
Evenings were always more complicated. Your body ached, a deep, persistent soreness that reminded you of every month of immobility, of every wasted muscle, of every moment of helplessness in the hospital. And yet, even as your limbs trembled, your mind spun faster than you could contain. Every sound of the city filtered in through the open window: the blare of a horn, sirens wailing like distant alarms, the chatter and laughter of strangers passing by. It was overwhelming, almost too much, a flood of sensory input that made your chest tighten.
Clark never left your side during those moments. His hand on your back was steady, unyielding, a warm, constant weight that reminded you to breathe. āIn⦠and out,ā he murmured quietly, brushing a strand of hair from your temple. āFocus on me, honey. Thatās all you need to do right now. Just me.ā His voice was soft, insistent, coaxing, and somehow it made the chaos outside the windows shrink into something manageable.
Even the smallest moments had become milestones, victories carved out of everyday life. The first time you walked across the living room without gripping the walker, legs quivering but standing, Clarkās eyes had shone with quiet awe. Every tremor of your muscles was met with his steady hands and whispered encouragement: āThatās it⦠perfect. Youāre doing it. Every inch counts.ā Holding a cup of tea without it shaking, standing by the window and letting sunlight pour over your face, even laughing at a joke without fear of falling apart ā all of it became monumental, shared triumphs in the cocoon of your home.
Some nights, when the fatigue pressed down on your bones and the memories of the hospital crept back like shadows, youād sink against Clarkās chest, curling your legs against him as he wrapped you in his arms. His warmth was the anchor that tethered you to the world outside your memories. āIām scared,ā youād whisper, voice small, vulnerable, and raw.
āI know,ā heād reply, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple, over your hair, anywhere he could reach without crowding your space. āBut youāre here. Youāre alive. And Iām right here with you. Weāll face everything together, one moment at a time.ā
Slowly, as the days passed, the apartment ā once simply a space of furniture and light ā became your sanctuary. Every cautious step, every tremor of exhaustion, every sigh of frustration or laugh of relief was witnessed and held by someone who had spent nine months waiting for you to return. Someone who had never left, never faltered, never stopped believing.
Youād close your eyes sometimes, inhaling the mingling scents of laundry, tea, the faint floral of the flowers Clark always kept, and his presence ā warm, solid, unwavering. In those moments, you could almost feel yourself piecing back together, little by little, day by day. āIām home,ā you whispered, voice trembling but resolute. āReally home.ā
Clark pressed a gentle kiss to your hair, smiling softly as his hand brushed over yours again. āYou are, honey. And weāll make every day here ours. Every single one.ā
Sunlight spilled through the wide windows, painting golden stripes across the floor, lighting up every familiar corner with a brilliance that felt both comforting and disorienting. Every object ā the couch, the coffee table, your favorite books stacked carefully on the shelf ā seemed charged with memory, yet unfamiliar after so many months away. Your walker stood near the couch, sturdy and familiar, but today it felt almost foreign. Today, you wanted to trust yourself, cautiously, painfully, with every step your own.
Clark knelt beside you, close enough that the warmth of his body brushed against yours without touching. His hands hovered, a silent offer of support. His eyes were wide and bright, reflecting both concern and awe, as if he were watching a miracle unfold in slow motion. āYou sure about this, honey?ā he asked softly, voice low and reverent, careful not to startle you.
You nodded, swallowing past the lump in your throat, heart hammering so violently it made your chest ache. āI⦠I want to try. I know youāre here. I just⦠I need to do this on my own.ā
Clark pressed a soft kiss to your temple, grounding you, letting you feel his unwavering presence. āThen Iām right here. Every step, every moment. I wonāt let go.ā
You took a long, trembling breath, feeling your legs quake under the familiar, unwelcome weight of your body. The muscles had forgotten how to obey, protesting every small motion with sharp, fiery reminders of the months spent dormant. But determination surged through you, bright and fierce. You shifted your weight, toes pressing into the cool hardwood, and took the first tentative step. Then another. And another, each one deliberate, a fragile victory.
Clarkās hand brushed lightly against the small of your back, not lifting, not holding, just reminding you that you werenāt alone. āThatās it, honey,ā he whispered, his voice soft, steady. āOne step at a time. Youāve got this.ā
The tremor in your legs made each movement a battle. Your breath came in shallow, ragged bursts, your muscles threatening mutiny with every motion. And yet, the fire in your chest burned brighter than the pain, fueling each small, determined step.
You moved past the couch, past the coffee table, past the familiar chairs and rugs that suddenly seemed like obstacles in a world reborn. Your voice was barely above a whisper, almost a prayer. āI⦠I can do this. I⦠Iām doing it.ā
Clarkās lips trembled into a small, awe-filled smile, his eyes glistening with unshed tears. āYou are, honey. You are. Look at you.ā
Halfway across the living room, your leg quivered violently, a tidal wave of fear crashing through your chest. Panic rose sharply, and for a heart-stopping moment, you froze, the world narrowing to the trembling of your own knees. But then you felt it: the warmth of Clarkās presence, the quiet, unwavering faith in you, and the gentle steadiness of his gaze.
āDonāt stop,ā he whispered firmly, voice low and full of love. āKeep going. Iām right here. Iāll never leave you.ā
Summoning every ounce of courage, you forced another step. And another. The quiver in your legs persisted, but the steps came, small and unsteady but undeniably yours. The apartment ā once static, silent, and still ā became a stage for your fragile triumph.
By the time you reached the far corner near the window, sunlight spilling over your shoulders and warming your skin, your knees gave slightly, a wave of relief mingling with terror. And you laughed ā small, shaky, breathless, but triumphant. āI⦠I did it,ā you whispered, voice cracking, tears brimming. āI⦠I walked!ā
Clark closed the distance instantly, hands firm yet gentle on your waist, steadying you without removing the victory from your own legs. His face was alight with love, awe, and disbelief, a reflection of every sleepless night, every whispered word, every heartache endured in your absence. āYes! You did it, honey! Youāre incredible!ā His lips brushed your forehead in a long, trembling kiss. āLook at you⦠every single step.ā
Tears blurred your vision as relief, exhaustion, pain, and triumph collided inside you. āI⦠I canāt believe it,ā you breathed. āIt hurts⦠but I did it. I really did it.ā
Clarkās hand covered yours, warm, grounding, steady. āI know, honey. I know it hurts. And thatās okay. Every step, every ache, every tremor ā itās proof of your strength. Of your fight. Of you. And Iām here. Always. Every step, every moment.ā
You leaned slightly into him, exhausted but exhilarated, letting yourself feel it all: the fragility, the victory, the impossibility of what youād just done. The city outside, with its noise and movement and chaos, felt less overwhelming, almost gentle compared to the miracle of your own strength.
Clark stayed kneeling beside you, watching in silent reverence, a man witnessing the rebirth of someone he loved more than life itself. Each small victory was monumental; each unsteady step a testament to months of pain, hope, and unwavering devotion. In this quiet apartment, filled with sunlight and the faint scent of clean laundry and flowers, you were reclaiming the world ā one slow, deliberate, beautiful step at a time.
After a few more careful steps across the living room, you sank onto the couch, legs trembling violently beneath you, muscles screaming in protest. Clark immediately knelt beside you, his hand brushing along yours, fingers warm and steady against your skin. You leaned back, letting the sunlight spill over you, the golden light washing away some of the tension coiled tight in your chest. For the first time in months, you allowed yourself to breathe fully, slow and uneven, tasting the faint floral sweetness of the detergent still lingering in the apartment.
āIt⦠itās strange,ā you whispered, voice raw, almost brittle. āBeing here. Feeling⦠like Iām really home.ā
Clarkās thumb brushed in tiny circles along the back of your hand, grounding you. āItās okay, honey,ā he said softly. āItās going to feel strange for a while. Your bodyās learning again. Your mind⦠your heart⦠theyāre catching up. But youāre doing it. Youāre here. Youāre alive.ā
A shaky laugh escaped you, more fragile than you expected. āAlive⦠itās justāafter everything, it feels almost impossible to believe it.ā
He leaned closer, brushing a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his forehead settling lightly against yours. āI know. Iāve waited nine months for this, every single day hoping for it. And now itās here. Youāre here. Iām here. Weāre together. Thatās all that matters.ā
Tears pricked your eyes again, hot and relentless, as your hand pressed to your chest, feeling the irregular, rapid rise and fall of your heartbeat. āI⦠I never thought Iād feel normal again. Or even⦠okay.ā
āYou donāt have to feel normal yet,ā Clark murmured, lips brushing your temple in a tender, reverent kiss. āYou just have to feel. Every step, every ache, every triumph ā thatās enough. Thatās living. And youāre reclaiming it, honey, piece by piece.ā
For a long, suspended moment, the apartment wrapped around you in warm quiet. Outside, the city roared on, oblivious and chaotic. Here, though, sunlight pooled over the hardwood floors, painting your shared world in gold and comfort. Clarkās presence was an anchor, his steady breathing matching yours, his hand never leaving yours.
Finally, you turned toward him, a flicker of resolve in your gaze. āClark⦠I want to try something else. Just⦠just for a few minutes.ā
His eyes lifted instantly, hope mingled with caution. āAnything, honey. Whatever you need.ā
You gripped the arms of the couch, muscles quivering, teeth clenched against the tension in your legs. Slowly, agonizingly, you pushed yourself upward. Clarkās hands hovered just behind you, ready to catch, not to restrain. His steady presence was a lifeline, a reminder that no matter how fragile you felt, you werenāt facing this alone.
āGood,ā he whispered as your knees wobbled beneath you. āYouāve got this.ā
Step by step, inch by inch, you moved toward the kitchen. The sunlight streaming through the window caught the steam rising from Clarkās tea, the faint floral scent of fresh laundry lingering like a protective halo around you. Every slight movement ā your shaking hands grasping the counter for balance, your careful placement of one foot before the other ā felt monumental, a quiet testament to months of painstaking effort.
When you reached the counter, your knees threatening to give out, you allowed yourself a small laugh, shaky and trembling. āI⦠I did it again,ā you whispered, disbelief cracking through your voice.
Clarkās face softened, tears pooling in the corners of his eyes. āYou did, honey. You really did. Every step, every tiny victory ā I see it all. And I love you even more for it.ā
You exhaled, letting the tension of both your body and your mind release a fraction, leaning into him, feeling the warmth and steadiness of his presence. āI⦠Iām scared,ā you admitted, voice raw. āBut⦠I want this. I want to feel normal again. I want⦠to live.ā
Clark pressed his lips gently against your temple, then rested his forehead against yours, grounding you. āYou are living, honey. Every breath, every shaky step, every fight you face ā thatās life. And Iām here. Always. Every moment, every inch.ā
You let your eyes close, letting yourself drink in the peace of the moment ā the sunlight, the smells, the quiet apartment, and the unwavering devotion beside you. Every tremor, every pang of fatigue, every heartbeat that reminded you of what youād lost and what you were reclaiming ā all of it felt real, alive, and achingly beautiful.
Clark whispered into the silence, soft enough to brush against your ear: āWeāll take it one step at a time, honey. Together, weāll take it all back.ā
And for the first time in months, you believed it ā not just the words, but the promise, the life waiting for you outside the hospital walls, and the man who had never left your side.
A few weeks had passed since youād returned home, and the slow rhythm of life had begun to settle into something familiar. You could walk across the living room without the walker for support, stand at the window without Clarkās hand holding yours, and even manage short stretches into the kitchen on your own. Your body was still weak, muscles protesting, but each step was steadier, more confident ā a testament to the months of painstaking therapy and your unyielding determination.
This morning, you found yourself in the softly lit office of Dr. Reyes, your therapist. The room smelled faintly of sandalwood and paper, bookshelves lined with novels and therapy guides. For the first time, you had asked to meet with her alone, to speak freely without Clark hovering just outside the door.
āYou wanted some privacy today,ā Dr. Reyes said gently, offering a small, understanding smile as she gestured to the chair across from her.
You nodded, wrapping your hands around your knees. āI⦠I need to try this on my own. Clarkās amazing, but⦠I feel like I need to face this by myself for a bit.ā
Dr. Reyes' voice was calm, patient. āOf course. Youāve made incredible progress physically, and now itās time to give your mind the same care. Why donāt we start with how youāve been feeling over the last few weeks?ā
You exhaled slowly, letting the words rise from a place deep inside your chest. āItās⦠weird,ā you admitted, voice trembling slightly. āBeing at home, walking, doing things⦠but my mind keeps drifting back. I remember the hospital, the room, the bed, the⦠waiting. And then I think about everything I missed ā friends, normal days, even small things like a morning walk. And it hits me⦠Iāve lost so much time.ā
Dr. Reyes nodded softly, scribbling a few notes. āIt makes sense. Youāve been through nine months of forced stillness, months where the world moved on without you. Thatās a lot to process. Can you tell me what part of that loss feels the heaviest right now?ā
Your hands clenched together, nails pressing into your palms. āI donāt know⦠maybe just⦠the fear that I canāt catch up. That Iāll never feel normal again. That everything I loved⦠itās⦠different now. I feel⦠fragile.ā
āFragile doesnāt mean broken,ā Dr. Reyes said gently. āIt means youāre aware, and youāre learning to protect yourself while you rebuild. And youāre not alone ā you have Clark, your support system, and even though youāre here alone today, this is still a safe space to explore those fears.ā
You swallowed hard, blinking rapidly, tears threatening to spill. āItās just⦠sometimes I feel angry. At the world, at myself, even at him. Because he⦠he waited for me, but he also suffered while I was gone. And I⦠I canāt stop feeling guilty about that.ā
āThat guilt is a sign of love,ā Dr. Reyes said softly. āYouāre recognizing the impact this has had on the people around you, but you also need to recognize your own strength. Youāre here. Youāve endured months of physical and mental recovery. Youāre rebuilding not just your body, but your life. Thatās remarkable.ā
You exhaled shakily, staring at your hands for a long moment. āIt feels⦠like Iām climbing out of a pit thatās so deep I forgot what sunlight looked like.ā
Dr. Reyes' eyes were gentle, unwavering. āAnd you are climbing. And look ā here you are, walking on your own at home, attending therapy sessions, confronting the emotions youāve carried for months. That sunlight isnāt gone. Itās right there, and youāre reaching for it.ā
You lifted your gaze to her, the first faint spark of hope flickering in your eyes. āI⦠I want to feel that sunlight again. I want to⦠be okay.ā
āYou will,ā Dr. Reyes said, smiling. āItās not a straight path, and some days will be harder than others. But youāre learning, healing, and growing stronger every day. And the fact that youāre here, taking these steps, talking about these feelings ā thatās proof that you will get there.ā
You let out a small, shaky laugh, a mixture of relief and vulnerability. āItās⦠hard. I didnāt think it would feel this hard. But⦠I want to try.ā
āThatās all you need,ā Dr. Reyes said warmly. āTrying, being honest with yourself, letting yourself feel. Youāre doing more than enough. Now, take a deep breath and letās talk about whatās been the smallest moments of joy for you since coming home. Even tiny victories count.ā
You shifted in your seat, a faint smile tugging at your lips. āThe sunlight⦠feeling the air on my face when I walk to the window⦠having tea in my favorite mug⦠Clark⦠he⦠heās still here. Every step, every day, heās⦠heās amazing.ā
Dr. Reyes nodded, letting the words settle. āSee? Thatās the light. Thatās what youāll build on. And one day, those small victories will feel as real and as powerful as the big ones. Your journey is yours, and itās unfolding beautifully.ā
You exhaled again, letting the warmth of that truth sink in. āItās⦠overwhelming,ā you whispered. āBut⦠I think⦠I think I can do it.ā
Dr. Reyes leaned back slightly, letting the silence stretch for a moment before speaking again. āOverwhelming is okay,ā she said gently. āIt means your mind is waking up again, just like your body has been. Youāve been through so much⦠itās natural to feel everything all at once.ā
You nodded, fingers gripping the edge of the chair. āI⦠I just keep thinking about all the time Iāve lost. Months of⦠life, just gone. And I donāt even know if I can⦠if I can catch up.ā
āThatās a normal fear,ā Dr. Reyes replied, her voice calm but firm. āNine months is a long time, but it doesnāt define the rest of your life. Youāre starting from a different place now, yes ā physically, emotionally ā but itās a starting point. And the fact that youāre sitting here, talking about it, and willing to face it⦠thatās progress in itself.ā
You let out a shaky breath, blinking rapidly. āI feel⦠like a stranger in my own life. Everythingās familiar, but⦠itās also not. I can remember what it was like before, but now⦠now itās different.ā
Dr. Reyes nodded again. āThatās called disorientation. Your brain has been in recovery mode for months, and now youāre reintegrating. It takes time. Be patient with yourself. Let yourself feel the strangeness without judgment.ā
You closed your eyes for a moment, taking in a slow breath. āAnd Clark⦠heās⦠heās been incredible. I donāt know what Iād do without him. But I keep worrying that Iām holding him back. That⦠Iām not enough.ā
āThat worry is natural too,ā Dr. Reyes said softly. āBut love isnāt about measuring worth or time lost. Itās about showing up, supporting one another. Heās choosing to be here, every step of the way. Thatās a gift ā and it doesnāt diminish who you are, or how far youāve come.ā
You opened your eyes again, the beginnings of a faint, genuine smile tugging at your lips. āI guess⦠I just want to feel normal again. I want to wake up without this fear gnawing at me every morning.ā
āAnd you will,ā Dr. Reyes said, leaning forward slightly. āItās a process. The fear is real, but itās also temporary. Each day you practice walking, talking, laughing, even crying ā each day is a step toward reclaiming normal. And youāre not alone in this. You have your home, your support system, and the tools to face what comes next.ā
You exhaled, letting some of the tension drain from your shoulders. āI⦠I think I understand. Itās just⦠I need to remind myself that itās okay to be scared. That itās okay if it takes time.ā
Dr. Reyes smiled warmly. āExactly. Courage isnāt the absence of fear ā itās moving forward in spite of it. Youāve shown that courage every day for months. Youāll keep showing it, and it will get easier, I promise.ā
You nodded slowly, the weight of the session settling over you in a quiet, almost comforting way. āThank you⦠for helping me see that.ā
āYou did all the work,ā Dr. Reyes said, her voice soft but full of conviction. āI just help you notice it. Youāve done more than most people could imagine. Now, take that strength home and continue building on it. One day at a time.ā
You left the office with a deep, shuddering breath,feeling a small spark of hope flicker in your chest.
Clark sat at his desk, papers and reports spread out before him, but his mind was elsewhere, drifting like a leaf caught in a slow current. His glasses had slid slightly down his nose, hair tousled in the familiar, messy way he never quite bothered to fix, and his tie was loosened, giving him an uncharacteristic, almost exhausted appearance. He stared at the words on his screen, fingers poised above the keyboard, yet the sentences blurred together, meaningless. Every so often, he would hover over a report, blink, and realize he hadnāt absorbed a single word. His thoughts werenāt on deadlines, headlines, or office politicsāthey were with you.
The last few weeks replayed in his mind with vivid clarity: the way you had risen from the hospital bed with Clarkās steady hands supporting you, the faint tremble in your legs giving way to small, determined steps, the triumphant laughter after each victoryāeven when paired with tears of frustration and exhaustion. He remembered the mornings when you would grimace through stretches, muscles screaming, your body betraying your willpower, and the evenings when you rested against him, forehead pressed to his chest, whispering softly, āIām home⦠really home.ā
He let out a slow, almost inaudible sigh, rubbing his temples, trying to wrestle his thoughts back to the newsroom. Around him, life continued unabated: Lois was mid-sentence about a breaking deadline, gesturing wildly with her pen; Jimmy was leaning over a colleagueās shoulder, teasing and laughing with unfiltered energy; Perryās voice boomed down the hallway like an unstoppable force, demanding attention. And yet, none of it reached him. The office buzzed and pulsed with urgency, but Clark felt detached, almost unreal.
āYouāre zoning out again, Clark,ā Jimmy said, leaning against his desk and giving a light nudge. āMan, you need a break. Go get a coffee, take five, maybe even stop brooding over the city for five minutes.ā
Clark rubbed his jaw, a slow, deliberate movement that belied the tension coiled in him. āI⦠Iām fine,ā he said, though the words sounded hollow, lacking conviction. He had gone back to work because you had insisted. You had done so gently, but firmly, exhaustion and determination etched into your face:
āYou canāt be my entire world, Clark. You need air, sunshine, peopleājust⦠life,ā you had said one evening, brushing a stray strand of hair from your face. āEven if I feel like Iām the only thing that matters, you have to remember yourself. Please. Take time for yourself. Go on walks. Go out with Jimmy. Be Superman. Just⦠live.ā
He had argued weakly, insisting he could work from home, remain close in case you needed him. You had smiled softly, a faint laugh escaping your lips despite your fatigue.
āNo, Clark. You need to remember the world exists outside of me. Even if Iām all you can think about, thereās a city waiting. A life waiting. You need it. You need⦠you.ā
So he had. Tentatively at first. One step at a time. The first walk through the park alone had felt strange and hollow, the city alive but distant, and every sight and sound a reminder that he wasnāt fully in your orbit. He had gone out for coffee, grabbed lunch with Jimmy, and even patrolled when necessary. Each time, a small part of him ached with the absence of your presence. And yet, he found a fragile comfort in knowing that you were safe, that you were strong, that you were homeāand every small, victorious step you took strengthened him in return.
Now, sitting at his desk, he was physically present but mentally adrift. His thoughts wandered back to the morningās video call with you, where you had laughed at some minor frustration in your therapy exercises. He remembered the way your eyes had sparkled, defiant and determined despite the tremor in your hands, the way you had insisted, āClark, Iāve got this. Go live your life. Iāll manage.ā
He let his fingers rest on the keyboard, unmoving, mind spinning with images: you taking those first tentative steps across the living room, gripping your walker tightly, muscles quivering; you finally reaching the window and letting sunlight wash over your face, a small, triumphant smile tugging at your lips; the quiet evenings when you read aloud while he traced the curve of your hand with his thumb.
His chest tightened with longing and awe. Every paper on the desk, every blinking cursor, seemed trivial in comparison to the sight of you alive, laughing, resilient, and fragile all at once.
āYou sure you okay, man?ā Jimmyās voice pulled him briefly back to the present. āYou look like you just⦠remembered the worldās biggest secret or something.ā
Clark shook his head slightly, a soft smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. āYeah,ā he said quietly, almost to himself. āJust⦠thinking about her. How far sheās come.ā
Jimmy raised an eyebrow but didnāt press further, sensing the depth of what Clark carried. He leaned back, smirking. āYouāre a hopeless mess, you know that? Sheās going to crush you with all that love when she finds out youāre thinking about her during deadlines.ā
Clark chuckled softly, a sound edged with both melancholy and warmth, rubbing the bridge of his nose. āI donāt care,ā he whispered, almost reverently. āI just⦠Iām proud. Iām⦠so proud.ā
And then he heard your voice.
āHoney?ā
Clarkās head snapped up at the sound of your voice, eyes widening in disbelief.
You stepped forward, cane in hand, the lunch bag carefully in your hand. The sunlight from the large newsroom windows caught the edges of your hair. āI⦠thought Iād surprise you,ā you said softly, taking a careful step. āI brought lunch. All by myself.ā
Clark was on his feet in an instant, shock written across his face. āYou⦠youāre here? Alone?ā His voice was barely above a whisper, trembling with awe. āWithout anyone helping?ā
You nodded, a shy smile tugging at your lips. āMostly alone. I had the cane, but⦠I wanted you to see it. I wanted to remind you Iām really okay.ā
At the edges of the newsroom, Lois, Jimmy, and Cat had been looking up from their desks, startled by the sudden shift in the atmosphere. Jimmyās jaw dropped, Cat blinked rapidly, and Lois immediately rose, eyes wide. āWait⦠is thatā?ā
Clark didnāt answer at first. He just walked toward you, moving almost as if in a daze, and took the bag from your hands, setting it on his desk. His eyes roamed over you, memorizing every line of your face, the way your hair caught the light, the faint flush from the effort of walking. āI⦠I canāt believe this,ā he whispered. āYou⦠you really did all this⦠on your own?ā
āYes,ā you said softly, still steadying yourself with the cane. āI wanted to. For me⦠and for you.ā
Lois, finally recovering, leaned forward with a mixture of awe and disbelief. āOh my god⦠you walked in here. Youāre⦠youāre really standing.ā
Jimmy, grinning, muttered under his breath, āMan⦠Clark, I think she just broke the laws of gravity and patience at the same time.ā
Clark shook his head, laughing softly, tears glistening in his eyes. āYou amaze me every single day. How⦠how do you keep doing this?ā
āI guess I just wanted to remind you Iām here,ā you said, a little breathless. āI didnāt want you to have to worry so much. And I wanted to see you smile⦠for real, Clark.ā
Clark pressed a hand to your cheek, thumb brushing slowly over your skin. āHoney⦠Iāve been smiling the whole time Iāve been with you. But this⦠seeing you here, standing⦠itās something else. Something I canāt even put into words.ā
Lois moved closer, eyes softening. āClark⦠look at her. Sheās incredible.ā
You let out a soft laugh, shaky and breathless. āCareful⦠youāll make me cry before we even eat.ā
Clark chuckled, a warm, shaky sound. āThen weāll cry together,ā he whispered, leaning down to press a tentative kiss to your temple. āBut first⦠letās get you seated before you collapse from all this walking.ā
He guided you carefully to the chair by his desk, every step deliberate, giving you confidence while keeping you safe. Once you were seated, he arranged the tray in front of you, hands lingering over the edge.
āI canāt believe you thought of everything⦠even my favorite sandwich,ā he said softly, awe thick in his voice.
āI wanted it to be perfect⦠for you,ā you said, reaching out to steady yourself with trembling fingers.
Clark leaned in, pressing a quick, careful kiss across your lips. Soft, tentative, full of love and awe. You kissed him back, weakly but wholeheartedly, your lips lingering just long enough to make his heart ache. Pulling back slightly, he rested his forehead against yours, eyes glistening.
āYou⦠youāre incredible,ā he whispered. āI donāt deserve this. And yet⦠here you are, strong, alive, standing in front of me.ā
Lois stepped closer, her voice catching. āClark⦠sheās⦠she really came here all alone. Look at her. Youāve waited a year for this moment⦠and now sheās here.ā
Jimmy added, a grin on his face, āSeriously, Clark. Youāre not gonna stop staring, are you?ā
Clark smiled through his tears, not even listening to his friends, pressing another gentle kiss to your hair. He was too focused on you. āYouāve given me everything,ā he murmured. āEvery moment, every step, every triumph⦠youāve given me more than I could have imagined.ā
You reached out, holding his hand over yours. āThen letās eat before we both cry too much and forget lunch entirely.ā
Clark chuckled, brushing his lips once more against your temple. āAgreed,ā he said, finally settling beside you. āBut I swear⦠every bite, Iām going to marvel at the fact that you walked here⦠by yourself.ā
Lois shook her head, smiling fondly. āI donāt think anyone at this desk has ever seen anything like this.ā
Jimmy grinned. āYeah⦠this is officially the most heroic lunch in Daily Planet history.ā
You took a careful sip of your tea, the warmth grounding you, and let out a small laugh. āYou know⦠I feel a little like Iām cheating,ā you said, teasing lightly. āWalking in here alone, carrying lunch⦠and youāre all⦠staring at me like I performed some kind of miracle.ā
Clark smiled, brushing a strand of hair from your face, eyes still wide with disbelief. āYou did perform a miracle,ā he said softly. āYouāve fought every single day for months, and now⦠youāre here. Right in front of me. Youāre breathtaking, honey.ā
You let out a small, exhausted laugh, leaning slightly on your cane but steadying yourself as best you could. āWell⦠someone had to make sure Clark remembered what itās like to be taken care of for once,ā you teased, shooting him a pointed look.
Clarkās laugh came out shaky, full of awe and emotion. āYouāre relentless,ā he murmured, leaning closer and pressing a soft kiss to your cheek. āAnd I⦠I love every second of it.ā
You leaned back slightly, smiling despite the tremor in your hands. āI am amazing⦠thanks to you. Every step I took, every therapy session, every small victory⦠you were there, Clark. Youāve been my rock, my anchor, my home. And now⦠weāre really here. Together.ā
Clark pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead, lingering, letting the weight of the moment sink in. āTogether,ā he echoed, voice thick with emotion. āAlways. And⦠seeing you like this ā alive, laughing, strong ā itās more than I ever dreamed Iād get.ā
You took a deep, shaky breath, feeling the warmth of Clarkās hand, and the strange, thrilling mix of familiarity and wonder. āIt feels⦠surreal,ā you admitted softly. āLike life paused for a while⦠and now itās starting again.ā
Clark leaned closer, brushing his lips against yours in a careful, lingering kiss. āAnd Iāll be here for every second of it,ā he whispered. āEvery first step, every laugh, every victory. Iām not going anywhere, honey.ā
For Clark, the newsroom felt different that day.
The same steady rhythm of keyboards clacking, phones ringing, voices rising and falling ā it all played like background noise to a life he was finally starting to feel again.
A year ago, this room had felt like a coffin.
He remembered that day with painful clarity ā the hum of conversation, the half-eaten sandwich on his desk, the nagging feeling in his chest that something was wrong. Heād almost gone to check on you, almost stood up from his chair ā but a breaking story and Perry had pulled him back, just for a moment. Just long enough.
And then the call came.
The world had shifted on its axis. The newsroom that had always been so alive suddenly became unbearably still. Lois had said his name, Jimmy had asked what was wrong, but all he could hear was the pounding of his own heart ā each thud echoing the same thought: too late.
That moment had replayed in his mind for months. A quiet, merciless ghost haunted every beat of his day. Heād wondered if leaving five minutes earlier would have changed everything, if he could have stopped it ā if he could have saved you.
For nearly a year, this place ā his second home ā had become a reminder of what heād almost lost. Every byline, every meeting, every ringing phone reminded him of the day his world had fallen apart while the rest of the world kept moving.
But now, impossibly, that same space ā that same desk ā had become something else.
Because there you were.
Standing.
Alive.
Walking toward him.
Carrying lunch.
It was almost unbearable in its poetry ā the place that had once destroyed him now healing him in a single, breathtaking instant. The same sunlight that had mocked his grief a year ago now caught your hair, soft and golden, glinting like a quiet miracle.
His heart ached, but not with pain this time ā with awe. Every heartbeat whispered the same thing: Sheās here. Sheās okay. Sheās walking.
He thought of everything that had lived between that day and this one ā the sleepless nights by your hospital bed, the hollow mornings when he went through the motions of living, the ache of waiting for your voice, your laugh, your hand in his again. He remembered whispering your name into sterile air, praying to anyone who might be listening. He remembered Loisās hand on his shoulder when he thought he couldnāt go on. He remembered all of it ā every broken piece of the year that had nearly taken him down with you.
And now, here you were, bringing him lunch in the same place heād once received the worst news of his life. It was as if fate had written the cruelest story imaginable⦠and then given him this moment as its redemption.
He had spent so long wishing he could go back ā change his decision, rewrite that day, stop time before it all went wrong. But as he watched you smile, your eyes meeting his, he realized maybe this was what it meant to survive. Not to undo the pain, but to prove that something stronger could grow from it.
A year ago, heād stayed behind and lost you.
Now, you had walked back to him ā here, in this same place ā not as a memory or a ghost, but as something far stronger, far more real.
The clatter of keyboards, the distant murmur of conversations ā it was all still there, but it no longer pressed on him like it used to. The tension that had lived in his shoulders for almost a year eased. The familiar weight of worry lifted, replaced by something tender, fragile, but alive: relief. Gratitude. Awe.
For the first time in so long, Clark could breathe without the ache. He could exist in a moment without fear, without the ghost of āwhat ifā whispering in his ear.
He realized now that home wasnāt a place ā not the apartment you shared, not even this city. Home was you. The sound of your laugh, the look in your eyes, the quiet strength that had carried you both through hell and back.
Every instinct in him, every muscle that had been braced for bad news for an entire year, finally relaxed. Every ache in his chest, every sleepless night, every whispered prayer softened into something new ā something that felt a lot like peace.
The same desk where heād once sat paralyzed with fear had become the place where he saw life return to him. The same sunlight that had once mocked his grief now wrapped around you both like a promise.
And for the first time in a year ā after all the pain, the waiting, the quiet, desperate hope ā Clark Kent was finally, truly, irrevocably home.
Not in his apartment.
Not even in the safety of your arms.
But here, because you were back. Because you were alive. Because you were his, and he was exactly where his heart had been waiting to be all along.
For the first time, he let himself believe in the world again, not as a place of loss or danger, but as a place of love, of life, of steady, miraculous return.
And he knew, deep in his bones, that he would carry that certainty ā that miracle ā for the rest of his life.
What is the definition of friendship? To you, it is your childhood friendāScaramouche
Light angst, Friendship break up
Part 2: What is nostalgia? To you, it was remembering a version of Scaramouche that no longer exists.
You used to think friendship had a shape.
Back then, if your teacher asked the class to define it, your eyes would immediately drift toward Scaramouche sitting beside the window, chin propped lazily against his palm while pretending not to listen. Friendship was him splitting his strawberry milk with you without asking. It was him sliding his paper toward you during quizzes with a quiet, irritated sigh because you were ātoo stupid at math.ā
It was him waiting outside your classroom every afternoon even when his own class ended earlier.
āMove faster,ā he would grumble, adjusting the straps of his bag while you hurried down the hallway. āDo you walk this slow on purpose?ā
āYou still waited.ā You said while smiling at him.
āUnfortunately.ā But despite the sharp tongue and perpetual frown, he always slowed his pace whenever you struggled to keep up.
You and Scaramouche were inseparable in the way childhood friendships often areāeffortless, unquestioned, absolute.
You shared lunches almost every day. Your food always ended up mixed together somehow: his neatly packed rice and tamagoyaki beside your snacks and sweets. Heād complain every single time you stole from his lunchbox.
āYouāre shameless,ā he muttered one afternoon, narrowing his indigo eyes as you snatched another octopus sausage from his container.
āYou gave me your pudding yesterday.ā
āThat was because you kept staring at it like a stray dog.ā
Yet he pushed the lunchbox closer anyway.
You copied each otherās assignments. More accurately, you copied his while he clicked his tongue dramatically and threatened to stop helping you.
āIf we both fail because of you, Iām leaving you behind.ā
āYou say that every time.ā
āAnd one day Iāll mean it.ā will he truely do this? or you just didnāt know.
Walking home together became routine. The streets felt smaller with him beside you. Summer afternoons smelled like pavement warmed under the sun, convenience store snacks tucked into plastic bags swinging between your hands while Scaramouche complained about literally everything.
āThe old man at the crossing looked at me weird.ā
āHe probably wasnāt even looking at you.ā
Even then, there was fondness hidden underneath every insult. Tiny things only you learned to notice over the years.
Like how he always walked closest to the road.
How he quietly adjusted his pace to yours.
How he remembered what snacks you liked without asking.
You thought it would always stay that way. Then one afternoon, something changed. It was so small you almost convinced yourself it didnāt matter.
āGo ahead without me today.ā You paused by the school gates, fingers tightening around your bag strap. āHuh?ā His answer left you confused.
Scaramouche didnāt look at you immediately. His attention lingered somewhere behind you instead, toward a taller boy waving from across the courtyard.
āIām going somewhere.ā From the tone of his voice, he clearly in a rush
āWith who?ā The feeling is new to you, you didnāt know how to comprehend it nor how to react properly because it is unpleasant in the way that you cant even describe it
āA friend.ā The word settled strangely in your chest.
Friend.
Of course he could have other friends. There was nothing wrong with that. It was normal. Healthy, even. But for some reason, hearing it felt unfamiliar because Scaramouche was your only friend.
You tried to smile anyway. āOh. Okay.ā
He shoved his hands into his pockets awkwardly. āDonāt look so pathetic about it.ā
āIām not.ā You defend your self, āYou are.ā
Then, after a brief pause, he added quieterā
āIāll walk with you tomorrow.ā
But tomorrow became twice a week. Then once. Then not at all and somehow, you never realized that childhood could end so quietly.
By high school, the distance between you had become impossible to ignore.
You still shared classrooms sometimes, still recognized the familiar sharp tilt of his eyes, the dark violet hair brushing against his neck, the bored expression he wore like armorābut he no longer felt reachable.
Scaramouche changed in subtle ways first. He became quieter around you. Less patient. Less willing to linger.
Conversations that once came naturally now felt stiff and uncertain.
āDid you study for the test?ā you asked one morning while catching up beside his desk.
He didnāt even glance up from his phone. āObviously.ā
āOh.ā Silence.
āā¦You wanna walk home later?ā you try to start a conversation with him, still hoping that maybe you can him again.
āIām busy, canāt you understand that? wellā¦. He is still your friend right? ā¦. right?
Every answer became shorter than the last. You started wondering if you had done something wrong. But whenever you searched his face for answers, you found nothing. Only indifference and that hurt far more than anger ever could.
Eventually, you stopped trying as often. Not because you wanted to because rejection becomes exhausting after enough repetitions.
Ironically, high school was when your social circle finally expanded. You made new friends, joined group outings, laughed louder than you used to.
People liked you. People stayed.
Yet sometimes, in the middle of crowded cafeterias or noisy classrooms, your eyes would instinctively search for him.
And every single time, youād rememberā boy who used to wait for you after class now walked past you like you were barely there.
Still, there were moments. Small, terrible moments that kept hope alive. Like catching him staring at you from across the room before immediately looking away or when he wordlessly handed you a pen after yours ran out during exams.
Or the one rainy afternoon when your umbrella snapped inside out from the wind. You stood under the convenience store awning in disbelief.
āSeriously?ā A familiar voice clicked its tongue beside you. āYouāre hopeless.ā
You turned sharply. Scaramouche stood there holding a black umbrella, irritation evident on his face as rain poured heavily behind him.
āYouāll get sick standing there.ā For a second, your chest tightened painfully with nostalgia.
Like middle school again. Like nothing had changed.
You smiled before you could stop yourself. āThen share your umbrella with me.ā He hesitated. Just for a second.
Then he sighed sharply and tilted the umbrella toward you. āDonāt misunderstand. Iām only doing this because I donāt want to hear you whining tomorrow.ā
You walked beside each other in silence after that. Not the comfortable silence from years ago. This one felt fragile. Careful. You wanted to ask him so many things.
Why did you leave me behind?
Did I become boring?
Do you still think about us too?
But the words stayed trapped in your throat. When you finally gathered enough courage to speakā
āScaraāā
His phone buzzed. He glanced down immediately. āI have to go.ā
And just like that, the moment disappeared. Again.
Time moved cruelly fast after graduation. You entered college before you fully realized high school had already ended. Life became busier. Louder. Faster. Assignments. New people. Deadlines. Sleepless nights.
Somewhere along the way, Scaramouche became less of a person in your daily life and more like an ache tucked quietly beneath your ribs.
Then one evening, while hanging out with old classmates, someone casually mentionedā
āOh, didnāt you know? Scaramouche studies abroad now.ā Your fingers froze around your drink.
āā¦Abroad?ā You asked, you want your ears to betray you.
āYeah. Left months ago, apparently.ā Months agoā¦.
You never knew, it hurts you that you found out about that in another person
You laughed softly to hide the strange crack forming inside your chest. āI see.ā
Nobody noticed how quiet you became afterward. That night, you walked back to your dorm alone. The city lights blurred faintly through tired eyes while cold wind brushed against your face. Your hands stayed buried in your pockets as thoughts circled endlessly in your head.
If time hadnāt drifted you apartā¦
Would he be attending your university right now?
Would you two still be sharing terrible instant noodles at midnight while complaining about professors?
Would he still insult your life choices while walking beside you under dim streetlights at two in the morning?
Would you still be his first call?
Would he still wait for you?
You missed him. God, you missed him.
Not the distant version everyone knew now. Not the cold, detached person high school turned him into. You missed your best friend. The boy who shared his lunch with you. The boy who walked you home. The boy who used to stand beside you so naturally it felt impossible to imagine a future without him in it and maybe that was the cruelest part of growing up.
Sometimes nobody betrays you. Nobody fights. Nobody says goodbye.
summary: soonami studios forces you and keys mckey into a shared apartment as a temporary housing arrangement. at first, itās just surviving each other ā the arguments, the competition, the constant tension of being around someone who gets under your skin too easily. but the longer it goes on, the harder it becomes to ignore how naturally your lives start folding into each other. and once someone becomes part of your everyday life, losing them starts feeling a lot more dangerous.
warnings: slow burn, forced proximity, enemy coworkers/roommates, workplace rivalry, arguments, profanity, smoking, mutual pining, jealousy, emotional conflict, domestic tension, suggestive touching, smut (will be warned), emotionally repressed people pretending they donāt care about each other when they very obviously do..
an: helloo, iām so excited for you all to read this keys series i have planned. iāve been so keyspilled recently so this has just been so easy to write. updates might be a little chaotic depending on my schedule, but iām genuinely so excited for this story and all the little moments i have planned for them. arguments, tension, domestic stuff, yearning, emotional damage.
a very special thank you to juls, sierra, and ani for genuinely being the sweetest people ever throughout all of this. ani is literally the reason this story even exists because she brought me the original idea and somehow altered my brain chemistry with it. thank you for giving me suggestions, helping me figure things out, and always being people i can run to whenever inspiration hits. i genuinely donāt think this story would feel the same without all of your excitement and support behind it <3
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25 "you've no idea what you do to me," vulnerability dialogue prompts !!
(feel free to use <333 tag me when yall write!! my favs are 5!! 10, 3 )
"God, I need you."
"I've craved this more nights than I can remember." :'')
"Would it assure you if I say.. that I'd be honored to protect your vulnerability with me?"
when you both sleep together after a traumatic event, you holding them
^ they silently whisper, "I'm scared.. That you'll leave me once you see how much I need you. that this love will consume me, make me.. clingy, and you'll see I'm just.. broken"
"Can you hug me?" By a really vulnerable you and they still at the request before one hand moves to your back, holding you against them - perhaps more tightly than necessary.
They make a choked sound, half laugh, half sob, pressing their forehead against yours, "What would I be without you?"
"Would you... would you be okay if I put my arm around your shoulders? Like, hugging you from the side?"
^ "Would u want to?" you ask but they hadn't expected you to ask if they wanted to. your question implies that you care about their feelings too, and it touches something deep within them. "Yes," they admit softly. "I do."
Cuddling but its them on top resting their ear over ur heart and listening to its beatssssss
3 am truth exchanges and both your voices are really quiet, intimate and genuine, eyes shining with lots of emotions that you both honor and hold close.
Mr. Manager, after tasting your Seared Scallop and Eel Stew, I found myself haunted by the flavor and thus would love to request a second serving.
If I may, could I request a look into how the Overblot Boys react to the MC being really hurt and in the infirmary from said Overblots? A taste of how they would feel on seeing the Mc wrapped up and wounded by their own actions. Especially if it was a love at first sight sort of set.
I eagerly await your response and am excited to sample the rest of your delicious menu. Thank you.
Ah, what a discerning palate. It is a pleasure to serve a patron who can appreciate the complex, bittersweet "flavors" of our more haunting dishes.
A second serving of Seared Scallop & Eel Stew is a substantial order, and the kitchen is more than willing to oblige your request. This "dish" is one of our specialties. It explores that precise, agonizing moment after the chaos, when the adrenaline has faded and the full, horrifying weight of the consequences settles in.
The addition of the "love at first sight" request makes this a particularly potent serving. To harm anyone is a burden; to harm the one person your soul recognized on sight⦠that is a special kind of poison.
Please be advised, this "dish" is served very heavy. It contains significant themes of profound guilt, self-loathing, descriptions of injuries (bandages, IVs, unconsciousness), and the emotional trauma of harming a loved one.
I hope this preparation is to your satisfaction, esteemed patron.
Serving: The First Silence (Reactions to a Wounded S/O, Post-Overblot)
The infirmary is quiet, save for the steady, soft beep of a heart monitor. The adrenaline is gone. The blot has faded. The masters of Night Raven College have done what they can, and now you lay still, unconscious, wrapped in bandages. One by one, after being cleared, they are allowed to see you.
š Riddle Rosehearts
He stands in the doorway, unable to make his feet move. His entire life has been a pursuit of perfection, of control. From the moment he saw you, he felt something right, a variable that made his rigid world feel⦠warm. You were the one person he wanted to be a perfect, rule-abiding gentleman for.
Now, he sees the proof of his failure. Youāre small in the infirmary bed. There are bandages wrapped around your arm, where a thrown piece of debris struck you, and a stark white patch on your temple. He did that. He did that.
He finally forces himself to the bedside, his hands clenched so tightly his nails dig into his own palms. He won't sit. He doesn't deserve to. Tears of pure, undiluted self-hatred stream silently down his face. "I⦠I am a monster," he whispers, his voice cracking. He remembers your scream, remembers the look of terror in your eyes before his magic went wild. He reaches out a trembling hand, hovering over yours, terrified to touch you, terrified he'll break you further. "I swore⦠I swore to follow the rules, to be good⦠and I hurt the only person⦠the only thingā¦" He chokes on a sob, his entire body rigid with the agony of his guilt.
š¦ Leona Kingscholar
Heās already in the chair by your bedside, having refused to leave the room since he woke up. Heās slumped forward, elbows on his knees, head in his hands, staring at you. Heās not used to feeling anything this strongly. He'd loved you from the moment he saw you, a bothersome, persistent light that he couldn't chase away⦠and didn't really want to. You were his. His treasure. A king is supposed to protect his territory.
And he, in his rage, was the one who savaged it. Your shoulder is wrapped tightly, where his magicāor his claws, he can't bring himself to remember whichātore through. He watches the steady, shallow rise and fall of your chest. It's the only thing keeping his own magic from lashing out at the walls. He can't sleep. Every time he closes his eyes, he sees you, crumpled on the ground.
A low, pained growl rumbles in his chest. He slowly reaches out, his claws fully retracted, and his large, calloused hand gently, so gently, covers yours. His thumb brushes your knuckles. "Tch⦠You idiot," he rasps, his voice thick. "What are you⦠doing with a good-for-nothing beast like me?" He's not talking to you. He's talking to himself. And he's terrified of the answer you'll give when you wake up.
š Azul Ashengrotto
Heās a mess. Heās at the bedside, his glasses folded neatly on the nightstand, his face buried in his hands. His shoulders are shaking in silent, wracking sobs. This is the ultimate, unpayable debt. From the second you walked into the Mostro Lounge, he was done for. He loved you. It was an immediate, illogical, terrifying fact. And you, in turn, had started to see himānot the facade, not the Lounge manager, but him.
And this is how he repaid you. Your leg is elevated, set in a cast from a "forceful" encounter with one of the twins under his command. An IV drips fluid into your arm. It was his order. His madness.
"This is⦠this is the one contract I can't fulfill," he chokes out, his voice muffled. "I can't⦠I can't take this back." He looks up, his eyes red-rimmed and raw, and he stares at your peaceful, unconscious face. He's horrified. He, who prized control, had lost it so completely that heād destroyed the one thing he ever truly valued. He tries to take your hand, but pulls his back, as if his touch is now poison. "I'm⦠I'm pathetic. Useless. I'm⦠I'm the one who hurt you. After everything⦠I did this." He's terrified you'll wake up and finally see him as the monster he's always believed himself to be.
š Jamil Viper
He won't sit. He stands in the darkest corner of the room, arms crossed, his face a mask of stone. But if you were awake, you'd see the tremor in his hands. He'd been drawn to you instantly, a "love at first sight" that felt like the only thing in his life that was truly his. You were his secret. His joy. His one selfish, beautiful choice.
And in his desperate, chaotic bid for freedom, he had turned his poison on you. Heād seen you get caught in the crossfire, saw you fall. The sight of your still form in this bed, with bandages wrapped around your ribs from where his magic slammed you into a pillar⦠itās a living nightmare.
He feels a self-loathing so cold and sharp it threatens to choke him. "I wanted to be free," he whispers to the shadows, his voice shaking with a rage directed solely at himself. "And in doing so, I hurt the one person who ever⦠ever⦠made me feel that way." He won't approach. He can't. He feels toxic, a walking embodiment of the betrayal he never wanted to inflict on you. He just stands vigil, punishing himself, vowing that if you just wake up, he'll spend the rest of his life atoning for the moment he became the very snake he always tried to hide.
š Vil Schoenheit
He is perched on the edge of the visitor's chair, his posture perfect, his hands clasped so tightly his knuckles are white. He has not moved. He's livid. Heās in a cold, silent rage at the world, at magic, but most of all, at himself. He'd loved you on sight. You were⦠real. A perfect, genuine, beautiful thing in a world of fakes. His "fairest one."
And he had marred that beauty. His overblot⦠his ugliness⦠had done this. He stares at the stitches on your cheek, the deep, ugly purple of the bruises on your arm. He feels filthy. He, the arbiter of beauty, had become a creature of such grotesque rage that he had scarred his masterpiece.
His gloved hand reaches out, his fingers trembling, and he gently, gently, brushes a stray hair from your face. "How⦠how could I?" he breathes, his voice tight, his perfect facade cracking. "I⦠I became the very monster I despise." He leans his head down, his forehead almost touching your hand. "To chase perfection⦠I destroyed what was already perfect. Please, my dear⦠forgive this⦠ugly, foolish⦠beast." He would trade all the fame in the world to undo the "flaws" he created.
š» Idia Shroud
He's not in the room. He can't be. He's outside, in the hall, phased partially into the wall, his hair a dull, flickering, dying-ember red. He can see you through the small window in the door. Heās a sobbing, hiccuping wreck. He'd loved you from "first sight"āprobably a profile picture, a high score, a chance meeting in the library. You were his "fated encounter," the one 3D person who made his 2D world feel less lonely.
And he hurt you. His phantom, his rage, his fault. You have burns on your arms and were treated for smoke inhalation. His smoke. His fault.
"It's my fault⦠it's all my faultā¦" he's muttering, his voice warbling. "I'm a⦠I'm a villain. Not even a final boss. Just⦠a buggy, awful NPC who hurts the main character. I'm⦠I'm a curse." He's terrified. He knows he's the one who did this. He, the shut-in, had actually caused real-world, 3D harm. He'll never forgive himself. He's convinced that the moment you wake up, you'll see him for the monster he is and leave. And he knows, with a crushing, hollow certainty, that he would deserve it.
š² Malleus Draconia
He is at your bedside. He has not left. He has refused to let anyone else in, save for the healers. His "love at first sight" was a cosmic shift. For the first time in centuries, someone had seen him⦠and not been afraid. You were his "Child of Man," his precious, wonderful, fascinating light in an eternity of loneliness.
And he had become the monster. His grief, his loneliness, his power⦠had been turned on you. He sees the bandages on your hands, the deep, healing cuts from the thorny, magical briars. He sees the pale, ghostly frost that still seems to cling to your skin.
He is holding your hand, his large, clawed one completely enveloping yours. His magic, a gentle, warm, healing green, is pouring into you, a desperate, silent plea. Hot tears, the first he's shed in an age, are falling from his glowing green eyes onto your joined hands. "I⦠I did this," he whispers, his voice breaking. "You⦠you were the one. The only one⦠who I did not wish to frighten. And I⦠I became the very thing they all whisper I am." He leans his forehead against your hand. "Please⦠please⦠do not leave me alone again. I⦠I cannot bear this silence."
This was a particularly heavy "dish," patron, but a profoundly flavorful one. The kitchen hopes it has met your expectations, and we are grateful for your continued, discerning patronage.