#another ranting

So I found this poem in my archives, and thought it was worth to publish it as it was:

To my Ex

You gonn’ leave me alone, or what?

You f asshole,

Just don’t follow me around

You f asshole,

Tu sais pas jusqu’à quel point tu me fais ch*

Chien dans la rue, dépourvu de maître

Now that I’m going forward,

Just let me be my own,

And you know what?

I havn’t moved on, ‘cause I still despise you

I wished I felt nothing when I see you, but there is this rage following me and my thoughts

And just the thought of you makes me wanna puke

There’s a fire that can start any moment,

So just go die in whole

And burn, burn all alone

No, you don’t deserve happiness,

After all that you have caused

You treacherous beast

Just leave me alone

Me, I will fly away

With the wings that I’ve grown

They are the wings that you kept cutting

And I thought it was love

How stupid of me,

Living in this stupid society

That taught me nothing but acceptance

Of a fate that wasn’t mine

Be nice, be good, just smile

Where are you? Why don’t you answer, who are you with why don’t you write me enough?

Well now I’m smiling and dancing

rejoicing of the choice of blocking you

Best decision ever done

Although it was painful as sh*

Showed me how to fight

Against the worst invisible chains you were holding me with

Now I’m free of your spell

Go until the depts of this hell

 You f asshole

You m** f***

Perro hijo de puta gonorrea cucaracha asquerosa

Vete al demonio, porque demonio eres tú

Y que te salgan pullas, para que todo el mundo sepa,

Lo jodido que estás, porque no tienes cura

Sexist, racist, fascist,

Va te faire f***, tout seul dans ton abîme,

I finished working at the restaurant around 9 cause I wasn't feeling too good. Hell I didn't have the strength to move tables and bring out a smile for the customers. I received a 3 hour headache and I felt like vomiting most of the time. I didn't tell the manager what is going on when I want to finish my shift and leave. Hell I even ask him 3 times if I can leave at the end of the night because of my condition.

When I clock out I actually put my head down at the bar to rest. No one tried to mess with me because I told them I wasn't feeling good. Hell I told them I wasn't my best most of the time. I even told my customers I wasn't in the best condition. But I tried to give a smile knowing they would want that than a grumpy face.

Thankfully my babe picked me up which the moment we arrive home I ran to the bathroom and say hello to Mr. Potty with vomiting. I vomited what was my lunch and dessert. The taste was nasty and luckily it didn't yank all my strength out.

Why?

The Walking Dead was on. Hell I'm not missing that! I laid down with my babe watching the show in ease. I asked my babe I can get some pills for the killer headache, he brought me what I needed with a glass of juice. Took the pills, drank the juice, and this time I said hello to the trash with the vomiting. It actually scared who is like my other mother, Helda, cause she heard me vomiting. She hugged me and gotten worried if I need anything. I told her I would be laying down and I would be fine.

Thanks from all that I pass out on the bed. Woke up past noon.

Now I want to go through my day without anything happening to me. Thanks to this feeling and how my mom took me with the family shopping at the mall. I receive a shit-load of ideas of cosplay.

It would be good to past the time when I wanted to clean. Now, I can't when I'm afraid of my condition. I would some but not a lot.

so... yesterday... I found out that JYJ in coming to narnia OMG ok no they're coming here!! my country! PERU!!!!!!!!! and I'm like asdasddsfkdfsfads no really I've spazzing since yesterday till now with my friends and everything is so perfect so amazing so SURREAL I cant even ;A; all my emotions asdfasdkakjasd I mean MY BIAS IS COMING do you know how many times I've daydreamed about seeing him? OMG just at the thought of looking at his face is thrilling, my body was shaking when my friend told me and OMG THIS IS REAL, IS HAPPENING, I'm a fan of DB5K and I'd have love all the 5 coming but OMG jaejoong is my bias since always! really I like him even when I knew nothing of kpop and when I got to know him better all of him was flawless MY BIAS OMG ok I need to stop this... I'm supposed to be calm now cause like I said I've been spazzing all day

so much love for the people who made this possible