#annie rambles

Fuuuuuuuuck, I HATE applying for jobs. Idk what it is about writing job applications but it makes me feel incredibly anxious and full of self-hatred.

Don’t you just hate it when you roll up to kill a guy and end up sleeping with him instead

Decided I’m gonna try running a marathon this year since it’s been my ultimate fitness and running goal for a while. I’ve set my sights on doing the Nationwide Children’s Hospital Columbus Marathon because it’s both a meaningful race for a cause I support and the closest marathon to me. I’m gonna see if any of my other runner friends want to do it with me. I’ll have to be careful until my podiatry appointment in July when I should be able to get custom insoles/supports made to help with my flat feet. But I really think I can be ready in time for that race in mid-October if I start training now.

I feel like the show watered down Billy’s love for Camila bc they wanted to be sure the fans would be rooting for Billy/Daisy. In the book, Billy is deeply flawed, but there’s no doubt that he worships his wife. From the moment they met, he’s head over heels for her. Every song he writes is for her. He lashes out in self-sabotaging terror when she gets pregnant bc he doesn’t want to be his father, not bc he doesn’t love Camila. They have more kids bc he loves Camila, and Julia, and their family. He grows to love being a dad. He promises over and over and fights over and over to create a better future for them. He gets and stays sober for them. Billy doesn’t stay with Camila out of some obligation because she’s his wife and mother of his child. He stays because she’s Camila. The same reason he loves Daisy for being Daisy.