#andidontknowwhy

2017.08.29 . 一直在玩命 返到屋企仲要做 . 做到旅行酒店都未得閒book 到時我會唔會要瞓街⋯ . #我只係想瞓個覺姐 #codenotworking #andidontknowwhy

“Rosy” 《I’m still wearing the white brocade doublet Caroline gave me. It has a plain high collar, detachable sleeves and intricate buttons of twisted silk thread, set close together so that the fit is snug. The doublet makes me think of a coverlet on the vast bed. Perhaps that was the intention. I first wore it at an elaborate dinner her parents held in our honor. I knew even before I stood up to speak that my cheeks were inflamed. I have always flushed easily, from physical exertion, from wine, from high emotion. As a boy, I was teased by my sisters and by schoolboys, but not by George. Only George could call me Rosy. I would not allow anyone else. He managed to make the word tender. When I made the announcement, George did not turn rosy, but went pale as my doublet. He should not have been surprised. It has been a common assumption that I would one day marry his cousin. But it is difficult to hear the words aloud. I know, I could barely utter them. Afterwards, I found George on the terrace overlooking the kitchen garden. Despite drinking steadily all afternoon, he was still pale. We stood together and watched the maids cut lettuces. “What do you think of my doublet?” I asked. He glanced at me. “That collar looks to be strangling you.” “We will still see each other,” I insisted. “We can still hunt and play cards and attend court. Nothing need change.” George did not speak. “I am 23 years old. It is time for me to marry and produce an heir. It is expected of me.” George drained another glass of claret and turned to me. “Congratulations on your upcoming nuptials, James. I’m sure you’ll be content together.” He never used my nickname again.》

Um, you know anon, I wish I knew. I, myself, am going through something similar to that, and I wish I could ask why they don’t want to, but I’m very shy so doing that is a bit difficult for me to do that. If you can, do it, and hope they will respond. Apologize if you think you should and hopefully its something you can or are willing to fix. Maybe you can get that person back as your friend if you really still want to be their friend, but give them some space. Sometimes that’s all people need. But don’t leave nor suffocate them with questions, or messages or calls.I hope this helps, please message me again if it does.If anyone else has any ideas, please say.I could use this help too, and I’m sure many others could as well.

and a lot of other things