#amy-rants

She doesn’t actually know much of the world bc she was captured in a ship for around half a year give or take (the people on that ship killed her parents btw)

Then she also escaped to the Antarctica for like 8 months(it was the nearest place also where she met pinto) then somehow ended up on another island for the next two years (around that amount of time) then she was finally found by kwazii and paani during a mission

She has the handwriting of a five year old (captivity on a ship doesn’t give you a lot of resources to write smh)

She also can’t read or write (how she’s writing/reading on the ask blog uhh idk text to speech or sum??)

She has like an amazing sense of smell like she can smell anything but it often overwhelms her

She HATES strong scents, like vinegar if you ever give her vinegar without a reason she will punch you in the face

Also she always has her hands on her bag or at least on something

Also Estrella isn’t her real name btw, it was given by Pinto because she can’t remember her actual name anymore bc it been so long since she was called by that name

Even though she’s norwegian she can’t speak it very well (captivity does stuff to you) much to her disappointment

Her sister loves hot chocolate unlike Estrella (if you give her hot chocolate she will tell you she doesn’t like it then proceed to drink all of it for her sister)

Estrella’s mom has a pirate myth about her (Estrella knows the myth to heart)

okay, so why i left was because of three main reasons

- School/personal life burnout

I was running out of energy to properly balance my life and it was either tanking my grades but posting or good grades but temporarily not posting

I wasn’t planning on not posting for so long, but then life happens which leads to

- Life getting me

I have a very weak immune system, which at the time I stopped posting, everyone was getting sick around me, which ended up getting me sick. I also stay sick for longer AND being sick worser (i am infact sick at this moment, dw im getting better)

Which usually means I don’t have the energy to do anything but at least the bare minimum (or at least trying my hardest I can at the moment)

also my physical health has been declining for a bit, so i was trying to get “back to normal” so to speak

So why didn’t I post about this earlier? due to reason 3

- Social-ish reasons

Well, at the time, I was getting more eyes on me, so to speak (I was getting more attention than i was used to)

And I being the very introverted person, got panicked😭 so did the best thing I could do! Hide away from everyone til i felt safe😭

genuinely idk why i do this, im trying to actually get better at this but I suck at it😭

You guys are wonderful, especially the octonauts fandom, its mostly my dumb brain that got nervous

I planned to returned after like a month or something, but then life got worser for me which worsen my social anxiety or whatever i have wrong with me

I never met to be gone for this long, and i’m genuinely sorry (i feel really bad)

Another reason (under this) I stopped posting was because I put too much pressure on posting only octonauts content when I wanted to post other type of content (ocs, and other fandoms)

So in the future expect more content from other things because this is my blog and i shouldn’t be anxious abt it (not being mean just letting u guys know, im trying to be “stricter” abt it so I can stay with my word)

- (spaced out so it doesn’t look long asf) -

Another thing I wanted to address is the ask blogs (I will be posting this explanation over there in a bit)

I will be posting on there!! I promise, I don’t know when😭 but i will

The main reason I stopped posting was due to my social/mood was getting low so I couldn’t act like them (which i like to strive for whenever I do an ask blog, also the reasons above didn’t help at all)

I actually had something planned with my ask blogs, but for now I will actually temporarily postpone it for a bit til i get my act together

Overall, sorry for disappearing, I got too overwhelmed by life and posting (also STORAGE KEEPS SCREWING ME OVER GEHHWHA /nm)

if you have any questions lmk in the comments